Full Moon March 2014

New Moon March 2014

Struggling on with the devil we know is not going to bring us rewards this month. Instead, try reaching out to others and facing your fears of being found out.

We all feel like we have things to hide.  Places we’d rather not let others see.  But that is changing.   The dark places within us are about to be revealed as jewels, just waiting to be discovered by the right person.  This week’s New Moon is about letting go of struggling on alone because we are too afraid of losing control to ask for help or even to say YES when that invitation comes along.

We are making a fundamental transformation, from going it alone to opening up to the thrill of relationship.  I’m not talking about love relationships in particular.   This is about having great relationships in every area of our lives.  The whole idea of the rugged individual has cost us a lot of happiness.  How many people are sitting at home watching television and chatting on Facebook to avoid their loneliness, even as I write this. We’ve wandered into territory that has left us isolated, even in the midst of company.

We are headed to new relationship territory, so different from the old established ways of relating that are based on lack of self worth.  If I do this for you, you’ll do that for me.  This is SO much more aligned with really seeing each other, really being there for each other, letting go of being invisible, allowing ourselves to be vulnerable, to be magnificent in our own unique way.   It’s a non-economic relationship! It’s based on love and trust and a choice of true connection, rather than clinging together to survive. It exists outside the existing boundaries of our time space dimension and we are making it up as we go along.

If you’re coming up against anything that feels uncomfortable just now it’s probably because you’re experiencing a remnant of old conditioning. Still trying to keep control so you won’t be revealed for what you truly are.  And yet that’s the point!  We’re like the goldfish, this is the water we’ve swum in for millenium and we can’t even see another way to live. So swim on – around and around we shall!  Even though, oh dear, we’re nearly out of room here.  We might really prefer to take more on ourselves.  Because that way we can keep control! We can take on even more responsibility for getting it right, avoiding the blame.  Or ….

You are simply too amazing to stay in this little bowl, and you need to connect with others to get yourself free.  Into a simpler and more vital life.

This week’s New Moon indicates a fresh cycle, sitting in the same gate as that wily master of disruption, Uranus.  In 21.4, Uranus tells us that even enormously hard work is not going to bring us the results we desire right now.  We’re sitting in sticky mud and the harder we try to pull ourselves free the more we get stuck.  So, the best thing to do right now is to relax.  Everything is fine.  It’s exactly how it’s meant to be, even though the material realm may look a tad chaotic and not exactly under your control.

Here’s the trick to this whole set of April transits.  Reach out to others even if it brings up uncomfortable feelings of guilt, shame, not good enough, losing control, too much change and disruption.  Life is going to get miraculously easier as we develop a capacity to build relationships built on trust, love, caring, creativity.  Neptune is helping us build better internal structures that support our individuality while also leaving us free and available for wonderful relationships of all kinds.

Ask yourself what you have to give up to make these new soul family connections.  Is it worth it?  Do you really want to avoid the risk to grow beyond your current limitations?  Miss out on the joy of being even more of who you are?  Letting the dispossessed parts of you out of Pandora’s box and into the world of hope?

If you’re experiencing blocks, limitations or unforseen complications at the moment, don’t struggle with them.  Instead take some time to get clear on what you’re trying to achieve. Tune into whether there is a simpler and more effective approach.  It will probably involved another person.  We are reaching for something beyond the old kind of material outcomes so look for how you feel rather than what you might achieve.   Consider how all this stuckness feels to the child inside you who was squashed, judged and stuffed into a life way too small for her imagination.  What happened to that artist, astronaut, fairy queen?  She really really wants to wake from her slumber and find her artist/astronaut and fairy queen friends right now, and remember how much fun and how productively creative magical play is!

You’re not a cog in the economic machine.    You’re a multidimensional being creating a whole new reality space. We’re all just waiting. It’s a bit like the school dance, who’ll make the first move?

30 March 2014 – New Moon – Sun / Moon in 21.1 and Earth in 48.1 – Uranus in 21.4

15 April 2014 – Full Moon and Lunar Eclipse – Sun in 42.5  / Earth and Moon in 32.5.

21 April 2014 – Pluto in 38.5 square Uranus in 21.5.

29 April 2014 – New Moon and  Solar Eclipse – Sun/Moon  in 24.2 and Earth in 44.2.


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The Galactic Doorway

18th January 2011

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This weeks Full Moon will open a gateway to the voice of the Galactic Centre.  What is that voice saying?  That it’s time to let go of projecting our issues onto others in order to defend our own vulnerable inner selves.  It’s a bit like the football idea of playing the ball not the player.  And for those who don’t play football of any persuasion, that means when you go in for a tackle your aim is to get the ball, not take down the player.  We’ve been taking each other down for millenium in our attempts to get the ball.

We are learning to detach from the negativity without blaming others or engaging in any old abuse dynamics of victim and perpetrator.  We are calling in a new co-creative power.  In doing so we are passing over a watershed that is of monumental significance.

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Shifting to Collective Consciousness

We’ve almost completed the evolutionary shift from tribal (or community) to individual.  That shift has involved things like flower power, finding ourselves, free love and not having to be a shopkeeper just because your parents were.  We’ve moved out of traditional roles like husband and wife, and learnt we could love ourselves even when it seemed no one else did.

Now we are taking the next precarious step of bringing that new found individual self into the collective.  And that’s a bit scary because our group memory is tribal and something deep within us is sending out warning signals.  But that old version of loss of self is no longer possible.  We hold our unique spark at the soul level and no one can take it from us.

It is crucial just now that we dismantle the last vestiges of that tribal survival mind.  We are becoming conscious of any negative thoughts we are having about anyone, and are learning to ‘play the ball’ instead.  We need to untangle the negativity that we’ve wrapped around each other, to see that projecting it back and forward like a manic game of astral ping pong helps no one.

