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Longing for Intimacy

 

I just want to write a quick post on the transits we’ve been enduring over the past 5 days.  With Jupiter at the Root Centre pressuring the emotions and Neptune in the Gate of Abundance, I expected it to be a warm and friendly healing energy.  Alas!  For many people the pressure was almost unbearable.

There’s a number of reasons for that.

First one is that Ceres is in Gate 59 – part of the channel that is at the core of intimate relationships.  Ceres can trigger rage and grief, so she can sometimes be a difficult energy!

Gate 59 is called Dispersion and it serves two functions.  It dissolves (disperses) blockages in the natural flow of energy between our body and our emotions.  And it reaches out for the kind of warmth and intimacy we seek in a really wonderful sexual relationship.  So while we can disperse those blockages ourselves, we are conditioned to seek relief from the stagnation of our energy by falling in love.  Then, when we can’t find a lover, we feel lack – a lack of flow between our body and emotions, a lack of warmth and a lack of intimacy.

Of course there’s nothing wrong with having – or wanting to have – a warm intimate sexual relationship and that’s partly what many people were feeling a lack of in the past week.

 

The Sun and Earth are sitting in the Channel that is sometimes called Community – Gate 37 and 40.  These gates are astrologically opposite, so they are at odds with each other. This can create inner conflict.  Do I want to be outgoing and friendly or do I want to be alone?  Am I feeling generous and supportive or do I want to take care of myself first?   Our essential aloneness (or should I say existential aloneness?) is triggered by the combination of the 39/55 in the Individual circuit ( I have to struggle on alone) and the 37/40 Communal circuit (I need others to love and support me).

The Heart Centre is one of the most misunderstood Centres in Human Design.  We all understand the Solar Plexus, it’s all about emotions.  We might struggle with our emotions but we know what they feel like.  The Heart Centre sits midway between the Solar Plexus and the Ji Centre – between feelings and soul – between emotions and our higher self.   It’s the ego mediator, the place where we can truly become divine by understanding both our larger spiritual self and our smaller human self.  And this week it’s been under a lot of pressure.

By the time the energy reaches Gate 21 in the Heart Centre there are three motors involved (and four motors if you include Ceres and the possibility of someone around with the adjoining Gate 6).   And it’s all under pressure from the Root Centre, where we can also find Pluto in the Gate of Joy.

The major theme here is twofold.  Firstly, we long to be embraced by something warm and loving, to feel included and recognised and to have intimacy as part of our everyday lives.  Many of us don’t have that now.  And it is essential to life, so it’s lack can bring up painful feelings of loneliness and longing.

Secondly, the Heart Centre represents our will and how we apply it. Most of us have a very damaged capacity to act from our natural willfulness.  And that hurts, because this is how we integrate our personal and divine selves.  Much of our culture’s childrearing is based on breaking the child’s will, taking away his or her natural responses, overpowering the child and creating fear rather than love.  Here we find the nub of the pain of the past week.  When we have expressed our will as children and been corrected, we have experienced this as a withdrawal of love and intimacy.  So now, why would we risk taking action on our own (naturally willful) behalf?  The subconscious belief is that this will threaten our very existence through loss of love.  This is incredibly deep, since it triggers conditioning of loss of self that goes back generations.

 

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The asteroid Child is sitting opposite Pluto just now, and it’s the frozen child who needs our attention.  In the Gate of Keeping Still in the Root Centre, the child has copped the freeze part of the fight, flight or freeze response.  When we have so much pressure to feel our emotions and to act powerfully on our own behalf, it hurts when our capacity to respond naturally is frozen.  Ceres in the Gate of Dispersing is there to dissolve the blockages but it’s a process that’s not straightforward or always easy.  Be gentle, this is the work of correcting many generations of fear of releasing the self into a world of love and intimacy.

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Look Up For The Light

 

Late on 23rd August Greenwich Mean Time the Moon will be exactly opposite Venus.  (6pm Eastern on Friday 23rd August)

Not so important, you might think, since the Moon opposes Venus once a month, regular as … well some sort of ancient and almost forgotten ‘clockwork’.  But this month it will trigger a powerful transit event.  Here’s the astrological chart, which clearly shows the relationships between Jupiter and Pluto, Uranus, Moon and Venus.

 

astrological transit chart for 23rd August

 

That’s a lovely square there in the middle!  Let’s see what the Human Design transit chart looks like.

 

HD transit chart 23rd August 2013

 

 

Not quite such obvious geometry, but let’s look a bit closer.  This configuration is part of the life changing Pluto Uranus square sequence we are experiencing between 2012 and 2015.   This series of powerful transits is gradually teaching us to step out of the crowd and claim our own genius, our own personal place in the sun.  Instead of being part of a generic mass called ‘humanity’, you and I will be shining lights of co-creative energy inhabiting our own unique place within the web of life.

It’s a slow process, often with two steps forward and one step back.  It requires carefully unravelling fears and compacted trauma which are embedded deep within our DNA.  The stories of lack of recognition, of not being enough, of feeling invisible, are woven into the human sense of self.   At each step we must slow down to unravel the tangle, then we can move on again.

 

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We are beginning to truly understand what is possible.  As we emerge from the fog of confusion about who we really are, we can reach out and support each other to gain more and more clarity.  Our sense of wonder at the possibilities before us is more reliably present in our lives.

Uranus is creating a channel with the TNO Chaos.

 

Both Uranus and Chaos are about the fractal reality.  They are about sudden shifts that make new things happen.  This is about being present with the quality of the moment and conscious of what you can create from it.  Chaos (in Gate 45.2) tells us that showing up is the most important thing.  Uranus says to stop trying to get nourishment from things that aren’t really feeding you. Bite through to what’s right for you, and let go of what others believe is good for you.

Uranus square Pluto in it’s current form (Pluto in 58 and Uranus in 21) puts us under pressure to bring together the seemingly impossible qualities of living life on our own terms while simultaneously opening up warmly to others.  There is a series of small deaths in this process, and much upheaval of our day to day life.

Venus is also square Pluto, but in the Human Design chart that puts her right in the same channel.  Pluto is in the Gate of Joy in the Root Centre (58) and Venus is in the adjoining Gate of Correction (18) in the Spleen Centre.  This is the place in the chart where DNA shifts.  It challenges the old stories and changes the way we relate to a reality that is created from the top down.  Pluto pressures us to claim our own bodies, our own wellbeing, and Venus makes a space for us to move away from rebellion against authority that has become empty politics.  It’s time to leave it behind and claim a larger agenda.  It may be harder to see, but it’s more real.

The Moon makes a channel with that wonderful asteroid Kassandra (in Gate 62), an oracle who was cursed by Apollo, who then took her oracular powers for his own.  Kassandra was doomed to speak out her prophecies but to never be believed.  Gate 62 is a portal gate for the light codes of humanity.  If we wish to use logical language to convey reason we must crack open the left sides of our brain to let in the amorphous and abstract ‘reason’ from the other side.

We can’t find words for it, but the multidimensional energetics of speech are evolving to move us beyond words as singular units of information.  We can sense the tone of voice, we can feel the energy in them, we can see the look on people’s faces.  There is so much more to words that we have allowed ourselves to rationally know.  And women, who tend to have a much more active corpus callosum in their brain – the membrane down the centre of our brain that facilitates information flow between the two hemispheres – are more at home with the integration of the two modes of communication.

The Moon and Kassandra are healing our capacity to speak our own truth, blended with love and light, with the rational and the so-called irrationality of the incoming inspiration of the feminine.  Kassandra and the Moon are asking us to stop fearing what we may say and allow our voices to join in the universal flow of creation.  If we are not believed, we probably should move ourselves into a position where where can have a real impact.  But if that seems impossible, we should consider small ways in which we can bridge the gap in communication.

Arachne is weaving a larger web, and asking our magical child to play.  In the Channel of Rhythm, Arachne (in Gate 5) joins Pandora.  What are we afraid of letting out of the box if we open up to a new divine self?  What have we been taught to curse in ourselves, and so to keep hidden away?  The asteroid Child (in the adjoining Gate 15) says we should abandon false modesty and instead inhabit our honesty and integrity. If that feels hard to grasp, look for where it’s lacking and use that lack as inspiration to create change, even to venture further afield.   How does our day to day habit of keeping to the clock block our capacities?  And how can we free ourselves into a larger reality of time and space?

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Ceres and Mercury in the Gate of The Abyss (29) amplify the message of keeping it authentic in the moment.  It seems impossible for us to make the necessary changes in time, they seem so overwhelming  – politically, environmentally, personally.  But there is a small opening over the next few days.  We should stop digging down deeper trying to find the solution in the old paradigm and look up to see where the light is coming in.  There’s no need for anything more elaborate than to commit ourselves – mind, body and soul – to that potential and where it might lead us.  This isn’t about setting goals, it’s about releasing ourselves to a new relationship with the universe, and being present in conscious choice each step of the journey.

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Committing to Self Compassion

What a lovely transit chart!  I’m seeing a bit of crankiness, with that Moon joining Saturn in the Channel of Struggle, but that will shift in the next hour or so when the Moon moves on.

The lovely thing is the Sun and Venus connecting the Sacral to the Ji.  (more about the centres here)  What makes it even better is that Ceres is there as well.  The tension here is in choosing to nurture ourselves and explore our own potential ahead of choosing to care for others.  Ceres can bring a profound relief from the cycles of life, but only when we make a clear choice to commit our vital energies to ourselves first.  How might that feel?

Wherever Venus turns up in a transit chart she invariably brings harmony and healing.  She soothes and regenerates.  In the Gate of Pushing Upwards (46) in the Ji Centre she is revitalising our capacity to take steps on our own unique pathway.  She brings the patient power of the earth to grow something new and vulnerable within us.

There is a powerful realignment of our energy happening at the moment.  We are releasing so much past trauma from our cells, and gradually, very gradually, learning that we have the capacity to keep ourselves safe as we open out to new experiences, as we discover new capacities within us.  We are shifting from a state of frozen hypervigilance – a state induced by our culture – looking the fear in the face and seeing that the threat it has held over our head for centuries is not real.  We have begun to put our energy to better uses than keeping ourselves safe from an illusory danger.

As someone said to me this week – your fears are not real, but you are.  It’s a wonderful thing to begin to believe more in ourselves than our demons!

We have new worlds to create, warm intimate relationships to form, creative adventures to undertake!  There is no doubt that there will be new dangers ahead, but they will be real ones, dangers that we can deal with because obstacles and difficulties are a natural part of the creative process.

dudadazePower is shifting on this planet, and you are the happy recipient!  You have an ever  increasing capacity for maturity, for wielding your own sceptre making your own choices, creating your own reality.  To do this well, even to do it good enough, you and I need to have an effective container.  It’s important that we are gentle, loving, kind and nurturing towards ourselves.  That we learn the very difficult lesson of self compassion.  That we develop the power to open out to others in joyful anticipation.   That we meet obstacles with a sense of adventure rather than a fear of further struggle.

Be kind if you are experiencing one of Ceres’ more powerful emotional responses – rage at transgressions against you, and grief over a loss of love and connection.  Don’t block these feelings, gently drop into them and feel them moving through your body. As you fully experience them, you’ll experience them shifting from one minute to the next.  Just allow the flow of emotion to keep moving, and observe how it shifts.  This is the road to emotional maturity, the key to emotional clarity.

 

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Kristen Neff’s book on Self Compassion is always by my bed. It is such a nurturing experience to read it.

There’s some wonderful practical stuff here on self care.  I thought you might enjoy reading it.

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It’s important to find the delicate balance between self soothing that keeps us locked in a negative emotional cycle, and self compassion that finally gives us the recognition for our pain and suffering that we’ve been longing for. The first one comes with the baggage of learned helplessness, the second with hope and trust in our very real capacity to create a better future.

Today, as the Sun conjuncts Ceres in the Gate of The Abyss, we are on a pathway to a more nourishing sense of self.  If we choose to make a commitment to the journey, our lives will never be the same again.

 

 

Learn more about the Minor Planets and Asteroids in the Human Design System here

Image:  Diana Duda ~ http://dudadaze.blogspot.com.au/

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Hope and Blessings Are On Their Way

 

Today Jupiter moves to an auspicious meeting with Neptune.  They connect the Root Centre to the Solar Plexus Centre.  You may feel obstructions fall away and emotions flow more easily.  You’ll probably feel a sense of faith in life and it’s bounty that you haven’t experienced for a while, with all the Pluto Saturn energy that’s been dragging us kicking and screaming to earth.

