Full Moon Opens Us to New Directions
Full Moon in Gate 14.2 in Scorpio on 17th May at 11:08am UT
This Full Moon is about us maturing in our ability to hold to our own direction in life. It’s in a Channel that connects our Sacral Chakra to our Ji Centre – life force meets soul geometry.
This is a gate of the power that flows from an abundance of money, talent, relationships, energy. Not feeling quite like that for you just now? Well that’s because we are beginners at this new game of discovering what we need within ourselves and then sharing it authentically with others.
I’ve been saying for a while now that we are experiencing a change in our understanding of how to succeed. We are shifting away from cutting a swathe through life as rugged individuals and moving towards relationships and connectedness as the basis for creation. Our individual selves are being led into a way of relating that is perhaps not very comfortable.
The Sun and Moon are both in the individual circuitry that seeks to find that unique spark in each one of us, to add it to the collective mix, and to create something unheard of, unimagined and entirely wonderful. In Gate 14.2, the Moon is letting you know that it’s time to move to a new place:
A great chariot is big enough to move great possessions – carrying you, and your life, to a new place. This should be used to move on. The only mistake would be to stay in the same place, imagining that you’re stuck.
Clarify where you are, and what you have, and how this enables you to travel onward. Hold a vision in mind of where you want to arrive and set out to explore.
The Sun in Gate 8.2 has us searching for connection and belonging. We have been like children who have wandered out into the world expecting one response and getting another response entirely. In the innocent and subjective way of children we had taken this to mean we were wrong. But in the past few years our view of the world has expanded and matured and we have come to the point where we finally understand. There is nothing wrong with us, we had simply landed in an environment that was unsuited to the truth of who we are. And in this way we have begun to create a new environment: new friends, new jobs, new families, new healthier bodies.
Gate 8 is a way for us to express our unique creative self in authentic relationships. In the process we create an entirely new world. It calls on us to know our own source and to sense our own direction in life. Holding to our natural affinities, staying true to our own path, we connect and create with new power.
Mars in the Gate of Nourishment (27.3) suggests that it is helpful to be without direction just now. But that means ‘without direction’ in the old ego sense. We must be open to possibilities, able to sense what is needed in each moment. This is how we see what opportunities are opening up for us. We have to be both entirely self supporting and open to deep and authentic connection with others. If we continue in our old ways of pouring out the best of ourselves in an unrecognised and unrewarded effort to forge ahead, we simply end up exhausted.
On the other hand, it’s important not to fall into despondency. We can certainly look around and see that things are not good in the world. And perhaps there are aspects of our own lives that are very difficult. But each one of us shines a light and we are beginning to connect those lights into a grid that wraps the planet in a loving embrace.
Over the next few days Mars, Mercury and Venus will move through the Gate of Nourishment (in that order). From 18th to 21st May all three will be there together. Working in conjunction with Neptune in the Gate of Abundance*, this is activating a shift in how we see our life direction. As we cut ourselves free from a more childlike dependency – I’ve been so good, why am I not getting what I want? – we can see so much more clearly what it is that we really want to commit our energy to.
This Full Moon asks us to look at options for self-nurturing that we have been unable to explore before now. We have, consciously or otherwise, assumed someone else would look after these aspects of our lives for us. In my own experience I’ve been vaguely aware of not wanting to look after myself in various ways, but haven’t been able to push through the wall of grief and infantile rage to get clear enough to do anything about it. A year ago I would have hit a wall filled with feelings of abandonment and neglect. But now it’s as if that wall has crumbled and I am really enjoying caring for myself.
This is a part of a powerful detoxification of the Sacral Chakra, freeing our bodies from slavery coding. Achilles is in the Money Gate (45) suggesting that we remove money from any part of our decision making process. Relying on financial considerations take us straight into fear, into our heads and out of our creative power and freedom to express and connect at the soul level. Once we get clear about our direction and what we want to commit to, then we can bring financial considerations back in.
* I have a blog coming that covers this topic in more detail … any day now :).
I’d also like to acknowledge the beautiful photographic art work of Cuba Gallery from New Zealand.