Root Centre

There is so much activity to the Root Centre – Pluto and Ceres, Mars and the Sun, Magdalena and Mercury, Apollo, Kassandra, Pallas and Nessus.  It goes on.  It’s a survival soup, because the Root Centre is where we hold the data we need to stay alive here on planet earth.  Only problem with that is – things are changing so quickly that our data is way out of date and so are the falsely conditioned  instinctive and emotional survival responses we’ve been limited to.

The Sun is in Gate 60 in the Root Centre with Sappho, suggesting we can move through limitations by finding the commonality with others rather than looking for differences.

Also in the Root Centre, Mars and Ceres in 41 are creating a channel with Chiron and Neptune in 30 accentuating the feeling of a lack of landmarks for what we may desire.  It’s as if we look around and can’t even see the building blocks we need to create the life we long for.  But the next few days – until 25th January –  are a time for pruning the deadwood away, rather than building something new.  Neptune tests our ability to stay with the flow rather than grab at the next bright shiny thing that bobs by on the flooded tide with the potential to keep us afloat.  Our vision of what we want needs to shatter and be replaced by the truth of where we are now and the magical involvement each one of us has in this precise moment.  And the next.  And the next.

The Moon and the Galactic Centre

The Moon and Earth are in Gate 56 in the Throat Centre.  It brings the energy of the Galactic Centre (in Gate 11.5 in the Ajna) to the Throat for expression.   This is a difficult gate, bringing a feeling of being a stranger travelling through a strange land.

There are no other minor planets in Gate 56, accentuating the Moon’s loneliness there.  It’s as if our innocent and childlike selves are wandering around trying to make sense of a new landscape.  There are certainly issues here of abandonment and/or the isolation required to stay safe when we can’t make sense of what’s going on around us.  Kassandra’s involvement suggests that we feel cursed in not being seen and believed, as if our innate perceptions are considered suspect by everyone we meet, and so we’re not sure if we can rely on them or not.

There’s one minor planet in Gate 11 with the Galactic Centre – Vesta.  She of holding true to our own sovereignty, of knowing our own sacred truth against all attempts to degrade it. There is something very significant here for me – the process of ‘defrocking’ the Vestal Virgins was one of stripping the sacred from our sexual relationships.  In a sense it rendered our relationships powerless and sterile.  Vesta at the Galactic Centre has the capacity to restore them.  The regeneration of Vesta also represents our ability to maintain our own inner sacred creative flame and a warm nurturing hearth and home.

The Flood

Poseidon arising from the flooded Brisbane River

The New Moon back on 4th January was a trigger for a sticky web of emotional toxicity to be released.  And then came the flood – well at least here in Australia.  Poseidon, Deucalion (the Greek Noah) and Ceto, an aquatic monster symbolizing the fears of the unconscious mind and a tendency to feel sorry for ourselves.  All in Gate 26 (which means they are connecting in with Saturn and Haumea in the Spleen Centre).

They create a channel with Quaoar in Gate 44, who brings the ability to break out of limitation to create something that’s pretty damn close to the purity of our vision, our original template. How?  By celebrating life, singing and dancing and going with the flow and allowing each moment to be new.

The floods here in Australia started when Mercury passed over transiting Quaoar.  The thing most people have commented on is the amazing community spirit they have brought out in people.  That energy was held very strongly by the Queensland Premier Anna Bligh who walked a brilliantly fine line of calm and clarity.   Like Obama, who made a brilliant speech after the shooting in Tucson Arizona, Bligh has her Neptune in Gate 44.   They both displayed the ability to speak to the wounded (Chiron is conjunct Neptune just now) while holding to our highest ideals.

Just as Noah was told the floods would cleanse humanity, so these events have enabled us to look more closely at our inhumane treatment of each other.  Sledging political opponents, passing neighbours on the street without a hallo.   Both events speak to a new energy for collective coming together.

Soul Relationships

There’s every type of ‘abuse’ imaginable sitting in the transits at the moment, most noticeably to me is Transpluto (intense critisism) in Gate 29 in the Sacral Chakra meeting Juno (relationships), Typhon (a multiheaded monster who seems impossible to defeat) and the Super Galactic Centre (triggering a search for our soul mates) in adjoining Gate 46 at the G Centre.

This is significant because Pluto and Saturn are being brought together by Nemesis in Gate 18.  This is a gate that is way out of control on this planet, but basically has as its base the ability to see what is wrong with things.  Combined with Saturn in 57 it brings a piercing sword of truth that hurts like hell.  Nemesis can make us feel like we’ve come up against this pain over and over again and will never be able to move past it.   It’s not the truth that’s the problem, but the way we’ve been wielding the sword.

In our relationships we are perhaps involved in intense projection of our own wounded lack of wholeness caused by:

  • feeling unfairly critisised by others
  • not having a way to explain to those we love what we perceive to be wrong with our lives and what we need to make it better.

And I know this is probably enough, but just let me add one more ingredient to the mix.  The Sun in Gate 60 is meeting the M-32 galaxy in Gate 3.  This galaxy is a satellite to the Andromeda galaxy.  According to Philip Sedgwick the core idea here is the paradox of being whole and alone as a way of coming closer to others.  When we live in our own truth we generate a field that naturally attracts all manner of soul mates to us.   Gate 3 is a gate of new beginnings so subtle that few can feel its energy except as chaos and confusion, but the shift has definitely landed.

My friends and I have often joked over the years as we’ve moved through our ‘shadow’ and ‘inner child’ stuff that we must surely be scraping the bottom of the barrel now!  We’ve given up wondering about that, but there is definitely a sense of that in these transits.  We really are becoming incredibly clear and calm and self sufficient within ourselves even if it does feel like we’re going mad sometimes!   The next few days may feel strange and we may at times feel quite alone, but we’re all alone together and that will become apparent soon.

Trusting our Innocent and True Selves

Our true intuitive responses to life and our deep emotional wisdom are being called forth.  We can trust ourselves.  When we do, remarkable things happen.  Here’s the last word from Hilary Barrett’s I Ching – Jupiter in Gate 25.