Jupiter and Neptune are a very positive combination.  In fact they can be too positive!  They can bathe us in so much optimism that we lose touch with reality.  So if you feel a rush of blood and a dizzy feeling of being unlimited, enjoy it but don’t make it the basis of spontaneous decision making.  However, on the plus side, Jupiter and Neptune can take us inside material reality and show us that everything, yes everything, is boundless and infinite.  This is a transit for understanding we can move beyond obstacles by allowing universal energies to infiltrate our thinking and permeate our dreams.

Neptune has been in the Gate of Abundance since February 2012 and will stay there until March 2014.  Read more …

Jupiter will be in the adjoining Gate of Obstruction till 8th September 2013, after which it shifts to Gate 53 (and there’s another wonderful story which I’ll get to later!)

It’s crucial to allow time for emotional clarity between now and then, even if you are emotionally undefined. We are being impulsed with positive and hopeful emotions and we can easily get high on them and act before they have a chance to balance out.  The flip side is to make sure that you trust the higher more exalted feelings. Don’t discount them because they are ‘unrealistic’ or impractical.  That only applies in our current reality and we are moving beyond that place.  This transit enhances innovation and creative new ideas that will be highly practical once we allow them to settle.  Watch in particular for new approaches to problems and difficulties to arise as if by magic. It will support us to create a gentler and lighter story of life, infused with spirit and compassion.

The activation at the Root Centre also brings a new sense of safety about being in our bodies.  It’s a great time to do embodiment practices, and to tune into emotions that may have been difficult to experience in the past.

Here’s two wonderful books that will be useful during this transit.  I can’t recommend them highly enough!

Karla McLarens’ book brings our attention to the specific meaning of our emotions, and teaches us how they can naturally flow. She suggests a radical new perspective: that all of our emotions are equally important messengers, ready to assist us in acting with full awareness and integrity.  A wonderful book.

 

Judith Blackstone has written a breathtaking book about embodiment.  It’s truly different to anything I’ve read before on this subject.   It holds a new perspective on the experience of being in our bodies, and how we can relate comfortably to ourselves, the world and other people without losing ourselves.  I just love this book!

 

So enjoy this amazing transit, it will infuse us with hope and bring blessings to us all.

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Full Moon July 2013 – shifting our relationship to life as we know it

 

This upcoming Full Moon triggers an astrological grand trine – which is a perfect triangle in the astrology chart.  It looks like this:

 

 

 

The blue triangle represents Jupiter, Saturn and Neptune in a Grand Trine, all working together to uplift us.

The Human Design chart is also remarkable just now.  Since Saturn joined Pluto, connecting the Root to the Spleen, we’ve been experiencing a downward pressure.  At times it feels like gravity is overpowering us.  The Root and Spleen bring us fully into the world of substance and material reality.  Since May 2013, our souls have been experiencing life on the physical plane like never before. How do our hearts live here?  That’s a question worth finding an answer to!

This current transit intensifies the energy in the Root Centre.  And that’s important, because it’s very possible that the Root Centre is the most complex Centre in the Human Design chart.  It represents our understanding of the nature of material reality, and how to engage with it.  It puts us on the cutting edge of science, as we explore our relationship with our own material aspect – the physical body – and with how we create on the material plane.  But to get there we have to jettison an age of  beliefs about the split between spirit and matter.

Here’s the Human Design transit chart for the Full Moon on 22nd July, 8.15am UT.

 

 

 

Each of the planets in the Grand Trine – Jupiter, Saturn and Neptune – connect to the Root Centre.  For those of you familiar with the Gates, here’s the positions – Jupiter in 52, Saturn in 28 (Pluto connects it to the Root), Neptune in 55 (Mercury connects it to the Root).   Notice that Pluto is sitting right in the middle of this configuration.  Mars is almost exactly conjunct Jupiter.  Also, the moon – the Full Moon – is in the Root Centre in the Gate of Limitations (60).  This is powerful medicine.

The Root Centre is the energy sphere where things come into physical form.  In the search for substance, the energies of all the other Centres flow down into the Root Centre and are there transformed, birthed into physical reality.  It is the place where our spirit finds perfected form.  There are three reasons why this process can feel really difficult.

Firstly, the physical reality is dense. To a spiritually sensitive person it can feel harsh and unkind.  We have an alternative, which is to avoid being fully embodied, and to live in some version of our own dream life.  Or to live in some form of  hell, acceptable or otherwise,  but perpetually approaching our dream life.  Either way, it’s a bit like approaching infinity.  We can see it, touch it, smell it, feel we’re getting closer and closer, but we’ll never arrive. Most of humanity lives in this way, so we are bucking the trend by allowing ourselves to even consider going there.   In her excellent book Belonging Here, Judith Blackstone says that more spiritually aware people find the dissonance of an inauthentic way of being very uncomfortable, and yet we still hold onto these constructs because we believe they keep us safe.

Secondly, the physical reality has an image problem.  Mind should rule over matter and the needs and desires of our bodies pay no heed to right and wrong.  Think of the seven deadly sins – greed, sloth, gluttony, lust, envy, pride and wrath – most of these can be slated back to our bodily instincts.  Christian ethics are not on good terms with the life of the physical body, and christian ethics underpin our culture in ways we forget to imagine.  Loving our bodies, and those of other people, well it’s a struggle, especially if they don’t look just so.

Thirdly, when good and evil were parcelled out, back in the day, evil got to go on the same team as the body and the feminine.  The dark, the  unknown, the void, the formless and, ironically, the body and it’s dirty workings.  Obviously up to no good, and best kept hidden out of sight.  Along with the dark body, which went the way of evil, was it’s capacity to create.  If God is the father and the mother is a virgin, who is the creator?  Not Mary, that’s for sure!  She is loving and protective, but a passive non-creative partner.  Somewhere along the path to the 21st century we lost our understanding of how to create in a downwards direction, on the physical plane, and got stuck in our heads (masculine).

treeoflife1In the Kaballah, the Root Centre equates to the sephiroth Malkuth, which means Kingdom or Monarchical Reign.  Some Kabalah scholars see this sephiroth as representing our capacity to do God’s will, not out of fear, but because we have discovered it is the best way for us to live.  We are, in effect, allowing God’s will to act through us.   As a religious tradition the Kaballah is all about the individual’s relationship with God.  In Human Design, the Root Centre is partly about how we create our own individual reality.

There are many fears within the Kingdom of Malkuth.  Fears that we will be stripped of our free will and forced to behave as if we were ‘normal’.   There are fears that we must surrender up our bodies, their wisdom, sensitivity and intuitive wonders.  And on the other hand, fears that if we truly do succumb to the experience of embodiment, the intensity of such a harsh reality as we imagine there will be too much to bear.

Carolyn Myss speaks about the Root Chakra as a tribal energy.  In her book, Anatomy of the Spirit, she talks about the need to challenge toxic tribal power. Although we evolved to be social, our loyalty to our ‘clan’ can cause unconscious fears about breaking free, even when the detriment to ourselves is extreme.

Right now, we sit on a profound ecological cusp, where the shift from tribal to collective is changing our very experience of being an individual. It’s demanding changes not just in our behaviour, but shifting our our brain pathways, our endocrine system, everything right down to the coding in our DNA.

In her book The Body is the Barometer of the Soul, Annette Noontil describes the Root Chakra as representing a loyalty to our selves.  We are here on this earth to enjoy ourselves, she says, and to do this we must be loyal to what we need to thrive.  And we must be prepared to create what we need on the material plane. Regardless of the perceived risk.

This is a time when we are being asked to release ourselves from the familial, the tribal, the known, and to leap.  We shouldn’t expect to be caught by one person – our lover, a parent, a friend – but by everyone, by all of the rest of us.  We have to trust each other.  Similarly, we each have to be ready to catch those who leap our way, and to be kind and understand the risk it took for them to do so.  This is a break down of family patterning.  Not a breakdown of families, but an extension of the arms of trust beyond the tribal or family ‘known’ structure of support, and into the wild beyond.

This is an area of life ruled by the fractal patterning of the heart, and it is our new home.  A place where we have trust in our experience of life, in our own choices, and in the help and support that happens our way.  Living here unleashes immense creativity, and moves us clearly into the next dimensional space of being.  It’s the key to unlock the issues of unfettered growth within our existing dimension and to overcome apparent lack and degradation.  

The Root Centre is like the part of the Human Design map that is uncharted, a place where we may find dragons and other monsters.  We’ve bravely headed in there with barely a torch to light our way.

Here are the planets that are supporting us.

Mars and Jupiter in the Gate of Keeping Still (52) – while everything around us is moving, we can connect with a sense of meaning and purpose when we find our own stillpoint.  We don’t need to be rushing around, even though the pressure on the Root Centre may be sending the activity levels of others through the roof (or the floor).  Take your shoes off, stand on the earth and find what you really want to be doing just now.  What is the essence of your passion, your drive to engage with the world?

Saturn in the Gate of Exceeding (28) –   We’ve gone as far as we can with the way things have been and Saturn is opening a doorway for change.  If we try to solve old problems, we’ll just get stuck with old solutions.  It’s time to build a firm foundation by making things real, which means looking at what truly supports your wellbeing.  New solutions require a lot of effort, we’re breaking down unhealthy habits that are woven down deep into our DNA.  It’s a slow process and we’re making steady progress.

Neptune in the Gate of Abundance (55) –  This is a crucial time.   A beautiful new reality is being created here.  The signs of what is emerging are becoming clearer as we fine tune our emotions and align with a more discerning energy.  Although we may seek to block the world out in order to preserve our sensitivity, what’s required is that we allow ourselves to feel our feelings.  Working with Saturn at the other end, this creates a connection with what’s really real, not just what we believe should be real, or what we’re told is real.  Neptune is bringing the dreamers to earth.

Pluto in the Gate of Opposing (38) –  where diversity is seen as a threat, hatred and opposition will follow.  The trial of George Zimmerman for the shooting of Tray Martin is a perfect example of this.  It demonstrates the tribal patterning we are moving away from, something different is threatening and must be annihilated so that I can remain safe.  The outpouring of support for a better way is the new collective heart energy – difference and diversity is not a threat, but is a creative force to be celebrated.

Mercury (stationary) in the Gate of Obstruction (39) – we increase circulation by not allowing obstruction to block us.  Where we feel obstructed we look for the quality within ourselves.  If we feel someone doesn’t love us, rather than feeling unloved we look for love within our own heart.  If someone is rude to us, we look for charity and politeness within ourselves. If someone denies us something we desire, we look for how we can give to ourselves.  In this way we move beyond the idea of being powerless, at the mercy of the whims of others, and we learn to attract the people and energies ready to invest themselves in the same work.

Moon and Earth in the Gate of Limitation (60) –  How much of everything will make you feel safe?  You are at home now, with everything you need to be filled with love, to achieve your dreams, to find health and happiness.  Take some time to put your house in order, to know what you need, what to ask for.  There’s no need to be anxious or to try too hard.  There’s no panic, no rush.  You have enough of everything to be safe, to birth yourself fully into this life.

 

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The Sun is way up in the Ajna Centre, all alone, in the Gate of the Wanderer.  This is fitting, because it tells us that we are in the process of understanding something quite new about our selves.  We may feel awkward, as if we don’t know how to live in the world anymore. We will tend to want to draw back to the old problems and habits, and feel unsure if our new creative capacities will bring us to a safe shore anytime soon.  Although we carry many gifts with us, they are not the gifts we are accustomed to offering.  Often they were gifts we have been critic

Our sense of unease will shift as we gradually move beyond the materialistic mode of thinking and being.  One of the major findings of quantum science is that life is all about relationships.  Above everything else, relationships create reality.  As energy in the form of a human body, you and I can shift into a quantum reality by focusing on our relationships just now.  Who supports you? What help do you need?  How does the diversity around you help everyone thrive?

This Full Moon represents a completion of our existing scientific paradigm.  This is having, and will continue to have, a profound impact on us at every level.  It shifts our very relationship to the concept and experience of matter. Trying to keep things solid and same will only create resistance within and without.  Look to connections rather than substance, to creating stillness with flow rather than solid blockages, and to a profound shift between your personal dualities – inner/outer, left/right, feminine/masculine, friend/foe.

 

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I’m planning a new PlayGroup – My Flourishing Business ~ how Human Design can support you and your business to flourish to take advantage of this new energy of flourishing.  

PlayGroups are held online, so anyone can attend, and this one will begin in late August.  You can pre-register for first chance to grab one of the 8 PlayGroup spots here.  Pre-registration is free, and simply means you’ll receive further information about the PlayGroup in your inbox as it’s available.