SPOT ON Kim!!!! This is happening right now!!! 🙂 Thanks for sharing! Heartfully as always with you! Hali
Carole I wish there was a little “love” button I could push at the bottom of your comments to say I read it, appreciating and sending you love xxxx
“Achilles is in the Money Gate (45) suggesting that we remove money from any part of our decision making process. Relying on financial considerations take us straight into fear, into our heads and out of our creative power and freedom to express and connect at the soul level. Once we get clear about our direction and what we want to commit to, then we can bring financial considerations back in.”
wierd… thats exactly what i had decided to do, with my work… engagement with the world… and thats what i wrote today in my profile…
that: “… work and making a living are not one and the same thing (for me)…”
“my work is not something i do for a living, but, something i live for doing…”
Biren I have been saying this over and over till one day I went .. oh, hang on, what’s in Gate 45? And there it was – Achilles! For many of us it’s affecting our natal Eris in Gate 21 (9 degrees 30″ to 15 degrees 07″ Aries). Where we feel unseen in our daily lives or the way we naturally feel to arrange our lives is not seen or valued.
sorry, kim… but a little elaboration please.. for this thick-head?
what is (effect of) achilles in 45, and eris in aries in 21?
seems important… no to be missed, so…?
sorry…
what i meant was how r the 2 connected?
Biren I’m thinking I need to write a whole article on Eris in 21 – the blame thing that has prevented a whole generation from feeling that they can take control over their lives. As for Achilled in 45, it is showing up all the places where we allow money to take control of our lives, and we are wounded as a result.
Kim, Once again, I feel like you are writing just to me, and then read others saying much the same!
Biren, you are so fortunate !!!
Cyn, always so happy to write just for you <3
Brilliant, Kim! As always, it resonates .
“A year ago I would have hit a wall filled with feelings of abandonment and neglect. But now it’s as if that wall has crumbled …” Any pointers on how you got to the other side of that wall?
Many thanks!
Hmmm, that’s an excellent question Aparna. I have Gate 30 activated in a defined Solar Plexus Centre – Jupiter in 41 and South Node in 30 – so I am easily able to identify my feelings. Having said that, I suffered from depression and a serious anxiety disorder all my life, and it’s only recently that I’ve felt that I’ve reached a place of emotional ease within myself.
Each time I experienced a sense of emotional unease – and believe me I had plenty of opportunity for that! – I would simply allow myself to relax right into it, to open myself up to it.
I believe it is essential not to try to find rational reasons or judge these feelings because they are often embedded in earlier times and don’t always make sense.
Through allowing my strength (defined Solar Plex) to support my vulnerabilities (open Ji and undefined Spleen) I was gradually able to discover all the places where I felt unloved and how it was drastically affecting my body and health.
There’s a German psychotherapist called Alice Miller, one of my heroes!, who worked with children. One day she asked herself this question – why do some children have horrific experiences and recover, while others have apparently minor experiences and remain traumatised and unable to function. After years of observation and research she discovered that the children who recovered had at least one person (and it only needed to be ONE person) who observed their experience and said ‘that was not okay’. This allowed them to benchmark the experience as wrong and build a healthy boundary.
So many of us have experienced abuse at such subtle levels that our society still doesn’t recognise that ‘that was not okay’, and so the way to get to the other side of the wall is to be that one person, to observe your own pain and say “that was not okay, but it’s over now and you’re okay”.
The TAT system is great for this, you can download a free instruction ebook at http://www.TATlife.com. I tend to do my own thing, but if you like to use a technique, TAT is great.
<3 xxx
Kim, I too feel like you write just for me! I am going thru some very unusal things right now; righting wrongs between family members and myself seems to be the major theme. Your comment about gates 30-41 rang so true -I looked at my design and saw that I have Chiron in gate 30; and earth in my 41. I have just gone thru my chiron return, which was extremely life changing and shook everything about me to my core, (It “rocked my world” in an amazingly challenging way) and opened up a whole range of feelings that I had been keeping locked up, unbeknownst to me and others.
Thanks for the TAT link – I will try it today!
Thanks, Kim, for your detailed response and the TAT link. I am amazed and grateful for your steady thoughtfulness, compassion, and wisdom. BTW, although I don’t post often, I read you regularly! I have so much to learn from you….in many ways, you have been where I am stuck now. Many, many thanks!
As a child i was sexually abused, then was into abusive relationships, then in 15 year old long marriage which was also abusive. I walked out finally to reclaim my life two years back. The more I go within me I see how I have felt guilty and ashamed for all the ‘bad’ things that happened to me. But now I see the shift happening and find myself loving myself and saying that the “bad things” did not happen because of me or because something was wrong with me. I have stopped all external financial support from my ex-husband. I am free from all external supports and alone within to find all the support I need from the self that is already self sufficient. I am now just beginning to offer the true Dola to the world….It is scary of course because the old fears of rejection and huniliation still lurk sometimes, but I am now ready to see them eye to eye….Kim you words are amazing. Thank you and of course Biren is the wonderful human being who brought me to this blog.
Dola your courage to step out on your own is a wonderful example to us all. I’m sure you will find the support you need from loving people. More and more we are joining together to create new families and communities for each other that recognise our wounds and our need to heal them. All love to you on your journey. Kim