When there are obstacles, perhaps when the free flow of communications is blocked, this does not mean it is your job to engage and grapple with the problem.  Making progress is not the same thing as clearing blockages – not when you can simply walk past them, disentangled and move on.

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Karmic Dissolution

20th December 2010

There is something in each one of us that has always moved to a rhythm of a dance that is unseen by others. This is the orphan within, the part of us that longs to belong, that seeks to be sought and that yearns to be perfectly understood and loved.  For so long we have dealt with each other as if we are possessions – my wife, my son, my friend.  As my possession you need to behave in certain ways in order to get my approval:  as my lover you need to be sexy and entertaining, as my child you must obey, as my husband you must provide.  Add to this our role as cogs in the economic machine of ‘life’ and we can easily see the ways we lose touch with each other while looking as if we are connected.

These next few weeks are unravelling the way in which we possess and are possessed.  In order to move on to the next stage of evolution each of us must be sovereign unto ourselves whilst held in a net of love and light.   Our co-dependent attachments are completing.

Human Design Transit Chart for 28th December 2010

28th December 2010

You might have noticed lately that Saturn is making a channel with the North Node, connecting the Spleen Centre to the G Centre.  They’ve been there since 8th December and will remain together in that channel until 17th March.

This presages change at the physical level, a place where we are not very conscious, and yet it’s a part of our lives that affects us profoundly.  We can be very uncomfortable with our bodies and their limitations and ills.  We can be very unconscious about how our hormones and the electrical circuitry of our minds and emotions drive our lives.

This is also a channel that seeks perfection in it’s creations.  Each of us seeks to create our own experience of perfection, beauty and harmony. Saturn and Haumea in Gate 57 are linking our capacity for relationship with our power to endure and manifest as individuals. It’s as if we have come to the end of what beauty we can create alone, but are terrified of the alternatives.  And that’s because we can remember, even if only at the cellular level, the horror of past wrongs between family, friends and  lovers.

It’s that horror we are clearing from our cells now. And when I talk about cellular clearing I am talking about readjusments to the endocrine system, adrenals and the nervous system in particular.  I’ve got so many strange and unusual symptoms just now that I would probably be pronounced dead if I had a medical checkup!  (Thank you Neptune in my Spleen Centre!!).  In fact I am doing the highly unusual, and getting a checkup next week just to make sure there’s nothing I need to pay attention to.  What we may notice is past life physical symptoms begin to clear, so they may come and then go quite mysteriously.  Go see your doctor if you are concerned.

The Moon pops in momentarily to aid in the process of correcting family patterns, always giving us the impetus to choose our own joyfulness over anyone else’s ideas of how we should live our lives.   As I write this blog la luna is in Gate 18, connecting the Sun conjunct Pluto with Saturn conjunct Haumea and that is perfect!

Saturn is a bit like the circus ringmaster just now, aspecting a few interesting characters –

Ixion, (26.1) who was the first mortal found guilty of kin-slaying when he murdered his father-in-law.  He was also the father of the Centaurs, who represent transformation via woundedness.   Ixion found himself bound to a wheel forevermore by Zeus after attempting to sleep with Zeus’ wife Hera.   Zeus had actually slept with Ixion’s wife Dia, but didn’t see that as having any bearing on Ixion’s punishment!

This reflects something of the Eris story as well, asking us to be clear within ourselves where the blame is being cast by the head of the family, and how fair or otherwise the punishment may be.  I believe that Ixion, having just completed an activation with the South Node (15) has been clearing our collective karma around past life ill treatment of family since 5th November 2010.

Narcissus, (26.1) who was so exceptionally proud that he failed to appreciate those who loved him. As divine punishment he fell in love with his own reflection in a pool, not realizing it was merely an image, and he wasted away to death, not being able to leave the beauty of his own reflection.

Narcissus by Caravaggio ~ Wikimedia Commons

Pholus is also in gate 26.1.  He can represent parts of our nature we are not yet in touch with, something waiting to manifest.  In combination with Heracles (63.5) who was partly responsible for the death of Pholus,  this is the human part of ourselves stumbling around trying to make sense of things, trying to do the best we can, but feeling almost blind, as if our strength and curiosity work against rather than for us.

Pholus is letting us know that if we take small steps to replenish relationships, take pleasure in each moment and stop postponing our own happiness we will make great leaps forward.  Pholus is saying the slower you go, the faster you’ll move forward.

Gate 26.1 speaks of finding our power and nurturing it’s growth by finding hidden dangers and regaining conscious control of our direction.   It’s as if, enamoured of our own ego self, we betrayed those who would have loved and supported us, and so lost our safe base in life.  Over many lifetimes we have been on both sides of the drama, hiding our guilty fear of being found out as the bad guy, but also worrying about being hurt again while wearing our good guy hat.  That drama has been hidden behind veils of guilt, shame and fear, but the veils are being lifted this week.

Adding to the family context is Mercury conjunct Dwarf Planet candidate Quaoar in Gate 26.  The conjunction was exact on Christmas Day and will be again on the New Moon on 4th January 2011.   My reading of this, taking in a whole lot of subtle connections, is that we are getting a chance to become more conscious of how our ego selves may create chaos rather than consciously step up into our own perfection.  Worried we may be left behind or move ahead too quickly, we want to stay put with those we love, not realising that we all want to move on and if we open up truthfully we can do so together.

Unfortunately, our tendency to try to stay put simply prolongs the difficulties for all of us, as it continues to mask the underlying family dynamics that created the problems in the first place.  Remember Pholus is about to join Quaoar in gate 26 and Pholus is an unseen force within us, drawing us forward.

Quaoar is one of the creative energies that operates out past Uranus, Neptune and Pluto.  It is pure manifestation without karmic baggage, and asks only that you allow it to flow through you without hindrance from past fears.  In Gate 26, there is considerable interference from the ego self who wants to run the show.  The adjoining Gate 44 is so chock-a-block I’m not even going to go there except to say we can get caught up in going round and round the wheel like Ixion if we don’t let ourselves off the karmic hook.