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New Moon ~ July 2013

ballsNew Moon in Gate 53.2 ~ Monday 8th July 7:15am UT, 0:15am PDT, 3:15 EDT, 5:15pm AEST

 

Today’s New Moon comes on the heels of the Sun making a channel with Neptune in the Gate of Abundance.  The Sun was signalling a crucial moment in our lives, a time when all the balls lined up and we got a vague sense of the possible cornucopia our lives could be.  I say vague, because Neptune likes to let us wander around in the fog for a while.   But the signs of what is emerging are starting to show more clearly and Neptune’s role here is to help us refine them.  He wants us to find the highest possible expression of our dreams.

One of the problems we face when the balls are all lined up, is that they look so pretty!  If we take a shot it will all be chaos again, balls all over the place!  So sometimes, instead of taking that shot, we pour a glass of wine, ring a friend for a chat or go outside and have a cigarette.  And dream about the perfect shot we might have made, and how many of those perfect balls we could have sunk in the corner hole.   Neptune likes to dream of perfection.  And knowing how to create perfection on Earth, that’s his ultimate goal.

The New Moon is encoded with instructions for that shot.  And I’m here to let you know, there are no expectations.  We don’t expect you to win the Championship Point with that one shot.  All we want is that you do something.  Take some kind of action.  Small or large, it doesn’t really matter.

When we take action on our own behalf it creates change.  And change is not something we’re really comfortable with. Not really.  Change means something is lost and something is gained.  Moving to a beautiful new house means packing up and leaving the old one behind.  I got a new car about 2 weeks ago.  My old car is still parked in my driveway.  I can’t bring myself to sell it.  I love that car!  I put up with it breaking down on me for two years in preference to buying a more reliable one.  Actions require decisions and decisions bring loss.

And uncertainty.

When we launch ourselves on that new trajectory, who knows what will happen?  What if I spend all my money on a new car and I don’t like it?  What if I move to a new neighbourhood and spend every day wishing I was somewhere else?

This New Moon is a whisker away from Pluto and right on top of Mercury retrograde.  It’s also creating a channel with Eris, the Goddess of Discord and Chaos, who is sitting in Gate 42.  When Eris takes action, well things happen.  And not always good things.  So no one could blame us for not taking action right now, could they?

The Sun and Moon will be in Gate 53.2.  This is the Gate of Gradual Progress, a gate where we grow into life’s possiblities, where we get results gradually and almost imperceptibly when we have the patience to stay loyal to the destination as the journey unfolds.   The Earth is in Gate 54.2. This is the Gate of the Marrying Maiden,the concubine who seeks to better herself.  This is a gate of slowing finding your place in a new world, accepting that you are not yet Queen, that you don’t yet know the lay of the land.  This is not so much a time to take decisive action or have a clear agenda.  We are entering new territory, a new consciousness and a new way of being.  We mustn’t allow our old fears to drive us into action too soon out of fear of missing out.  Nor should we attempt to control our lives out of a love of winning, becoming the Queen rather than the concubine.

This week, act as if you have arrived in a new household.  Your existing assumptions and beliefs may apply here.  Then again, they may not.  Take your time to observe the customs, the ways in which things are done here.  Be gentle, we’re in the Root Centre and the ancient fears of humanity reside here.  If you try to take control of anything, Mercury retrograde and Eris may make mischief with you.  It’s not so much about achieving anything in particular as it is about getting to know yourself and what you’re capable of, and what you truly enjoy. Take your time, observe, act in small ways that support you to open up to new possibilities.

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I’m planning a new PlayGroup – My Flourishing Business ~ how Human Design can support you and your business to flourish to take advantage of this new energy of flourishing.  

PlayGroups are held online, so anyone can attend, and this one will begin in late August.  You can pre-register for first chance to grab one of the 8 PlayGroup spots here. Pre-registration is free, and simply means you’ll receive further information about the PlayGroup in your inbox as it’s available.

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To Dream and Wonder .. opening to a new way

 

fern_sprouts_in_the_forest_by_wolfepaw-d5a0ttrIf you feel like you have to struggle … stop. Take a breath, feel yourself connecting with the whole of the situation, open yourself energetically to support.

Right now we are doing two things. We are learning to manifest our desires on the physical plane.  And we are in a portal that asks us to imagine, as the first step in developing these new skills, what life we want to live .

Part of this is to learn to let go, to surrender, when we get into a struggle or blocked mindset. The yang in overdrive is a sign that we aren’t fully trusting the yin to support and guide us. It can show up as anxiety, depression, feeling blocked, being too active.  This is a time to allow ourselves to be held in a space of creative imagination, to dream and wonder what if.  To plan and speak about how it could be.  And trust that every breath moves us closer, just as we imagine it.

 

We don’t do this alone, the connections between us are shifting so that we are becoming open systems rather than closed systems.  Closed systems are numb to the relationships and support available to them.  As human’s we have been traumatised to the point of not being able to see or know when support was being offered.  This has encouraged isolation and a massive reduction in our capacity for creative expansion.  Our reliance on fossil fuels and our collective resistance to free energy is a great example of a closed system. Within humanity, closed systems are based on fear.

Open systems are infinite in their capacity to change and evolve.  As an open system we delight in connecting with others to enhance the experience of everyone involved.  We trust our own capacity to choose who we connect with, when and how.  Huge groups can come together with little if any friction, because we hold our individual shape, our wishes and dreams intact, and offer them up, along with our capacity to act on their behalf, to the group.  Open systems give us strength, flexibility, resilience and a sense of meaningful inclusion.

All you Projectors out there can rejoice!  In open systems, we are recognised and appreciated.  I call this the Projector Revolution.  It is the beginning of our ability to recognise and act on behalf of our own Projector aspects (even if you are not a Projector type, you’ll almost certainly have Projector channels in your design).

Watch how these subtle inner shifts are about to change the world as we know it.  Our personal imaginative capacity and newly found ability to build powerfully creative relationships is a force that cannot be resisted.

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I’m planning a new PlayGroup – My Flourishing Business ~ how Human Design can support you and your business to flourish to take advantage of this new energy of flourishing.  

PlayGroups are held online, so anyone can attend, and this one will begin in late August.  You can pre-register for first chance to grab one of the 8 PlayGroup spots here.  Pre-registration is free, and simply means you’ll receive further information about the PlayGroup in your inbox as it’s available.

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Owning the Creative Power of Chaos

 

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Things feel quite chaotic just now.  Even if we didn’t take notice of the news, we might feel it within our own bodies and emotions.  Strange feelings, anxieties and physical symptoms beset us.

Ironically, chaos isn’t really chaotic.  Chaos is made of fractals.  And fractals have a very important quality.  They hold the same energetic pattern from the largest macro level down to the most minute micro level.  That pattern operates holographically.  In other words, if you take one portion of the pattern you will find it is reproduced over and over again, up to the macro level.

This is important to you and I.  It is the basis of our growing personal power in the world, and gives a huge clue to how we can create change.

For the past few hundred years, the world we know has been held in place by our collective agreement to believe in a mechanistic universe.  We saw it as such, and so it was.  That very concept is post-mechanistic.  Quantum mechanics tells us quite clearly that we see what we expect to see. Reality is what we make it.  That’s no longer a new age or hippy idea.  It’s cutting edge science.  We just don’t quite know what to do with that knowledge yet.

Our bodies are essentially creatures of chaos.  They contain many fractals.  The tubes that take air into our lungs.  The nerves in our brain and spine.  Blood vessels.  Then there’s nature.  We find fractals in trees, rivers, wind blown patterns in sand.  Chaos is everywhere.  Nature is so intricate that it appears disordered.  In fact, these days we just call it ‘complex’.  We need supercomputers to comprehend the order, and to render it  predictable and understandable to our level of thinking.

But the intelligence of our bodies goes far beyond that of complex maths and supercomputers.  Human Design is one of the most astonishing tools for tuning us into the new emergent reality. It teaches us about our own personalised  connections with the universe.

Our personal and collective safety has relied upon an agreement that “reality” comes from outside of us.  It is something objective, and something that we are largely powerless to do anything other than respond to.  Quantum reality tells a different story.  It tells us that you and I create reality, even matter itself, around our expectations and observations.  We do it on a personal level, and collectively.  The science of fractals tells us that what we expect and observe in this moment will extrapolate out holographically, expressing itself in all levels of our life.

Yesterday I wrote about Saturn in the Spleen Centre.  Saturn, grand upholder of homeostatis and stable structures, finds himself in the gate of collapsing houses.  Saturn, lover of tradition, finds himself in a house that is no longer adequate to the weight it’s being asked to bear. The existing structures of our lives are under stress.  Saturn’s role is to tell us we can’t just sit around bemoaning the destruction around us, we have to step up.  As Hilary Barrett says about this gate – Our greatness of spirit and purpose goes beyond the scope of the situation.  We reach out imaginatively and explore.  Since things cannot hold up as they are, there must be movement.  

The Spleen Centre is filled with gates that are in the astrological sign of Libra.  Libra and Saturn are not the best of friends but they do share a love of balance.  Then along comes Pluto in the Root Centre and flings them both to the wolves.  Balance be damned!  Pluto demands change at the deepest level of our being.  Pluto, harbinger of the atomic age and a chaotic universe, calls for emergence.  He demands that we step to the very precipice of our safe and stable world and leap into the verdant evolutionary void.

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The Root Centre is so important to you and I just now.  The Sun moved there this week.  And Jupiter will arrive on 13th July, remaining until 2nd June 2014.

As we move towards fully embodying our spiritual being, the Root Centre is the last stop.  It’s not an easy place to focus our attention.  Centuries of conditioning have made it difficult to stand firmly on the earth as an individual and hold a clear expectation that we are enough, that we will be accepted, loved, included.  Jupiter has demonstrated, as it’s moved through the Throat Centre recently, that all manner of things can turn out well, against every rational expectation.    So, although the Root Centre is a place where our fight/flight adrenal response resides and we hold deep dna messages filled with fear, Jupiter brings the chance to make things come right.

Women are important here.  Recent research shows that while men are wired for fight and flight, women have a greater tendency towards what’s being called the tend and befriend response.  When faced with difficulties women naturally tend to reach out, to trust, to collaborate.  These next 12 months, with Jupiter’s positive glow hovering over the adrenal energy of every human on this planet, that tend and befriend response is going to change the world.

Scientific research over the past 20 years has debunked the tough guy stance of survival of the fittest.  I turns out the the most successful organisms over the huge sweep of history were those that learnt to cooperate rather than compete.  Organisms that rely on competition tend to die off.  This makes the tend and befriend response to stress a more more attractive survival strategy than the old fight or flight.  Seek out those who can help, work out a plan, take joint action.  (*)

Neptune Activations

Human Design Transit ChartFrom the 1st to 7th July,  the Sun and Earth move to Gates 39 and 38 in the Root Centre.  The Earth will be in the same gate as Pluto.  The Sun will create a bridge between Pluto and Neptune.  The Root Centre will be connected to both the Spleen Centre (your physical intuition) and the Solar Plexus Centre (your emotions).

This is a recipe for anxiety, fear and depression, for feeling that the world is against us, that we are abandoned, alienated, exiled, that we are trapped and can take no action.  That’s enough to get anyone’s fight or flight kicking!  However.  And it’s a big however.  The next 10 days bring a major opportunity to disregard the old fear based conditioning, to reach out to others in a community humanity.  There’s no need to buy into the old stories, to react to bad behaviour.  The most potent action you can take during this period is to stay grounded in your own life, and choose kindness and inclusion.  This doesn’t mean rescuing others or doing things you aren’t comfortable with, but it does mean exercising compassion for yourself and others in our humanity.

Neptune is doing something amazing in Gate 55 in the Solar Plexus Centre.  It is cleansing our emotional bodies of anything that prevents us flourishing in the world.  That includes a tendency to be mesmerised and glamourised away from the truth.  Watch next weeks as veils lift and truths are revealed about powerful systems (Saturn/Pluto).  Neptune also activates the well known triad of victim – rescuer – perpetrator.  Richard Rudd believes that Gate 55 is specifically related to this dynamic, so Neptune’s time there must surely be dissolving these roles.  If you don’t take up one of these three roles, what’s left?  David Emerald suggests the alternative is that we each become powerful creators, and that we help and support others to do the same.  There are new skills of universal creation that we are only just on the cusp of grasping.

Mercury, Venus and Mars will pass through some challenging gates during this six days.  In particular  Mars will spend most of it in the Gate of Standstill, meaning that your naturally soaring sense of grand possibilities may feel like they are coming to nothing.  Mercury will be retrograde in the Gate of Small Exceeding that counsels us not to overdo things, to stay close to the ground.  This is good advice.

When I was giving birth to my daughter, 15 years ago, I got some of the best advice of my life from the midwife.  She said to me “if you keep screaming like that your baby will never be born!”.  All my energy was going up through my voice and throat, and not enough was going down into the birthing process.  She held my hand while I started breathing the energy down, down, down.  Things were a lot easier after that.

The screaming was simply fear.  Fear of pain, fear of possible outcomes that might not be comfortable.  But like a pregnancy, we’re in this now.  We’re here to give birth to something and all the words in the world won’t change our grand trajectory.  The next few weeks call on us to breath the energy down.

 

(*)  LynnMargulis and DorionSagan, Microcosmos Summit, NewYork, 1986, p.15.

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The Butterfly Effect in Overdrive

 

945665_10151674158910865_595709434_nI wonder if I’m enlightened yet.   I typed “”how do I know if I’m enlightened?”  into Google and found lots of lists.  Well, that certainly makes it easy!  Topping the list were things like happiness, peace, calm, humility.  Another intriguing challenge for the potential enlightenee is to be able to understand the teachings of all the world’s religions, because when I’m enlightened I will be sitting (not smugly, because I’m humble now, remember?)  in the original source.   I suppose Hebrew and Arabic will come naturally, some gift of remembrance from a past life perhaps?

I’ve been reading a lot of aspirational literature lately.  How to be happy, how to be a great leader, how to be more spiritual.  I’m getting bored with it’s wholesome goodness.  The constant striving for some ideal self is starting to wear a bit thin.  What if I just want to be the really awful version of myself, what if I just can’t be stuffed being so bloody good, trying so bloody hard?

As an antidote to the search for perfection and enlightenment,  I took up my copy of Thomas Moore’s Care of the Soul.  Ah, just what I needed.  Dr Moore prescribes a cessation of the struggle to fit any particular model, and suggests instead we lean into our imperfect primitive nature and embrace what is small, inadequate, powerless and dependent within us.  Who knows what treasure’s lurk undisturbed there in our own dark places?

What if I don’t want to be happy?   While we’re all so busy trying to be spiritual, when do we get time to be soulful?  What if I don’t want to have a purpose that drives me relentlessly forward in life to some ever greater fulfillment?  What if I just want to stop?  Who’s the better person, me who is sitting in the sun all day reading a book, or the Medecins Sans Frontieres doctor giving children injections in Kenya?   I mean, sure, there’s plenty of research to suggest doing something helpful, even noble, makes us feel better, become better people.  But surely it doesn’t work if I just want to sit in the sun?  And surely, if I want to sit in the sun, that’s helpful AND noble?

This is not idle wondering.  My mental meanderings have a purpose.   I’ve been thinking a lot about the groupthink that exists around the shifts we are going through,and the pressure it creates in our lives.  Sure we can see climate change, super tornadoes, floods and house high snow drifts aren’t exactly in short supply at the moment.  Technology appears to be taking over our culture and our day to day lives – when was the last time you touched actual money rather than your bank card or smartphone banking app?  We have had some shaky days on the financial front in the past few years, with many in the  financial elite being exposed for the pirates they truly are.   Corporations that appear to have stakes in the evil empire are attempting to own our global food stocks, and amorphous conglomerations know everything about us, probably much more than we know ourselves. Last month they were denied the chance to own human dna.  I suppose they figured it was worth asking!

Of course the amorphous ‘they’ are at the root of the problem, as Saturn and Pluto activate the Root Centre and push us to finding real and practical ways to live powerful lives.

It seems to me that people are becoming kinder, friendlier and more engaged.  Here in Australia contestants in gameshows hug each other all the time, even though they’re competitors.  That wouldn’t have happened in the 1950’s, they weren’t allowed out of their designated seats even if they’d wanted a bit more intimate contact.  On the other hand, I was just looking at some footage of aboriginal artists, sitting in the dust of their traditional lands with their sagging breasts and deeply wrinkled faces, surrounded by loved ones and sporting huge smiles on their faces.  It almost made me put away my OlayRegenerist Micro-Sculpting Cream, and hug my family.

We feel intuitively that we are at some sort of crossroads, but can’t quite read the signs.  As the world gets smaller, the cognitive dissonance grows louder and more insistent.   Nothing adds up anymore, and the butterfly effect seems to have gone into overdrive. We’ve grown too sophisticated to rely on our leaders, and I suspect they are just as confused as the rest of us lately.   I suspect we are in the grip of chaos.  Not chaos theory, not some kind of interesting mental idea or spiritual concept.  This is the real version, this is what happens when we arrive at the front door of chaos and are invited inside.

Back when I was a lawyer I loved the notion of primary sources.  There’s no way I’d make a dick of myself by standing up in front of a judge and saying ‘your honour there’s this case, one of my friends told me about it when we were out at the pub last night, it’s about this bloke …  ‘.  The judge needs me to give him primary sources – the 1992 Supreme Court case called Smith v’s Jones.   There’s no point me putting up a witness who was in the corner of the same pub and overheard someone telling someone else … there’s this bloke and …  There’s whispers, rumour, innuendo, and we love to dredge up all of them when we have a point to make on our own behalf.  So right about now, I’m looking for primary sources at the spiritual level.  And, truly, I don’t think there are any.  Sure, we can call on the need for faith.  But right now, what’s real?  Is there anything we can rely on?

There’s no doubt the maths stack up, and so does the science.  I read somewhere that it takes 50 years for a new scientific idea to penetrate our day to day reality.  Einstein published his General Theory of Relativity in 1916.   That’s nearly 100 years ago.   It changed what we thought we know about time and space and so perhaps we have needed the extra time to assimilate it.  I suspect that, like the Industrial Age coming on the heels of Cartesian science, our current predicament is that we are struggling to discover what quantum mechanics means and how we can live there.

Physicist John Wheeler said that the deepest lesson of quantum mechanics may be that reality is defined by the questions we put to it.  And if you’re having difficulty figuring out what this all means, you’re in good company.  Nobel Prize winning physicist Richard Feynman is quoted as saying nobody understands quantum mechanics.  Even the scientists working on it often find the ‘reality’ it reveals deeply disturbing.

It’s a bit different to the Industrial Revolution, when humanity discovered the capacity to create various kinds of steam engines and the ability to persuade perfectly rational people to spend their days in factories.   During the Industrial Revolution, a house was still a house.  These days a house may be a collection of electrons, or particles.  It may exist, or not really.  And if it’s roof falls in it may cause a tsunami in Japan.

One key point stands out in all this for me.  We are learning to create reality.  We are learning the basic (and we are at the very basic level!) skills of thinking and feeling in ways that bring about certain outcomes.

I mean, what could I make of this video?  How can sound possibly have a shape?  I mean really – sound has shape and substance??  (My favourite is the 3240 hz, by the way).

I wrote an article for a friend a while back on our attempts to think of business in ‘quantum’ terms.  In it I pointed out that although we have scientific proof that matter doesn’t actually exist (at least not in the way you and I think of it), we still expect to see our furniture where we left it when we get home from work.

In Human Design, Saturn in currently transiting in the Gate of Exceeding (28).  This was always going to be challenging.  Saturn rules structures, and Gate 28 is about the collapse of structures brought on by piling too many of our hopes and expectations upon them.  When we go beyond what’s feasible, the whole thing comes crashing down.   And right now we are coming face to face with a whole lot of unrealistic expectations.   Next week there’s be a huge shift in our consciousness about this, and I’ll write more in the next day or so about that.  We are seeing, knowing, acting more slowly, more deliberately, with more clarity of purpose.

Saturn’s effect is ramped up the the n’th degree by it’s current connection with Pluto.  It’s not just the everyday structures of our lives that are under the cosmic spotlight.  We’re  not just doing a bit too much overtime at work, or pushing our mortgage out a bit too far by buying that McMansion.   Pluto and Saturn are taking us beyond the everyday, delving deeply into the structures we rely on to survive, and they are finding all the weak spots.  Don’t expect quick outcomes for anything you are doing to remedy imbalances in your life just now.  We are in the midst of a process that will take a few years to show it’s benefits.

Pluto and Saturn are slow and steady. Results can take years to manifest.  But for right now,  we are being shown a way to live that is far beyond our current comprehension.  We can open to it slowly, and with deep reverence.

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Tripping the Underworld Light Fantastic

 

Many people are experiencing this as a very intense time.  Jupiter is bringing healing and growth, but the ground we are walking right now is not always easy.  There is a strong flavour of loss and grief in the mix.  I got this for my daily email tarot today and it perfectly sums up the mood:

 

Denial or control is no longer an option and I am ready to experience a breakthrough. My suffering, fear, or emotional loss is/was valid, incredible and deserves to be acknowledged and expressed in order to heal or transform the sacrifice. I am empowered by recognition and my virtue is choice.

 

Denial or control is no longer an option.  Well, there’s our coping strategies gone out the window!  What to do now except face our own suffering, fear and loss?  The hurts we experience in life are valid.  Whether others perceive them or consider them important doesn’t matter.   Have you ever seen a small child fall down and heard his parent say …  “that didn’t hurt, come on up you get” ….   If you feel hurt, you are hurt.  If you feel pain, you are in pain.  The many times when you haven’t been validated, your losses, your griefs, your very perceptions of life seeming not to matter, this is the ground beneath your feet right now.

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I was frustrated not to be able to write for you over the past few weeks, with so much going on.   But going deeply into this place has been so wonderfully clarifying and I’ve learnt, with my only Throat Gate being Splitting Apart – sometimes it’s just not right for me to try to put myself back together again. Sometimes it’s exactly right for me to be in pieces looking for the new pattern. And because I have my Venus there, it’s so comfortable for me to be in this process.

Isis is just coming over the Aries Point – at 1 degree Aries in the Gate of Innocence – this is about disentangling yourself, even if have have to hack away what’s no longer useful. Isis takes elements that have been torn asunder and makes them whole again.  She’s not always gentle and she’s at home in the Underworld, or at least has the courage to go there and do what needs to be done.

Jupiter is very active in the transits just now as he weaves his way around the Throat Centre.  He is making a channel with another visitor to the Underworld – Orpheus.  In search of his beloved Eurydice, Orpheus was granted the right to travel down and recover her from death.  His soulful music, played out of the place of grief, was his ticket.  It touched the heartstrings of Pluto/Hades, who opened the gates of Hell to Orpheus.

He wasn’t successful in bringing his love back, because he couldn’t meet Hades’ conditions, but nonetheless music is probably very important just now, to get beyond the language barrier that can keep our feelings trapped in worn out logic.

There’s another important side to the Orpheus story.   There are, as always in ancient myth, competing versions.   Plato says that Orpheus merely pined for his love, refusing to die to be with her.  In other words, his love was not deep and true, and Hades knew this and punished him for it.  It brings to mind the idea of believing we are making a transformation when in fact we are clinging to the surface and making all the right noises.  It’s a bit like faking an orgasm.  Actually, it’s a lot like faking an orgasm.

The channel that we find Jupiter in just now pulls us away from the pleasant surface of life and deeply into what’s real.  Even if, like Isis, we have to hack our way through.  Just like sex, real life is not always graceful, but it’s deep rewards flow from it’s authenticity.

For the past few years the asteroid Hylonome has been inching her way towards the Galactic Centre (which is in Gate 11).   Now, just as she is about to arrive, Jupiter turns up in the opposite gate, triggering her influence in our lives and connecting her to the Orpheus story.

Pandora is right there alongside Hylonome so we know there is something hidden away here, something we have been conditioned into believing is bad, cursed even.  Pandora was originally, before the patriarchal retelling, a goddess of earth’s abundance and all good things.   When Pandora is active in the transits, we are clearing ancient curses from our lives and finding the courage to open the lid of the box to reveal something glorious.   Hylonome also brings the need for courage.  A warrior, she lost her lover during a battle.  So grief stricken was she by his death that she took her own life, falling dead on his body.

Unlike Orpheus, Hylonome was prepared to die (transform) for love.   When Hylonome is active by transit, we experience grief and loss and a feeling that life isn’t worth living.  She represents self-sacrifice, martyrdom, and the tendency to believe we are nothing without relationship. But remember, Hylonome was a beautiful and courageous warrior.  In the Gate of  Peace and Advancement (11), she helps us to think things through, to have hope that everything will be okay, to refrain from emotional actions that we may later regret.  Hylonome asks us to consider what is worth living and ‘dying’ for.

And let’s add another visitor to the Underworld.  Psyche is conjunct the North Node.  The simple version here is that we are being impulsed to travel towards (North Node) our original soul wound (Psyche).  There is more relationship drama here as well.  Psyche was in love with Eros, but refused to keep her agreement not to look him in the face to discover his true identity.  After a number of incredibly difficult quests, including heading down to the Underworld to fetch Aphrodite some face cream, Psyche earned the right to become immortal.   Her divinity arose from her tenacity in the face of potential loss of love.   While Hylonome stayed in the Piscean state of bliss and sacrificial love, Psyche took a more grounded route of looking at reality.  Hylonome ended up dead, Psyche became a goddess and married her beloved Eros.  This is not so much a love story as a pathway to resurrection of your own divinity through becoming whole.