And of course there’s more but let’s take it slow and steady :).  Remember to nourish yourself (Persephone in 27 and Ceres in 60), practice dissolving into your powerful immortal goddess self (Sedna in 23 opposite Venus 43) choose to be joyful in the moment no matter how things may appear to be on the surface, and to care for your physical body as it goes through this massive cellular shift to release the past.

Nature's Spiral by Cuba Gallery ~ http://www.cubagallery.co.nz/


An Opening To Our Inner Depths


20th December 2010

At the moment it feels a bit like I should be writing lists rather than posts. Everything is connecting to everything else, which is exactly as it should be for an approach to a Gemini Full Moon. Gemini loves networking!

20th December 2010

20th December 2010

Today the Sun conjuncts Mercury retrograde, both of which align with the Galactic Centre, and Kassandra and Magdalena, and that lot are all square Makemake, Uranus and Jupiter and sextile Neptune and Chiron ….. gasp .. you see what I mean??

Let’s allow ourselves to drop a little deeper than the bright shiny Gemini butterfly might prefer, because today offers us the chance to weave another integrating thread in the cloth of duality.  Today is a gateway to another layer of multidimensional reality, a shift in our perception of time and space.

I talked about the idea of receiving in my previous post. Tuning into the concept of receiving just now is not the same old ideas getting a re-run, not a spiritual amorphism, a bland practice. It’s not about giving and receiving being the same thing. They are and they’re not, because giving and receiving are polarities still seeking integration within us.  Today we can receive a profound intuitive healing to remove some of our old emotional armour.

It requires that we actively receive what’s incoming, we actively choose this subtle intuitive energy as a source of nourishment. And we choose it over other more familiar and more dense mental energies, allowing it to impact on our emotional selves.

It’s no coincidence that Kassandra is sitting at the centre of this line up. She was an oracle who was cursed by Apollo after refusing to ‘give over’. From that time on her divinations were not believed. According to Robert Graves, Apollo took over the temple at Delphi and the oracles were thereafter only allowed to speak with his voice and only allowed to express what he approved of.  This conflict between our inner oracular selves is still playing out, a power struggle for recognition as the one voice of knowing.

It’s no coincidence that Ceres (she who shows what nourishment we need to be complete within ourselves) is in Gate 61 in the Crown Chakra.  This inner gate brings us inspired new ways of thinking that balance and integrate the two outer channels – the abstract and the logical, the splenic and the emotional, the structure and the flow.  Ceres is integrating inner selves who we have previously projected out into the world in order to hear (and struggle with) other viewpoints.

What is new and still in potential is stronger than what is old and well established.  You separate from companions and become free to find your own way.  You leave behind what has kept you moving in a predetermined direction, realising you are not required to carry on in that way.  Even though you may feel some nostalgia, there is nothing wrong.

(Gate 61.5 From Hilary Barrett)

The voice that is whispering to us now is telling us truths that have been denied us for a very long time. There’s almost a sense of madness as the whispers meander through our emotional and mental barriers to find the purity of our hearts. It is such a subtle and light process of uncovering that it would be easy to tread right over the top of it. Take some time to be quiet and listen in deeply today. There are lightning bolts coming that will open you up to the very depths of your being.  Instead of the demons we have been told to expect,  we find magic, joy and understanding.

QThomasBower ~ flickr.com


Gateway To The Garden

The landscape shifts like sticky mud under our feet as we try to hold our ground.  December dishes up the unexpected, as if we have been searching in the garden for a particular plant and suddenly wander through a gate to find ourselves in another garden entirely.  Reacquainting ourselves with our new environment needs to be our main focus for the next few weeks.  Who knows what wonders we’ll find there!

Lift Off by AussieGall on www.Flickr.com

Yesterday’s New Moon was conjunct The Great Attractor (5), and the Full Moon on 20th is in the same channel (15).   This channel is the only one activated on 21st December 2012, and it deals with the opening of time dimensions and a re-balancing of the masculine and feminine energy.  Time both speeds up and slows down, warping space and our sense of self.  Being ‘at home’ becomes a soul journey rather than a real estate transaction.

Human Design Transits for 6th December 2010

There’s a whole pile of things going on in the chart right now.  With the Earth in Gate 35, we are able to express our emotions directly and immediately.  Usually a transit to this channel leads to emotional outbursts, but this time the planetary influences have created a deeper slower expression.

In the emotional centre, Neptune is conjunct Chiron in Gate 30.  These two have been travelling together since 2008.   In this gate they seem to be bringing up old emotional wounds to our sense of needs and wants and desires.  They are giving us a reality check on our fantasies, and in this way creating the conditions for instant manifestation.  If what we want isn’t really what we want, but just a glamourous fantasy (think Ferrari), then we will have subconscious resistance.

Feeling wounded about not getting what we want focuses our attention on this question over and over again – is that what I really want?  Or perhaps we could put it this way – if that Ferrari turned up in the driveway right now, would it make me any happier?

There’s a deep but mistaken belief here that we need to rely on others to get what we want.  And this involves manipulation of them (but muuuummmmm!!, why can’t I have it!!!!) and of ourselves as well, as we shift and twist to make ourselves the right shape to attract what we believe we need.  And because we haven’t yet quite mastered the manifestation dance, we never got to do the bit where we learn how to distinguish our true desires from our “childish” fantasies.   We are filling in the dots now.

The second emotional issue is Jupiter and Uranus in Gate 36.  There is a sense here of feeling that our emotional selves are quite mad, they just won’t listen to reason or comply nicely with our ego goals.  And they are making it difficult for us to fit in with the old concept of time.  If I feel emotional and can’t get my work done by 5pm, is that wrong of me?  Waiting for emotional clarity isn’t something we can get sorted by making to-do notes in our diary.  It’s much more receptive than that, and this is where the feminine integrative aspect of self can’t live within the prison of our current time frames.