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The last Goddess I want to bring into the picture for you is Ceres.  Actually, let’s not snub Eris, we’ll include her as well. There is much that has been invisible that is now rising to consciousness and it is embedded in your deepest wounds of invisibility.  (Ophelia, the invisible one, is conjunct Chiron in the transitional gate 63 just now, but I digress)

Ceres and Eris are both transiting in a channel that portends a new cycle of nourishment based on taking responsibility for ourselves and working well with others to achieve wonderful outcomes.  Ceres lost her daughter Persephone to Hades and the Underworld, and the earth was ravaged by her loss and the grief and rage it evoked.  Ceres is in the Root Centre, and gives us a grounding point.  Stamp your feet on the ground, feel the earth rising up in your body to fill you with love and abundance, breath in your capacity to flourish on this planet.  The Underworld is simply the place where we’ve been taught to hide what is best about us.  We can go there, we can acknowledge our own hurt, our own grief, our own rage, our own thoughts and emotions, our own perceptions.  It takes courage, and the payoff is enormous.

As the Moon passes through Aquarius and Pisces over the next few days, it may trigger a conflict between rules (Aquarius), perfectionism (Neptune) and our actual emotions.  Be aware of any constraints on the flow of your emotions and watch the relationship between your emotions and your thoughts.  The emotions, and the logical ideas they engender, probably aren’t true.  They were once, but not now.  So there’s no need to act on them, or even believe in them, but there is a deep and powerful need to experience and acknowledge them.  If you need support to do this, please reach out for it.  You don’t have to do this on your own.

We are in yet another space of cosmic shift that calls out our skills in attuning to multidimensional reality.  We can have compassion for our own humanity, while at the same time holding a larger evolutionary view.  The weave and weft of this shift calls us to have courage, to hold true to the potential we can feel within us.  We need to remind ourselves that we are loved, that we are special, that we have capacities within us that we have barely even begun to make use of.   Remember to sing and dance!

 

 

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The Rebirth of Innocence

 

 

Ah, just another day in paradise ….

Jupiter moved to the Gate of Standstill yesterday, peeling off from it’s 4 week festival with changemaker Uranus.  Jupiter represents our capacity to maintain a faith in the goodness of life, so his movements are worth our attention.  The Gate of Standstill – Gate 12 – is a stop codon in Human Design.  This means that something we’ve had faith in up till now is no longer working for our benefit and it’s time to let it go.

I pulled the death card again over the weekend. We have become good friends, the death card and I!  I also spent the weekend feeling that I was dying,  with a sort of sweet relief that I could let all the struggle go and move on.  Let’s not forget Saturn down in the Gate of Exceeding – Gate 28 – a place where our body struggles against a fear of death.

306982_10151618224940865_1261094614_nWith the recent events on the street of London, the hacking to death of Drummer Rigby, there is a sense of the death of innocence.  This death was also seen in the loss of children in the Oklahomo tornado last week. These things happen, have always happened.  The difference now is that through the wonders of technology I get to see Drummer Rigby’s body laying on the street and look into the eyes of his killer as he stands before me with bloodstained hands.  I am able to watch the parents of lost children cry as they explain how they tried to collect their children from school and failed.  These things are happening in my otherwise peaceful living room.

The asteroid Child was conjunct the Sun in May’s New Moon, and the month of May brought some profound experiences of the value of our inner child to the community, to the collecctive at large.  Who values us, who cares for us, who supports us?  Beneath the superficial trappings of culture and economy, who are we?  Beyond the busy-ness,  what do we stand for?  Is there something essential that we’ve been missing in our own lives?

Jupiter in the Gate of Standstill calls us to have faith in our own innocence, in our own hearts, despite what appears to be a world going to hell in a handbasket.  If you and I can’t hold onto to what we know to be true, then the cycle of transformation will tear and fall flat.  There are moments in every cycle where we find it hard to trust, and yet, right now, you and I are perfectly fine.  We are breathing, loving, making our life of art.  We are continuing to trust in our own lives and the lives of those we love. We are allowing our innocence to rebirth itself into a world that needs it more than anything else. That’s what Jupiter in the Gate of Standstill calls us to.   The reclaiming of the final mile in the  Boston Marathon is evidence that we can reclaim what’s real.

 

 

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Owning The Power of Our Fear

 

We are heading into a time of challenges this week.  The outcome is up to you.

Today Saturn shifts into the Gate of Great Exceeding (28),  where our very relationship to the structures of our lives come under question.  How do we sustain ourselves in the modern world?  Where and how do we grow our food?  Who weaves the cloth for our t-shirts and jeans?  Who mines the rare earth for our smartphones?

The next few months call us to extraordinary action to bring balance to the world in the face of a global fear of annihilation.   And our first step is to become familiar with our own buried fears.

twisted-fractal-wallpaperI know, not very cheery is it?  Saturn can be like that!  However, at his most potent, Saturn calls us to look squarely in the face of apparent limitations and find the nugget of gold that only we can carry away and make something of.

Between now and early August you are likely to have your eyes opened to many things in your life that, looking back, you’ll realise you were inexplicably unaware of.  The truth of who we are and how we live will seem like a different country by then.  And in the meantime, we are asked to look beyond the limitations facing us to find what Saturn, the archetypal teacher, is asking us to attend to.

There will be a revelation, some great personal and collective gift, and a new sense of purpose, for us to uncover.

Saturn is joining Pluto in the Gate of Opposition (38).  Here again the need is to look beyond the immediate challenges to find a greater truth.  When we perceive opposition we are really seeing diversity, a beautifully spun fractal of light in all it’s infinite colours.  Rather than fighting it, or trying to control it, we can simply appreciate it’s difference and carry on with our own lives. Our diversity will carry us in different directions, as indeed it’s meant to do.  We are not all meant to be standing together as one, looking in the same direction and holding hands.  Each one of us has our unique take on life, our unique offering and path.

Our instincts have taught us that here is a threat to our existence, ancient fears arise unbidden in our complex architecture of self.  In my work with people I see an extraordinary amount of energy stuck in the Root Centre and unable to release itself into the world.  These embedded fears leave the potential for collaboration untapped, as we block our connections with more diverse people, ideas and experiences without even realising we are doing it.   If we do not own our personal capacity for fear, and our unique responses to it, we do not control our choices in life.

Pluto is an extremely concentrated power, sub-atomic and hidden within the most innocuous things.  He brings to the surface material that needs to be eliminated from our lives. Releasing the unconscious fear of death, limitation and opposition is opening us up to a new creative energy that will change life on this planet.  We are already seeing the first waves of this potent force.

This is a channel that speaks of the structures we create in our lives to deal with our deeply unconscious fear of death.   All the things we engage with on a cultural level that bridge the gap between the joy of life and our own inevitable end point.   How we create a sense of personal significance for ourselves to stave off the feeling that we are about to be swallowed by the immense personal oblivion of the void.  What if we could use this power for good?

Although it sounds like a bad thing, this is the point in our lives where creativity arises.  This place of fear.  But in our death-denying culture we’ve been taught to reflexively reach for packaged solutions rather than go within.  This immense creative power is not yet in our own hands.  This transit is likely to change that.

You’ve heard the saying that what we resist persists, and in a world where millions die of starvation while others overdo the botox and dieting to try to hang onto their youth, there’s no doubt that death is something we resist.  Our fear of death is being used to overwhelm us, to keep us tame and risk-free, to convince us that we need to have the latest gadget or be shamed, to play it even safer.

While I’m writing this, Carolyn Jayne has reminded me of the fear tactics used by the pharmaceutical industry – vaccines, flu shots, cancer.   We have been inundated by funeral insurance ads recently – what will your family do if you leave them to pay your funeral expenses?  Scary!!  I’m not saying we shouldn’t be practical, but when fear is in such epidemic proportions that it overwhelms our capacity to experience our true wealth of intuitive knowing (Spleen Centre) then we retreat to the Root Centre and fail to come out into the world in a powerful and meaningful way.  We live in depression and anxiety, never able to step out and take the personal risks we need to connect and to create.  This transit helps us become aware of the toxic effects fear has had in our lives, and to do something practical (Saturn) about it.

The Root Centre brings pressure into our lives – the pressure to take action, to re-act.   What might arise from the depths of your being if you chose instead to hold to your your own timing and awaited your own inner response, allowed a more conscious knowing of the situation?  This is our challenge, to be open to the power of what arises when we resist the ingrained pressure to react to fear without first knowing what it truly represents in our lives.

Each one of us is stepping up to take responsibility for our lives, to take ownership of our own inner resources, to walk our own unique pathway and find our own personal heroic story.  There will be things to be afraid of, but they are not what we believe them to be today.  And when we shed the toxic communal fears that have made us susceptible to manipulation and have kept us small, we will have the intuitive intelligence to meet it in a different way, not as lone individuals struggling to survive but as a collective each with our own diverse tool box of creative solutions ready to share.

 

Human Design Transit Chart for 7th May 2013

 

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The Sudden Shifts of May 2013

 

During the whole month of May, Jupiter and Uranus will be together in the only Ego Manifesting channel in the Human Design bodygraph, a channel that relates to our communal resources and how we choose to use and share them.

When Jupiter and Uranus get together you can expect to be surprised.  Jupiter is expansive and Uranus is erratic.  That means things that swing, like the stock market, are likely to swing a little more than usual.  Remember the fake tweet that sent the Dow Jones tumbling on 23rd April?   And while this transit can’t help but play out in the external world, and particularly the economy, there’s also the possibility for deep personal transformation at it’s core.  The good news is that Jupiter moved in with Uranus on 29th April, and Jupiter always tends towards good outcomes.  During May, while these two powerful change agents are joining forces, we have some large leaps in consciousness headed our way.  We’re also likely to see some weird things that just don’t seem possible, like the hearing on the existence of aliens about to begin in the US.

It’s important to stay grounded throughout May and not use the energy to get ‘off on life’ rather than to settle more deeply into life.  Expect a lot of doom and gloom forecasts from those who can’t see beyond the current limits of our existing reality.

 

The Good Ego and a Healthy Will

Heart CentreAdult-TantrumIn May, Jupiter and Uranus are connecting the Heart Centre to the Throat.  This Centre is about our ego selves, how we manage our ego container to maintain a healthy sense of our individual self in the world.

The Heart Centre has only three gates, and two of those gates are in Aries – Gates 21 and 51.  Aries is the  first sign of the zodiac representing how we give birth to our individual self.  This tells us something about the function of the Heart Centre – it relates to our capacity for giving birth to something unique and new in ourselves.

Another quality of the Heart Centre is willfulness.  Our willfulness arises at around age two, when we begin to want to take some personal control of our world.  On a biological level it’s often played out during so called ‘toilet training’.  Handled badly, it can cause deeply buried infantile rage and an inability to know, as an adult, how to express our anger cleanly and without hurting ourselves or those we love.  As anger is key to knowing where our healthy boundaries are, and how we can go about making a life we feel passionate about, this is a huge deal.  It effectively leaves our boundaries unprotected and our resources (Gate 21) open for plunder, because hey, we’re not using them and we can’t protect them.  In effect, and this is at the core of Gate 21, we have no control over our own lives.  I couldn’t count the number of people I’ve worked with on the suppression of their natural willfulness, and how they were able to recover an ability to take control of their adult lives.  This is especially so for those born between 1961 and 1964, who have Pluto and/or Uranus (power and freedom)  in Gate 40.  It’s also important for the generation who have dwarf planet Eris in Gate 21, those born between 1955 and 1982.

The third important quality of the Heart Centre is generosity.  When I have full and complete access to my own resources and can take action to protect my own personal boundaries, my cup floweth over and I can’t help but share some of that nectar with those around me – the people who make up my community.  If I don’t have control over my own life, then it’s difficult to be generous.  These three issues – control, personal boundaries and the sharing of personal/communal resources – form the essence of this transit event, and they arise from having a healthy ‘ego self’.

Beyond Rebellion

So when Uranus, planet of freedom and individuality turns up in the Heart Centre, we can expect some radical behaviour that’s headed in the general direction of setting appropriate adult boundaries, and reclaiming control.  Uranus teaches us to distinguish between our true authentic self, and our rebellion against who we believe our society and family want us to be.  Uranus helps us find our own way, free of conformity and convention.   Sometimes we can get so caught up in rebelling against what we feel is controlling us that we lose touch with just being ourselves.