That suppressed emotional energy is like a powerful horse that will ride in and carry you forward exactly as you desire (36.2).  But our addiction to mechanical time keeps it locked away where it can’t topple the order of our neat and tidy lives.  Without that power we find even walking is difficult (there are so many hexagrams that talk about not being able to walk just now!).  We rely instead on the false ‘horsepower’ of our imaginary Ferrari, living on fantasies where the real thing is waiting for us in an adjacent and parallel time universe.

The third highly significant event is Pluto (58) and Saturn (48) making a sandwich with Gate 18 being the delicious filling.  Gate 18 is a profound gate of DNA healing that affects us on the mental and physical levels.  Pluto (and Mercury about to retrograde) are letting us know that joy is our natural birthright.  I want to quote from 58.1 in Hilary Barrett’s excellent I Ching:

This is the promising beginning of a conversation: not mere self-expression, but the capacity to listen and respond.  You foster trust, and make mutual enrichment possible, by opening up your inner space to exchange.

The foundation for this responsive communication is autonomy and self-reliance: it means that you have something to give, and that you can create a harmonious connection that is not dominated or distorted by what people need from one another.

This is a channel that deals with our relationship to authority – tribal leaders both matriarchal and patriarchal.  There is a potential rigidity being cleared from our energetic fields as we realise that we are safe to connect with the depths of our own horsepower, our own truth and confidence (Saturn in 48.6).  Again from Hilary Barrett,

Water flows strongly into this well from underground sources.  It’s an image of effortless plenty; the water rising in the well, gathering even more as you draw from it – a constant dependable flow.

It might seem safer to cover the well.  You might want to hold yourself apart from the flow of giving and receiving for fear of losing your freedom and autonomy in the constant exchange.  Yet only when you remove the barriers and become part of the flow can you experience the true essence of the situation and tap into it’s deeper potential.

It’s hard to believe that we could be safe in a world where we can wait for the goodness and joy to surface naturally.  It’s difficult to trust that we have all we need within us to manifest what we truly desire without struggle or manipulation.   The Moon is passing over the Galactic Centre (11.5) later today and that is likely to bring new ideas that have you stepping into the next part of that journey into your new garden.


The Past, The Future and The Great Attractor


5th December 2010

There’s so much written about what the future will be like these days. Most of it seems to have an underpinning of panic.  It’s main message – how will we keep control? And therein lies the dilemma. We won’t. Control is the core ingredient in our old way of being. Control is something that we are rapidly losing a grip on, and for a very good reason.

In the 19th century it was fashionable to think of life as a great big machine that we could break down into little segments and study. In this way we discovered amazing things like cells and atoms.  If we could just find the tiniest bits of everything, we’d get control of them.  And that would of course make us masters of the universe and of our own destiny.

Life, however, has other plans for us.  Just as we feel we have the prize within our grasp, we are being re-routed onto a new quest.

Remember the existentialists?  They believed that we are alone in an uncaring universe.  In their world there is no beneficial forces, no synchronous support, no god, no love.  Moments of happiness are random events with no ultimate meaning.  They were the children of the machine.

Does that sound extreme?  It’s not.  It’s an invisible belief still sitting deeply within our conditioned minds.  I’m reading a book by ‘extraordinarily interesting thinker’ Charles Leadbeater, called Living On Thin Air.  The book is really good, and what struck me was this underlying assumption:

.. most people feel ensnared by the impersonal forces sweeping the global economy.

It’s the point at which we find it difficult to flow gracefully into our future.   When we feel threatened, our instinctive reaction is to try to get more control.  To Do Something!   And here is the shift point, the place where we jump between matrices.   When we wait, things become clear.  The apparently malefic reveals it’s beneficient nature.

When the beneficial nature of our predicament is clear, our way forward is creative, graceful and even fun.  When we move too soon we reinforce the 19th century notion that we are cogs in an uncaring machine who must struggle against the malefic forces in order to survive.  Not fun!

Tomorrow we have a New Moon conjunct The Great Attractor.  It’s probably the biggest ‘thing’ in the universe, with unimaginable gravitational forces.  It takes our past and spins it around in front of us, making it appear to be our future.  It bends light and time, confusing us about what is real.   It’s invisible.  To us.  And yet it is pulling us and loads of other galaxies towards it at tremendous speeds.  It’s a great attractor! (For those who are interested it’s in a fixed position in gate 5.3).

It’s so synchronous for us, because the New Moon is happening in a direct relationship to the Nodes which represent our past and our future.  The Great Attractor twists and turns them as if we are in a game of blind mans bluff.

Both Nodes are now transiting in the G Centre, which represents where we are headed in life.  Expect confusion about your life direction, your sense of identity, and your feelings about whether you are loved for who you are.

Expect confusion about whether you should be taking action or waiting for the shift to carry you forward.  Expect to feel that life is picking you up and carrying you somewhere.

And expect to struggle with whether this is a good thing or not.  Is life a random series of events, an uncaring machine?  Or an intelligent universe intimately attuned to your every thought and feeling?  You are a sacred being, creator of a series of sacred acts.   Rash and random actions should be avoided, they are not conducive to progress.  In fact, this New Moon is about clarifying the effect of past rash and random actions and how they’ve landed you in the mud.

Gate 5 is about Nourishment.  There is much here about our relationship with our parents and how we project that onto the larger picture – god and religion, mother earth, our governments – any maternal or paternal authority figures in our lives.  Without true nourishment we must struggle on alone in an uncaring universe where we survive on bravado rather than a true sense of belonging.   As we grow beyond that reality,  our past may just pop up in front of us so that we can see clearly where we have wrongly believed it to be our future.


Shaking Loose the Bonds of Culture


27th November 2010

Niobe and Altjira are fascinating me at the moment.  They are both in crucially important positions in the bodygraph and they both deal with how we relate to our creations, whether they be children, works of art, acts of charity or business projects.  They both seem to point to the idea that we must learn to live in the moment, to release any attachment to goals, to create simply for the innocent and pure joy of the process.