Uranus will create it’s third square to Pluto on 21st May 2013, when Uranus is in 21.2 and Pluto in 38.2, followed by a New Moon and Lunar Eclipse on 25th May.  I’ll write more about that specific event later, and there’s a list of significant transits coming up during May at the bottom oft this post. For now we need to know there are deep underlying issues of repressed personal power arising this month, and that can feel as if we are being prevented from taking control of our lives.   Last week’s Full Moon was an initial trigger point.

 

Investing In Community

heart_handsJupiter is transiting in the adjoining Gate 45, in the Throat Centre, until 28th May.  This is a window of grace, due to Jupiter’s beneficial influence on the Uranus/Pluto situation.

This gate – Gate 45 – speaks to us of what we invest into our community.   It calls us to gather together with those with whom we have a shared identity and sense of purpose, to strengthen our shared roots and make something wonderful of our shared lives.   Jupiter brings an expansion to everything he touches, and joined with Uranus there is a sense of excitement at the possibilities and potentials.  The important lesson that Jupiter brings is the need to take action on those potentials. We have to reach out and grasp the positive developments coming our way in May.  This is an energy of beginnings, not completions.  We’re unlikely to bring any of our ideas to maturity during this time, but we can reach out to others and together plant the seeds.

This channel holds the key to how we manage our joint resources on this planet.  It’s also about the serendipity of discovering a whole lot of resources within that we didn’t know we had.  Or we knew we had them, but didn’t realise others could see them.

I spent this morning at our local business mastergroup meeting, and it was so exciting to watch as we were all reflecting back what we value about each other.  It wasn’t quite what we planned to do today, but Uranus and Jupiter demanded we acknowledge the gifts (resources – gate 21) that each person had to invest (gate 45)  in our individual lives, and into the group.

This is very different from the trickle down effect we know and (don’t?) love, with it’s rationale that if I enter into a commercial relationship with completely selfish motivations it will eventually benefit everyone because I will maximise my own benefits.  This worked well enough when we all lived and worked in small communities, and everyone knew if I dumped toxic waste into the river or ripped off the grocer, but the global economy doesn’t  allow for that level of personal accountability.   The complexity of our global financial system, the military industrial complex and multi-tiered government means we often don’t see what’s really going on. We’d like to think everyone operates on a triple bottom line, but the truth is the vast majority of government and business on this planet still only looks at the economic bottom line.   Expect further revelations in June, as Neptune is brought into the picture and lifts the veil on what’s happening to the earth’s abundant resources.

This month – May 2013 – we are stepping away from conventional expectations about ourselves and our place in the world. Jupiter and Uranus together bring forth radical views, a desire to shake up society’s conventions, and a rethink on religious views.   For some it will bring unexpected good fortune, and unexpected trips to interesting places. At the level where we are shifting business on this planet, Uranus, planet of networking, is busy finding us new people to reflect skills, talents and resources we didn’t even know we had.There are new grassroots movements that will arise suddenly from the ground this transit creates and Neptune in the Gate of Abundance brings a higher level sensitivity to how we do business.

 

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Important Dates

Human Design Transit Chart 1 May 20131st May – Sun (24.2) and Mars (24.1) opposite Saturn (44.1) and trine Pluto (38.1)~  our mind wants to understand what’s going on, but the incoming energies are not so accessible in that way.   Around this period we must balance our fear of the unknown with our intuitive knowing that something wonderful is happening.  We also need to honour it’s power.

The Sun and Pluto accentuate the power struggle and desire for personal freedom and self actualisation.  The Root Centre brings a pressure to do things the way you’ve been taught by your ‘tribe’, so breaking free from this conditioning rather than rebelling is a powerful choice.  The Saturn activation in Gate 44 – Coming to Meet – tips us into a new relationship with the feminine, opens us to the power of creating directly from the void rather than from the ‘traditional’ patriarchal sources.

I also expect some peak in the US gun lobby situation with this transit.

 

6th May – Saturn moves to Gate 28, creating a channel with Pluto ~ I’ll be writing more on this later.  Saturn will be in a channel with Pluto between 6th May and 4th August, when Pluto retrogrades back into the Gate of Joy (58).  Saturn represents authoritarian control and Pluto represents power.  This is a channel that allows us a choice of life or death.  Life can be an adventure or a struggle against death.

It’s likely that this transit will trigger backlash against perceived overpowering authority figures.  For us personally,  it represents a profound period for watching where fear has prevented us stepping into a greater maturity in our own lives through the projection of childhood authority figures into our adult life.  Remember Uranus is active in this transit, because of the ongoing square with Pluto, so rebellion is always on the cards. Choose authenticity over struggle.   Remember too, that during May, Jupiter’s beneficial energy will prevent this playing out in negative ways in most cases.

 

7th May – Moon conjunct Uranus in 21.2 – a deep and compulsive need to break free, to find more space to grow into our full selves. A strong resistance to any perceived interference in how we run our own lives.

 

Human Design Transit chart for 9th May 20139th May – Sun, Mercury and Mars in the Gate of the Receptive (2) while Venus is in the Gate of Nourishment.  Here we see further movement in our capacity to open to the feminine.  Whilst the I Ching starts with Gate 1, the masculine active Yang principle, indigenous creation myths invariably begin with the feminine.  The I Ching (and Human Design) positions that yin creative power in Gate 2.

Like our own culture, the Chinese culture that gave birth to the I Ching was deeply patriarchal and invested in the idea of the masculine as the prime creative force, with the feminine holding a passive allowing role.  This transit shifts that belief, allowing us to experience the truly breathtaking expansion in our creative capacities when we connect first with the yin, the feminine, the creative void from which all matter arises into form.

 

13th May – Moon conjunct Jupiter in the Gate of Gathering (45).  Potentially an intensely emotional day (Jupiter expands on the moon’s emotional nature), where we are relieved to realise that we are not alone in the world, and not solely responsible for creating positive outcomes globally or in our own lives.

 

16 May 201316th May 2013 –  The individual circuitry gets a run during May as our sense of who we are and our life direction gets a major tweek. The Sun in Gate 8 and Jupiter in Gate 45 both indicate a huge opening to new creative connections.  With the support of others in our lives, and the positive oomph of Jupiter/Uranus, we get a blast out of mediocrity and take a leap of faith into something vibrant and new.

There is a lot of activation to the Throat during May as the Sun, Mercury and Venus move through Gemini.  The Throat Centre is the portal between our inner world and the outer world.  It’s the place where we share what we alone know as us, and make it visible to the world at large.   The outer planets – Saturn and Pluto, Jupiter and Uranus – are supporting us to move out of the terrible fear held at the Throat that prevents us sharing freely from the heart.

 

 

21st May  – Time for mutation, as if you haven’t done enough already!  The big event on 21st May is the connection between the Jupiter/Uranus connection at the Throat and the Saturn/Pluto connection in the Root.  My suggestion?  Don’t make any particular plans for this day.  Literally, anything could happen. The Moon and Mercury give good indications of the focus for such a huge event.  The Moon moves over Haumea in Gate 57 – the Goddess of Volcanoes and the creator of new land, Haumea is very interested in the proper use of our resources.  She was (is?) the Creator Goddess of Hawaii and if her people did not respect their environment she cut off their food supply.  Mars is conjunct Sedna in 23, another Goddess who protects the earth’s resources (in Sedna’s case it’s the oceans’ resources).  Mercury is in the Gate of Progress with Venus.   Richard Rudd refers to this gate as The Hunger of the Species, a gate that taps into our deepest emotional reserves to find what we truly hunger for.  As we are heading into some time with spiritual Neptune in the emotional gate of Abundance (55), this is a time to really tune into the finer and more subtle levels of what you hunger for.

 

23rd May – Moon conjunct Saturn (28.5), not a great combination of planets because the Moon always seeks warmth and Saturn can be quite cold.  One thing they do have in common is the desire for stability and security.  This lunar transit is likely to trigger deep and compulsive fears around abandonment and isolation, and to bring us a renewed sense of our capacity to connect as individuals to the larger fractal picture that chaos demands we come to know in order to prosper in the new world we are creating.  I expect this period will feel very intense, and a good day to do relaxing things that include lots of deep breathing and feeling the earth under our feet.

 

25th May 2013 25th May – Full Moon and Lunar Eclipse.  We are learning the skills of living in a larger cosmos, one based on the seeming paradox of orderly chaos and endlessly repeating patterns, a world that can’t decide if it’s matter, light or energy and doesn’t even believe it has to choose between the three in any given moment but might just be all of them at the same time.  How do you and I, raised in a world where things were real only if you could touch, taste or smell them, how do we manage our lives in this new reality?

The Full Moon gives us a taste of the new skills we are learning, and one of them is dynamical balance.  How to find your own powerful point of shift (creation) in each moment and feel the substance of your choices even though everything keeps moving, apparently chaotically, around you.  How to release what is no longer of use without feeling overcome by loss and regret, and how to move forward by aligning with the creative powers of the universe and trust that love is the unifying force of your own life and life at large.

7th June 2013 Human Design transit chart7th June 2013 – Mercury and Venus will move through the Gate of Opposition (39) between 7th and 15th June 2013.  This puts Neptune into direct contact with Pluto and Saturn on the other side of the Root Centre.

Neptune and Pluto are bringing us the power to wait, to tune into our own personal information / awareness and make a clear choice about our responses. This is a powerful way for us to unravel complexity arising from ancient fears, to step out of dramas arising from collective emotionally based goals, to become natural in our responses, rather than culturally influenced.  The emotional clarity Neptune has been teasing out for us over the past few years will come into it’s own in June, as we gaze clear eyed at corruption and stagnation and say No Thanks!   More on Pluto and Neptune’s connection in the Root Centre here. 

 

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Full Moon and Lunar Eclipse April 2013

 

Full Moon and Lunar Eclipse on Thursday  25th April 2013 at 8pm UT, 1pm PDT, 4pm EDT, and 6am on Friday 26th April AEST.  

 

crystalheartMy friend Lea is writing a book about sustainability.  She explained to me on the weekend that we know something is alive if it has choice.  A rock doesn’t have too many choices and we don’t consider it to be alive.  On the other hand, you and I have choices.

It might be clear to you and I, but science has a complex relationship to the idea of what’s living and what isn’t.

When the Gaia Hypothesis came out in 1969, claiming that everything on the planet was linked in a system of life, traditional scientists rejected the idea.  Because rocks aren’t alive, and a dislodged rock rolling down the side of the Grand Canyon certainly has nothing to do with the polar melt.  In the 43 years since then, perhaps we’ve come to understand that it does.

You and I clearly have choices.  And perhaps we are beginning to understand how important those choices are, not just for our own personal eco-system, but for the whole system of life on this planet.  Not only does each small choice enfold into our world the things that define who we are and how we live, but they also impact on greater issues.

I’ve been struggling with using plastic bin liners lately.  It’s something I’ve done for decades and yet lately every time I put in a new bin liner I can’t help but see an image in my mind of the plastic waste dump that’s forming at the bottom of our oceans.  I can’t help but imagine each bit of plastic I use being added to that pile, being my part of the problem.

The thing is, I’m so accustomed to living in a certain way.  In my family it’s a good thing, an accepted thing, to have a plastic bin liner and empty the kitchen bin into the trash each night.  That’s just how things are done in my world.  Till now.   This week’s Full Moon shines a light on how things are done and the choices we make.

 

How Do You Create Your World?

526488_10151564195760865_1306560103_nWe all have a deep instinctual sense of what nourishes us.  This intuitive understanding of what we need in life is there for a purpose.  It’s meant to point us towards what naturally and easily sustains us.  The thing is though, most of us have never really had a taste for what’s naturally good for us.

There are reasons for that.  Not necessarily good reasons, but real ones.  The most obvious reason this week is that we’re on the tail end of a few millenium of needing to give up our personal preferences for the good of our family and community.

Deep down in your DNA there’s a struggle going on just now.  It’s a struggle between your belief that you won’t survive unless your own personal needs are met, and a co-existing belief that you have to comply with the ideas and beliefs of the community no matter how bad things get for you, or the planet.

For me, it’s a struggle between keeping a ‘nice’ house and going against my personal values by drowning the world in plastic waste.  It’s a choice between incessantly cleaning and a deeper need to create.   The need to have a clean house is deep, complusive and full of shame in my family of undefined Spleen Centres, and it calls to my energy even against my conscious will.

Lucky for us, Pluto is on our side.  Trying to hold onto old shared beliefs that aren’t in our personal best interest isn’t going to cut it with Pluto, but if we open to the inner world and face the conflicted desires we find there Pluto will bring us a powerful transformation.  This is about something as mundane as using plastic bin liners, not eating chocolate, wearing purple hats.  It’s also much deeper because as we make personal choices that are distinctly about choosing and creating a life that deeply sustains us, we also bring the world around us to life.