Niobe is an asteroid, and sitting between Saturn and Pluto in the Gate of Family Patterns (18) she is a key player just now.  It’s not a pretty story.  Niobe was prideful and boastful about how wonderful her many children were.  She was basically saying she was better than Apollo and Artemis, who only managed 2 children, perhaps because they were twins but that’s another story.   Apollo and Artemis weren’t happy about the slight, and killed Niobe’s children as they practiced their gymnastics.   Niobe was turned to stone but continued to weep unceasingly for her lost children.

This is a person who believes that her creations make her more important or better than others, not a good look.

It ocurred to me this morning, as I continue to work with a sense of sadness that seems to arise from the very earth just now, that we are all walking through a field of bereavement.  It’s not that we can understand what we’ve lost, but still it seems to permeate so deeply.  My feeling about this is that we are experiencing a deeply suppressed grief at the loss of many things – our lost inner child, our lost connection with our own bodies and with the magical abundance of the earth, our severed connection with our souls, and a deep cultural disconnection with both the mother and earth matrixes that has profoundly affected our ability to relate to each other in simple joy.

All these things are showing up in the transits just now.   The Spleen Centre, where we find Niobe, Saturn, Venus retrograde and Haumea, is the part of the bodygraph that relates to our ancient reptilian brain.  The reptilian brain is lightning fast.  It doesn’t want to wait to think things over or seek emotional clarity when a sabre tooth tiger is poised to pounce, threatening our very existence.  But the reptilian brain, and hence the Spleen Centre in Human Design, is not operating well in the current climate.  As Joseph Chilton Pearce points out in his excellent book, The Biology of Transcendence, what most threatens our survival now is not tigers and bears, but our culture.  We are threatened with losing our jobs, our homes, our families, with being too fat, too thin, accidentally saying the wrong thing, loneliness, various forms of discrimination and political blindness, and a myriad of other cruel but everyday tragedies.

And it’s here, in this cultural milleu, that our Spleen Centre is busily doing what it was originally designed to do, projecting it’s ancient fears into a modern context, and preventing us from clearly seeing the truth.  Our minds also connect to our heart/soul (the G Centre), but by the time our heart gets to hear about what’s going on, the lightning fast reflexes of the ancient survival brain have beaten it there and already informed us that we are at grave risk and should respond as if the threat is real.  In the rush to survive we ditch the joyful simplicity of being alive, and aspects of self not directly involved in survival – our hearts, our creative child, our loving relationships – get thrown overboard as too much ballast.

Last week and this coming week are creating a huge upheaval in our ancient brain.  It is getting an upgrade, a brand new 21st century renovation.  It’s being rewired from the old way of being human – short, brutish and inevitably ending in death after a lifetime of paying taxes – and released into a glorious new reality.  In this new reality it has a whole different job description.  It lets us know in each moment what choice will infuse our cells with the most deliciously wonderful experience of life. The rasberry or the chocolate?  The bright warm sun or the dappled shade?  The snuggle or the time alone?

And Altjira?  He is a Trans Neptunian Object, doing a long term transit in Gate 20.  This Throat Centre gate has been the main access for Pluto and Haumea to express themselves in the past 2 to 3 years (Pluto when he was in Gate 10, and Haumea in Gate 57).  They have been weaving the Spleen Centre (survival) with the G Centre (soul/heart) and the Throat Centre (expression).

Altjira was a creator deity of the Australian Aboriginal people. He created the earth, created a few lesser deities to run the show, and then he left.  No doubt to create another world somewhere else.  He didn’t hang around to make sure everyone played the way he thought they should.  He just left.  There’s echoes of the absent working father in Altjira, another source of bereavement we are currently experiencing.  But I’ve observed a deeper message in Altjira.  He isn’t attached to his creations.  He creates from joy and then moves on.

As the Zen saying goes, if you have one eye on the goal you only have one eye on your path.  Altjira is in Gate 20, an energy of being present in the moment and loving what we do.  This gate contains the essence of being fully present and integrated, and those who truly live it have a powerful effect on everyone who comes into contact with them.

Our culture tells us to keep both eyes on our goal, so long as that goal is culturally sanctioned, and to give our path only fleeting glimpses.  But the goal is a glamour, an illusion.  What’s real is the process, the pathway.  What’s real is the experience of the journey.  And this is where our Spleen Centre is paramount.  It knows how to live the journey, step by step.  It knows that the journey is filled with health, abundance and wonderful soulful connections with others, all felt at the cellular level.

Tomorrow we have a rare event – the Spleen Centre connecting directly to the Throat Centre via the Gate of The Well (48).  This is the gate of prana at the cellular level – an unlimited source of pure life force energy that brings a deep wisdom and connection to life.  The transit is made up of Saturn (48) and the Earth (16) and will be in place for 5 days.

It’s about breaking through the old illusion of being worthwhile through our cultural achievements, and being here now in all our glory.  It will shake us loose from goals that are culturally conditioned rather than soulful.

the next 5 days are about choosing to know that we are spiritual beings on an earthly journey that is housed in incredible magic vehicles that we call our physical bodies.   It’s about our physical bodies coming back into the picture and a new culture (Venus in Gate 50) arising from a place that includes all aspects of self and not just those that are culturally sanctioned.

Joy Riders by Rassouli

Returning to the Cycle of Life


19th October 2010

I had to pull my head in about two weeks ago because I had stumbled unwittingly into what I could probably best describe as an anti-synchronicity zone. Every time I tried to achieve anything, something broke. My car, my internet router, my phone line … it went on and on till I was for all practical purposes disabled from operating my business.  At one point I couldn’t even get my blog posts to load.

Actually, I say ‘unwittingly’, just because …. well, it’s a great word isnt’ it?  But I can’t say I was clueless.  I was watching the apparently destructive force build and build. The unwitting part was me trying to sneak past it. Shhhh don’t make a sound and it may not hear me! Or if I push hard enough perhaps I can make things go my way. Huh!

So I cancelled everything I had coming up and I’ve been having a delightful time. I’ve been writing an article on Quantum Business and thinking a lot about things generally.

And with Saturn transiting in my undefined Spleen Centre I’ve been having some very profound conversations with my body. I just let everything be and only did what felt good physically and watched the outcome. And felt the pressure fall away, pressure I’d become so used to I was taking it for granted as an unavoidable part of my life, no longer conscious that it was a choice I was making.

Tomorrow Ceres will be conjunct Pluto (10.6). There’s a key transformative theme here that resonates through our personal lives, our businesses and our families.  We can’t make something be the way we want it to be by holding on tightly to it. It’s the classic situation of “if you love something, let it go“. This relates to the structure of our own lives, our bodies, our relationships, our creativity, our children.

Joy Riders by Rassouli

Joy Riders by Rassouli

Altjira is in the mix as well (20.5) He is a creator god of the Australian Aboriginal central desert people, the Aranda. In the dreaming, Altjira created the world, plus a few new creator gods and goddesses. And then he left them to it. He didn’t stay around to make sure it was all working okay, that the newly created divinities were keeping everything clean, that all the animals were getting on well and sharing nicely. He just nicked off, probably to create another world in a far distant corner of the galaxy.

In a world where children are often put in front of a computer screen or ferried to endless lessons rather than encouraged to run wild, I wonder what anxiety our own inner creations are experiencing.  Under constant supervision lest they step over the line of various forms of correctness.   When Ceres is involved, we are often dealing with deep grief.  When Pluto is involved we are often dealing with deep evolution.

I think it’s likely that this conjunction represents a return of cyclical processes to our life, a shift out of the straight linear way of seeing things that we have clung to since Newton unravelled the mystery of gravity.   When we shake ourselves out of linear time (where we are on a straight line to aging and death .. tick tock) we are free to wander into a garden of delight.  There is always something old to be released and something new to be discovered.  When we allow ourselves the vision of what’s new (rather than seeing life as simply one more step on the pathway to ultimate destruction) it’s so easy to release what’s old.

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A Replenishing New Moon


6th October 2010

The approaching New Moon is calling us to regain our balance by dropping deeper into ourselves.

New Moon in Gate 48

New Moon October 2010

The Sun and Moon will be in the Spleen Centre, reaching up towards the Throat where it’s searching for an enthusiastic response, without which we can’t experience our value to others.

Underlying this problem is a profound fracture in the way we relate to each other in our culture. After all, the New Moon is in Libra, putting relationships to the forefront.

You can see from the chart that the Root Centre is activated by it’s connection to the Spleen Centre.  The Sun and Moon (48) are joining a busy group of North Node (58), South Node (52), Saturn and Mercury (18) and Venus (44).

Some see the Root Centre as creating a pressure.  I find it more useful to consider it an impulse from our body to engage with life in some way.  At the moment the primary impulse is coming from a felt sense of vitality and prosperity.  Our minds haven’t quite caught up yet, but our bodies can feel it.

We begin the journey at the Root, leaving behind old conditioned pressure to take action that robs us of tranquility and stability.  Sounds pretty straightforward, but conditioning to the Root Centre has us believing our very life is at stake.  If I don’t do this thing, something quite terrible will happen, for sure!  Tuning into our natural impulses is difficult against this type of pressure, but with the support we have now, absolutely possible.

Instead of rushing forward precipitously, or holding back out of fear, we dance and sing in joy at the prosperity life brings us.   Well, we’re still learning that one!  The singing and dancing is joy flowing through our bodies, allowing us to be softly and gently open to what life brings us.  Rigid belief dissolves as our ego patterning shifts into something deeper and more flexible.

Saturn and Mercury are together in Gate 18. Saturn always calls us to more responsibility.  Mercury brings us to become conscious of where our personal growing ground is covered with weeds.  We can blame others, including authority figures, for our problems but ultimately Saturn and Mercury are drawing our conscious attention to where we have averted our gaze from our own lives.  This is not about taking responsibility for others.  In fact, as we are called to look to our own lives it may look as if we are becoming more irresponsible.   You’ll know you’re getting the balance right if you feel a sense of lightening, of relief, as your attention naturally turns to what you need for yourself.

And so we arrive at the Sun and Moon in gate 48.  It’s known to many as the Gate of Depth.  Wilhelm refers to it as The Well.  Master Huang (my current fave I Ching) calls it Replenishing.  This is a hexagram that talks about the communal well at the centre of the village.  It’s maintained by all for the good of all, and because it is a source of constant replenishment to all, it is also a natural social gathering place and marketplace.   Compare that image to your local shopping mall.

There’s something precious being released within us here.  When we slow down enough to connect with our own vital connection with our physical body, we are naturally aligned with a collective unity of purpose, creating a common good that nourishes and replenishes everyone without judgment about their value or worth.

In our culture, value and worth are generally measured economically.  We tend to cut our cloth to fit the warp and weave of this measure of value.  Those who don’t measure up miss out on access to much that our culture has to offer.   As a result we have a culture where people are chronically exhausted, proving their worth in a cycle of earning and spending, earning and spending.

Having the courage to step away from these judgments of self and into something deeper cracks this cultural illusion wide open.  You and I deserve to be valued for our inherent attributes rather than on how much money we earn.  And we deserve the support of our culture regardless of how economically worthy we may seem to be.  We deserve to have the time to stop, smell the roses and replenish ourselves when we need to, rather than be pressured to dance manically towards our collective doom.

There is a lot of activity at the Throat Centre just now, including Pan and Diana in Gate 45, which some know as the Money Gate.  Pan and Diana are wild energies – masculine and feminine respectively.  Pan has been demonised and Diana hunted from existence, but their wildish natures are returning to our psyche.  This gate is willful and possesive, being an expression of the Heart Centre.  It seeks to control and dominate for financial gain, but when it acts from a place of true leadership it is a powerful force in aggregating resources for the good of the community.   We find our own inner leader, the one within who holds unlimited resources, when we apply our will to removing obstructions rather than creating them.