The needs of our ancestors are no longer relevant in a world in transition.  We need to make fresh new choices, and we need to do it consciously.  This isn’t selfish, it’s a cosmic imperative that you break free and express all that you are in this moment.

 

The Full Moon and Pluto

The Moon and Pluto are in a channel that tends to be overwhelmed by trying to deal with all of life’s challenges. The thing is, and this is at the very heart of the April Full Moon, most of our challenges come from our reacting so quickly to anything that makes us feel threatened that we don’t even get to see and understand what’s really going on. Moving quickly from one challenge to the next, cobbling together whatever solution we can think of, we move far from our natural birthright of harmony and balance, and into overwhelm.

As we take more time to sit in our own discomfort we create the space for our own needs to arise over the foam and froth of our conditioning.  This Full Moon gives us the chance to stand firm against the largely unexamined fear that we will die if we dare to put ourselves first.  It’s alerting us to the fact that it’s possible  not to react immediately to the unconscious demands of our ancestors, demands that are buried in our dna.  Instead we can wait quietly for our own quiet still voice to guide us in our choices.

 

Black Sheep-ness

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This Full Moon brings up our black sheep-ness, the place where we have taken a hit for our family and community.   Trying to avoid becoming the poster child of bad, we have suppressed something instinctual and primal within us rather than display how bad we truly are.   We have split something powerful, something inherently valuable off from our conscious world and our capacity for choice.  This part of us is not truly alive, because it doesn’t get to make choices.  We’ve buried it.

The Full Moon is occurring in a channel with Pluto.  When the Moon and Pluto get together we find deeply subconscious emotional compulsions, behaviours with their roots in our early childhood and strong feelings about our relationship with our mothers.  Pluto and the Moon are both powerful, instinctive and compulsive unconscious energies.  Put them together and you have intensity, and the capacity for releasing something that can transform your entire life.

Like a nuclear explosion it may seem to come in a small innocuous package that belies the intensity and power of the shift.

 

The Channel of Struggle

The Full Moon occurs in what’s known as the Channel of Struggle.  Let’s have a deeper look at that channel.  At one end we have the Spleen Centre, the place of physical wellbeing.   The Earth and the Moon will be in Gate 28 at the Spleen. This gate says you have overdone something, taken on too much and gotten yourself out of balance.  There’s too much to deal with and the whole structure is in danger of falling down upon you.  For some reason, rather than living in a healthy eco-system with dynamical balance, rather than responding to life’s changes with healthy choices, we keep piling up more and more till we can’t deal anymore with what we have in our lives.

At the other end we have the Root Centre, home of the adrenals, fight and flight.  Home of stability, security and our need to belong.  The Root Centre is reactive, and in Gate 38 we react when we experience opposition.   In this channel, the Root Centre reacts by forcing a solution to the problem rather than waiting to see what might evolve.  The opposition we experience in Gate 38 could be someone expressing an opinion we don’t agree with, or wearing the wrong clothes, or voting against a proposal we’ve worked hard on.  Pluto’s current three year transit in this gate brings up a primal response to our feelings of opposition.

This channel asks us to seek common ground rather than rush to react.  It teaches us that we may never agree on the small everyday details of life, but we can always seek common ground on major issues.  You and your teenager might not agree on an appropriate curfew time, but you can both agree that you need to share a warm and loving home.

There is something in you that has been crushed in order to stay alive.  Your body knows all about it.  Your body has been supporting you for many long years in keeping this aspect of yourself deeply hidden.  However it’s time now to bring it back into consciousness.   The oppositions we have been reacting to have been largely a result of our own inner opposition.  We have projected out into the world what we felt unable to deal with in ourselves, and then reacted against it.  To cease to react is a signal to the world that we are accepting some part of us that has been deemed unacceptable, and yet that is what we are doing this week.

As we learn not to react, and open to that primal intuitive sense of what truly nourishes us, we will discover with delight that it doesn’t kill us to meet this part of ourselves.  That we are not at risk of annihilation if we allow ourselves to know what we truly need to create a healthy balanced life, rather than one that has us in constant overwhelm.  We create our lives through our everyday choices and this Full Moon brings an intensity and power to opening up that process to more consciousness.

You’re doing it right if you feel more alive despite the fear.  You’re doing it wrong if you find yourself thinking “I don’t have a choice”  or “I have to do it this way” or if you find yourself sighing as you do something that just doesn’t feel alive.  This is a body-centered shift, and anything that creates conflict between your mind/emotions and your body is a sign that you’re getting close to the action.  Listen to what your body is telling you, and trust it.

The Sun and Mars are in the Gate of Nourishment, giving us the courage and sheer dynamism to go for it.  There are powerful forces on our side and it’s time for us to claim our full power of conscious choice back from the old struggles of the past.   Our DNA is shifting and we are acquiring a larger vision and  a place at the table of  flourishing life.

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Locating Power and Authority

 

Money and power are about to take a more central role on the world stage, as The Great Awakener, Uranus, shifts gates today.   Yes, yes, I agree, they are always central on the world stage.  What’s shifting is the focus we have on them.  We are on an evolutionary trajectory that includes taking back the authority and power for our own lives after millenium of ‘giving it up for the man’, and the next few weeks are a powerhouse of change in that particular process.

Uranus is shifting into the Gate of Biting Through, Gate 21 in the Heart Centre.  The Gate of what???  It’s about getting to the truth of things by biting through obstructions.  Hilary Barrett says this:

It’s time to bite through to the truth, cracking the situation open like a bone between your teeth.  Resting content with appearances may be easier but it’s not enough. 

There’s a fine balance in this gate – to take control and responsibility for our own lives without succumbing to the desire to try to control others. Before you take off in an attempt to get the other person to do what you want, consider what you can do on your own behalf.   Ponder three words – control, authority, domination.  What can you do to bring more control over your own life?  Where are you giving your authority away to others?  What attempts are you making to dominate others to compensate for your perceived lack of personal control and authority?

This gate deals with a deep confusion about power – that we have to wrestle it back from others rather than seek it within ourselves.

Pluto – the planet that tells us all about power and how we use it – is in the Gate of Opposition.  The story in the I Ching is of diversity within the same family.  Although the children all have the same parents they grow up with different friends, different interests.  Eventually they leave and go their own way.  This doesn’t mean they are enemies.  It simply means that diversity is natural.  We can’t expect everyone to vote the same way we do, to believe in the same god we do (or not), to love the same music or enjoy the same food.

When fear is present, diversity seems threatening.  When we are not fearful, diversity can be delightful.  Pluto tends to be dogmatic and meglomaniacal.  It asks us to seek our own power from deep within.  On the big picture level right now, Pluto is saying there are riches to be had when we enter into dialogue rather than continue with our own fear fuelled fantasies that we are struggling on alone in a harsh world.

Pluto rules the nuclear bomb, and it’s no coincidence that the isolated North Korea is playing out it’s own nuclear drama in order to get retribution (regain power from) the US.

399174_10151335157775865_914970213_nIt’s easy enough just now to allow our ancient programming to see opposition, but not the pathway to the richness of diversity.  That pathway goes against all we have learnt since the very first tribal wars on this planet.  It says that the risk in continuing to try to dominate and control each other is now greater than the risk of opening up to dialogue and genuine interest in what the other party is seeking to achieve.

We’re not accustomed to using our willfulness in this way.  The inner conflict caused by domination is carved deeply into each one of us.   Eat your food, do your homework, pay your bills, stay on that diet.  These attempts at self control are so natural to us that we don’t see the damage they cause in our lives.  If  I dominate and control myself enough to stay on the South Beach diet for a month, then the resentment has to go somewhere!   But that’s not the sort of self-control we’re talking about here.  This is a clear eyed look at what we can do to make changes for the better in our own lives.

This move by Uranus brings it back into a square with Pluto, so the relationship between the two is strengthened today.  Between now and when Jupiter moves in to soothe the waters on 29th April we can expect the unexpected in the areas of  the price of gold and the stability (or otherwise) of fiat money (paper money), especially the US dollar,  issues of severity and leniency in significant legal cases,  big reveals about corporate greed, continuing grandiose nuclear posturing,  the nature of communal resources on the planet, bombings and attempts by fundamentalists to control and dominate others.

There is an incredible potential here, for us to step beyond some of the most toxic aspects of the patriachal culture and into a more diverse grassroots relationship with each other.  By the end of May our ideas about who exercises power and authority over our lives will have shifted to somewhere a bit closer to home.

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The Importance Of What You Love

 

singularityYou might have heard about The Singularity.  It’s the point at which we transcend our biology and merge with machines.   Apparently, we’ll soon be able to achieve such a wonderful feat because machines are becoming more intelligent than humans.

I don’t find the idea very appealing, I have to admit.  It seems to me that the whole idea is based on a mis-reading of our evolutionary process.

Back at the dawning of the Industrial Revolution people left their bucolic rural communities in droves and moved to urban areas to work in factories.   It was the first step towards becoming a cog in the machine.  In 200 years we have been trained to respond to machine like prompts, to go against all our bodily instincts to comply with the needs of the workplace, to buy the latest product.

A little while back I answered my phone and heard a recorded voice that said “Kim Gould please call 1800 xxx xxx xx and quote this reference number &#$%$##.” And then hung up. I have no idea who that call was from. It could have been my telephone company, a telemarketer, who knows? A few days after this experience I had to call the accounts department of a medical company to query a bill. I rang the number and when it was answered this is what I heard “Hello, reference number please.”   I replied, “Oh, hello, my name is Kim, what’s your name?”, which completely discombobulated the operator.  He stuttered and hummed and hawwed a bit before giving in and telling me his name. He sounded shy and almost relieved, as if I’d called him out of hiding.

These calls got me thinking about how we are being ‘robotisized’. I mean, why would a company think I would respond to either of those situations? It’s because we are gradually being trained to follow robotic like prompts. If you’re not convinced, have a look at the Visa Card ad.  I want one of these cards, because being a robot is soooo glamorous!   Notice the really geeky human – who wants to be him?  Not me!  How embarrassing would it be to not belong?

 

The idea of us becoming Transhuman and merging with machines is based on us heading deeper into that robotic world.  In fact, we’re moving beyond the robotic. Rather than becoming more alike (robotic), the evolutionary push is to become more unique.  And to do that we need to connect with the two personal awareness Centres in our design – the Solar Plexus Centre and the Spleen Centre.  These two Centres are home to our personal preferences.  And personal preferences are key to our evolutionary capacity just now.

The key here is healing deep ancestral wounds about standing out from the crowd, feeling isolated and different, being at risk of exclusion.  Every time we move through the pain of reconnecting with another aspect of our own awareness, we heal a fear of abandonment and separation.  After all, it was that fear that made us disconnect from our personal awareness in the first place!

Imagine who you would be if you had no preferences.  I mean really, how would you know anything about yourself?  How would you make a decision?   Our capacity for choice is not so very important in our current world.  We can only choose between a certain range of things.  Vogue or Harpers Bazaar?  Android or iPhone?  Ben and Jerry’s or Häagen-Daz?  You’ve only got to watch the tv news to know that complex emotional responses and deep thinking just don’t have a carry a lot of value.

We Are Developing Emergent Skills

We are on the verge of developing a whole new emergent skill set that will allow us to create a new unimaginable reality, and we need to be conscious of our personal preferences to be able to do that.  We need to know what we value, how we feel about things, what our opinions are.  We need to step beyond what we believe is on offer – Vogue or Harpers Bazaar? –  and venture onto pastures of unimagined richness.  We will all flourish here.

We are at a tipping point in the evolution of life, and one characteristic of tipping points is chaos. And one characteristic of chaos is sensitivity.  Amidst the sensitivity we are experiencing right now is a greater capacity to consciously know ourselves.  It’s painful, a bit like when your leg goes to sleep and you have to wait through the pins and needles till you can walk on it.

We simply cannot create consciously in our new reality unless we know our own personal preferences.  That means our feelings, our intuition, our thoughts.   These three areas of experience bring PERSONAL awareness to everything.  Your awareness is not just an idea.  Energetically your awareness  has weight and heft.  Our feelings, intuition and thoughts are the tools with which we become aware of possibilities, sort through choices and make the decisions that create our lives both personally and collectively.  If you want to create a life and a world that you love, then it makes sense that you have to know what you love … and you have to know it consciously and deeply.

Robots can create, but there is always an underlying pattern, some sort of program.   We are moving beyond the program, beyond the scripted, the controlled, the absolute and into a new world of creation.  We are doing that by becoming conscious of what we value, what we love, what makes us happy and feel well.

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The Natural Face of Fear

 

 

48056.originalWe have a problem with fear in our society.  We’ve confused two different fear events.  One is that moment when our heart leaps into our mouth as we spot the saber tooth tiger eyeing us off from behind a nearby bush.  The other is blocked intuition that shows up in our lives as constant worries, free floating anxiety and even depression.

The saber tooth tiger event is hard-wired into our DNA.  It bypasses our conscious mind and triggers the fight or flight response.  It floods our body with adrenaline to allow us a super-human response, and it blocks our capacity to consider options.

Taking the time to think things over and consider options is life threatening when we are staring at an immediate danger.  Properly considering options also requires access to our limbic (emotional or mammalian) brain.  We can’t make good life choices without our emotions, but this is not about life choices.  This type of fear is simply about surviving the next few minutes, and the saber tooth is not too bothered about our emotional response to being dinner.

This version of fear – the  fight or flight type fear – comes from the Root Centre in Human Design.  It’s an immediate threat to survival that triggers adrenaline.

The second kind of fear is a modern phenomenon.  It arises from what I call the Dominator Model.  One aspect of the Dominator Model is where the mind dominates the body to such an extent that we lose touch with our intuitive responses to life.  This type of  fear is not so much about threats to life as it is about our ongoing well-being.  In fact, it’s not really fear at all!  It’s a free flowing intuitive awareness of what’s good for us and what’s not.  This is the stuff we find in the Spleen Centre, and it has connections with our emotions so it’s a more holistic way of making choices in life.

I was thinking about this dual nature of fear and composing a blog post in my head (as I do) when I pulled out Karla McLaren’s wonderful book,  The Language of Emotions and found this:

Most of us think we know fear because we have experienced the mood states of worry, anxiety, trepidation, terror or panic.  However none of these emotions is fear!  Though we have all felt true fear (there is no way to survive without it), we have so completely confused it with anxieties and terrors that we have lost our ability to identify fear as the distinct and vital capacity it is. 

Right now we have the Sun, Venus and Mars in the Gate of Shock (51).  The Earth is opposite in the Gate of The Gentle (57).   This is a partnership of energies that call us to tune into the first subtle stirrings of our physical intuition.  It carries the dna memory imprint of our fear of the unexpected.  When we are so overloaded, so rushed and so busy, how will we cope?   When we slow down enough to hear the first stirrings of that small gentle voice and enter into a dialogue with the incredible intelligence of our cellular self, life opens up in astonishing ways.  We begin to step out of culturally conditioned fear based state and into relationship with reality.

The Gate of Shock sits in the Heart Centre, the intermediary between the emotions and our higher self.  It too can operate from fear – the ego’s fear of loss of control, of isolation and annihilation.  But if we shimmy up the consciousness scale a bit, the Heart Centre presents us with a more positive experience.   Here we find the emotions are a pathway to our soul geometry.  They bring the individual part of you into relationship with the collective – what’s unique about you, your personal preferences and delights are important to us all.

So how do we  tune into the difference between a life threatening event and an overdue work deadline?

There is a deep and profound wounding that is being repaired over the next few days.  Because we have lost much of our conscious connection with our body intelligence we have built up layer upon layer of unprocessed shock from unexpected events.  Our brains push us ever onward towards our egoic goals, but our bodies have been left to hold the damage.  This subdues our capacity to listen gently to our intuition.

The Earth activation for the next 5 days is in the Gate of Intuitive Clarity.  This is an energy of gently feeling our way into situations.  It’s not a sharp cutting energy – shock! fear! Instead it is a quiet sensation, perhaps a prickling of the skin or a twitching of the nose. It is the body expressing itself in response to our environment.  This gentle intuitive sense offers us a chance to enter into conversation with a deep knowing of what is good for us as individuals.  It’s not about recommended daily intakes or ideal weight to height ratios.  It’s something deeply personal. Through it’s link with the Heart Centre, it brings us closer to our soul geometry and provides a bridge between our emotions and our higher self.

Our bodies need to heal, to get healthy, to renew their relationship with joy.  As we get to know our ‘fear’ in this more natural way, our bodies can reconnect with a gentleness and innocence that’s been lost.  We can begin to understand what is truly threatening and what is simply a culturally induced anxiety syndrome.

Take some time over the next few days to feel your feet gently upon the earth, to feel the breeze on your skin and to listen deeply to the language of your cells.

 

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Alert – Intense Transformation

 

 

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Master Huang refers to this gate as “shake, shock or quake”.   In the I Ching it’s the quintessential symbol of thunder.  In the Human Design chart it’s in the Heart Centre. This is the mediator between this world and the next, the place where we transform higher energies into emotions and shift emotions into the love dimension.  In the fiery grip of transformation, we look for continuity.  What needs to spiral upwards?  What needs to be maintained through being properly grounded? What needs to be released?

In this place of rapid transformative process we are balanced, like the phoenix, bringing forth new life from the flames.  Every apparent ending brings forth new life and the thread of your existence is unbroken.  You are new again and again and again.  Occupy that space in your own life and you’ll find your freedom there.

Mars will be in the Gate of Initiation (51) until 8th April 2013.  It will be joined by the Sun and Venus on 6th April.  I’ll write more about this process shortly.   We are entering a 8 week period of radical shift.  Breathe, stay grounded, be gentle with yourself.

Human Design transit chart for 2nd April 2013

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A Deep Letting Go

 

 

Fractal-Symmetric-Icon-02I dreamt about death last night.  And I pulled the death tarot card this morning.  That’s no surprise given the connections to Pluto, Lord of the Underworld, today.  The Sun, Venus, Mars and Uranus are all conjunct, and are all squaring Pluto.

Pluto calls us to a deep letting go.  Do you feel sad?  That means something you’ve loved and become attached to is leaving your field.  Do you feel fear or shame? That’s something you are giving birth to wanting to be released into an unknown world.

Everything you have been till this moment is expanding into something more.  Something larger, more alive and more connected.  Many of those connection points have been places of wounding and pain in the past.  Now they are ready to reach out and try again.

The Sun, Venus and Mars are in Gate 21. This is a gate that tells us how our life has been controlled and manipulated, where we have had our daily lives disrupted and interfered with.  It  calls us to trust enough to release ourselves into the universal field without knowing what that might bring to our door.  It invites us to release our white knuckle grip on our own individual truth and enter in to a broader collective flow.   It calls us to look beyond appearances and bite through to a truth that truly feeds us.  It teaches us the new skill of going with the flow, while maintaining our own space and holding authority for our own lives.  Uranus is still back in Gate 17 showing us the way to simultaneously learn and teach in each moment.  I give wisdom, I receive wisdom.

Pluto in Gate 38 is teaching us the deep lessons of living the challenges of life, rather than fighting death.  This is no longer a struggle for survival.  It is now about the creation of more life.  But Pluto always has a price, and that price is to release the old wornout forms.  Sigh and stretch and let them go, even if you don’t know what they are.

There is something leaving your life today.  And there is something profound arising.  Make a space for it to enter.  Be prepared for it to flourish.

 

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(*)  The Sun, Venus and Mars are all in Gate 21.  Uranus is in Gate 17, but still close enough to the Sun to create an astrological conjunction.

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March Full Moon ~ Moving Beyond Woundedness

 

 

This month’s Full Moon is an evolutionary push that takes us beyond our woundedness, beyond the effects of culture and into fully integrated global being.

There are three ‘hot spots’ in the Human Design transits on our upcoming Full Moon.  One is mental, one emotional and one is physical.   The red letter event is that the Sun, Venus and Uranus are all in the Gate of Following.  Uranus is the Great Awakener.  This is an awakening event, a profound shift in our evolutionary trajectory.

Let’s take the long view for a moment.  Life began on earth about 4 billion years ago.   That’s life as in cellular carbon based life forms, organic stuff that reproduces.  It arose from combinations of various chemical compounds coming together in marvelous new ways.  That’s our ancestry.  We turned up on the scene (“we” as in the Genus Homo) about 2.5 million years ago, and evolved into something recognisably ‘human’ about 200,000 years ago.

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What’s happening now is shift that takes us beyond gradual evolution.  We’re not talking about the development of tools and opposeable thumbs.  We’re not talking about agriculture or towns or reading and writing.  This is not incremental.  We are taking part in a paradigm shift, an evolutionary leap into the unknown.

Gate 17 is a mental energy.  It’s asks where you have inherited ideals and philosophies that don’t work for you, no matter how much you bend and squeeze yourself to fit them?  Do we have to abuse our bodies and block our emotions to make life fit their shape?  Do we try to manipulate and control others to protect our own opinions?

When you are clear about what you value, your thoughts and ideals can reflect that.  You can allow them to meld with the natural currents, following signs and nudges.  You can take the pathway of effortless supportive synchronicity.  When we crystallise our ideals and make them our irreproachable gods, we lose.

Venus brings the potential to recover from a lack of human connection at the mental level.

How can we introduce our minds to our own humanity – to our bodies and emotions?   We have a cultural tendency to isolate mentally from our other modes of awareness.  We have been conditioned to lose touch with our own reality.

As each one of us reconnects with our inner knowing – our intuition, our emotions, our inspiration – we can ground fully into our physical vehicles.  I want to make the point here that we can’t be fully grounded until we have returned the flow and relationship of emotions and intuition and thoughts.  This integration and grounding process is well under way.  It’s what we’ve been doing for the past few decades, and we’re at the pointy end now.

strange attractorWhen the evolutionary process gets ready to take a leap, it moves into a chaotic state.  In that chaos, everything becomes very sensitive. Every little twinge and shift seems like a tsuanami.  That’s where we are.

That’s why you are so finely attuned just now to every thought, every bodily sensation and emotional twinge.  The sensitivity is a part of the grander scheme of evolution, and your consciousness of the process is what we might call the ‘strange attractor’.   When evolution enters it’s chaotic stage, everything is looking for an anchoring point.  What shall we constellate around now that the old reality is dissolving?  That anchor point is called a strange attractor.  It’s what we are attracted to.

When scientists use complex mathematics to draw strange attractors, they look like butterflies, our symbol of transformation and emergence.   That’s the profound level of integrated meaning inherent in our cosmos.

So, back to the story of our evolution.  As we become  increasingly sensitive to every little twinge of inner conflict, our holistic integration enters a completion stage.  We are completing a cycle of individuation (that’s Uranus and the Sun at work).   We are closing the circle of merging and melding, of fear and projection, of control and manipulation.

We are approaching the place where we can make conscious responses from an integrated place as an individual.

This is profound.  That sticky, sucky, painful place of neediness is disappearing.   Our woundedness is receding.  Our capacity for conscious presence is increasing.  Our ability to hold our own unique shape and enter into the flow of the collective, and beyond to the cosmos,  is emerging.  We are completing our evolutionary cycle as tribal beings.  We are completing our evolutionary cycle as national and cultural beings.   We are moving beyond the place where we can be controlled by an external authority, because we have grounded our own inner presence beyond culture.  We are emerging as clearly differentiated unique individuals, capable of coming together at the global level.

We are about to embark upon the adventure of a lifetime, where a lifetime is about 5 billion years.   We are becoming conscious of our capacity to engage in the process of evolution itself.   We are stepping into our power to co-create.

The engine room for this shift is in the other two hot spots – the body and emotions.  In the Solar Plexus Centre we have Mercury and Chiron in the Gate of Family (37).  In the Spleen Centre we have the Moon and Earth in the Gate of Family Corruption.  Both of these positions point to a clearing of wounds at the level of family and culture.  These are the places within us that have carried the wounds of many generations.  Wounds that we have re-created at the level of culture.  Suppressed anger, fear and control, greed and neglect.  Be alert to these old patterns that are seeking to flow out of your field just now.   We hold them as a collective, we release them as individuals.

Uranus comes to us via external, or collective, events.  Things happen that push us to let go of old over-crystallised structures and look for new innovative “out of this world” solutions.  It can be scary, it can be exciting.  Uranus uses excitement as a way to open our field to the new.  Watch the news this week to see how established cultural and religious authorities topple.  I was interested to read Paul Krugman’s take on the banking crisis in Cyprus.  Krugman recommends a leap into the unknown.  In this case the devil we don’t know will be better than the devil we know.  There’s no doubt of that, it’s just a case of whether fear will rule reason.   Every bump and grind of world events seems ready to tip us over.

Honour your sensitivity, it’s an evolutionary process and your consciousness of it is a profound stage in life’s journey.

As these wounds – both personal and cultural –  shift out of our field, a new reality will be revealed as if by magic.   What was previously obscured is becoming clear and bright, bringing with it a new way of experiencing ourselves that goes beyond anything we have previously imagined.