We can view it another way.  When we take responsibility for the resources we are being blessed with in each moment, rather than ignoring them in our rush to get elsewhere, we naturally connect with our own wild growing ground that creates a perfect pattern of life for us.

This shift to the wild is a major global watershed, affecting our inner being, and our economy and government.  It is creating a strange sense of confusion as each one of us begins to dance to a deeper beat without realising how or why.

Flower Field by Patrick Campagnone ~ www.Flickr.com

Finding Our Way to Prosperity and Love


1st September 2010

This is a time when we can be seduced back into the world we have worked so hard to change. This week is a potent mix of disconnecting from what manipulates our energy for it’s own purposes, and instead joining a collective dance that is  joyful, free and creatively inspired.

There is an unmasking of what Philip Shepherd refers to as the tyranny of the independent “known self”. Independent in that it is apparently “self-made” and not connected to anything else. The isolation of the independent known self is an ego based construct that is such a part of our culture, as we lock ourselves in our homes and sit safely ensconsed in the bubble of our cars, that we mistake it for ‘reality’. This despite scientific proof that we are each one of us nothing more and nothing less that a constant flow of energy. And this despite our own experiences of how our relationships are the core of our existence.

We hold on so tightly to our possessions, or at least what we perceive as what is ours. We pay insurance against theft and put bars on our windows.  Altjira has been subtley informing us that this is not a healthy way to be.  A creator god of the desert Aranta people in Australia, Altjira created the earth and everything on it, and then left it to it’s inhabitants to enjoy as they chose.  He is sending us a strong message right now, connecting as he is to Haumea and Pluto, that individual ownership of anything is a dangerous nonsense.

The internet has changed forever the way we experience ownership of our creative output.  Just ask Hollywood and the music industry.  When we see our creations as something we alone  pulled from the ether with only our own heroic efforts of genius, when we fail to recognise the input of others during and after the creative process, we impoverish humanity and life on earth.  Industry that uses the earth’s resources with impunity, governments that allow them to do so, people who create something and then stultify it by a fear of sharing or by refusing to allow it to grow and change through that sharing prevent a true weaving of abundance.

Speaking of weaving, I’ve been watching the asteroid Niobe moving amongst the key astrological players lately.  Niobe lost all her children through her excessive pride in them.  The story of Niobe is of her endless grief at the loss of her progeny.  We are all experiencing this to some degree as our magical inner child is continually deadened by a society that demands we can only work and never play, that claims to own our creative efforts, and refuses to allow us to interact freely with them.   We need to also look at any fear this has created in us, of having to hold on tightly to what we create rather than trusting the reality that it has a life of it’s own that has little to do with who originally created it.

We are about to storm the ramparts of the commercial world with the message that business is not about making money, but sharing love and creating prosperity for all.

Flower Field by Patrick Campagnone ~ www.Flickr.com

With the North Node about to shift into Gate 10 with Pluto, the concept of ‘father’ is shifting.  The more clearly we see our own collusion with the unhealthy ‘father’ and the more we align with the juicy and joyful energy of the incoming protective provisioning masculine the easier our next 18 months will be.  The shamanic nature god Pan is in the Gate of Enthusiasm, at the Throat Chakra calling forth some potent shifts in the feminine.

Vesta and Lilith are in the Gate of Depth with Zeus.  An interesting combination.  The power of Zeus was perhaps wasted due to  his philandering tendencies.  There was that story about the goose, but we won’t go into that now :).  Vesta represents the inner flame of the hearth, and in this position shows that women are likely to be looking deep within to see where they have been allowing that flame to flicker due to a perceived need to find the power in their male lovers rather than within themselves.  And also for the inner flame flickering weakly within the breast of men who seek comfort in their sexual relationships with women, rather than connect with the gentle nature of their own inner feminine.

This confusion has inexorably led to women (and men)  being bound up in culturally based gender roles, and Lilith’s rage at how this renders us unable to act authentically.

The asteroid Child is conjunct Saturn and the Super Galactic Centre.  The new Saturn is the builder.  He knows how to create on the material plane, what needs to be done to bring our visions to reality in the physical density we live in on this planet.  This conjunction says that our inner child is moving out of a cold and isolated place and into the warmth and light of loving relationships – both personal and business.  Saturn demands self-responsibility and we will be able to hold our heads with true rather than false pride as we increasingly find the pathways our inner magic seeks for it’s expression.

And speaking of relationships, the Sun and Earth are in a channel that helps us understand our role in community.   Mercury retrograde will conjunct the Sun in this channel on the 4th September.  We can feel isolated when we feel the need to push forward ahead of our own power.  In my terms this would indicate trying to do things from the mental plane, when they are still an idea, rather than allow the flow of life to support us to embody and integrate first.  When we flow forward in this way not only do we align with a natural abundance, we also proceed without struggle because we emanate the quality of what we long to share.  It’s freely available to whoever wants it with no effort on our part, and we are forever changed through each interaction of giving and receiving.

I will be interviewing Philip Shepherd, author of New Self, New World sometime next week on Love Your Design radio.  I’m so impressed with this book and how clearly Philip talks about the need to deconstruct our current ‘reality’.

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Wild and Woolly


31st August 2010

I tried to book my son in for a Cranio-Sacral session last night and my friend didn’t have a free space until the end of September. When I asked her ‘why so busy?’ she told me ‘things are pretty wild and woolly out there at the moment!’. So true!

We are at a powerful point of shift. Have no doubt that this is a time of great evolutionary importance. We truly are creating a new world and here’s the thing about new worlds. They are different to the old ones.

I often wonder at the courage of people who left Europe on sailing ships and headed into the land of here be dragons simply out of a spirit of discovery.  Can you imagine having grown up in 17th century England and then, after a long and perilous sea voyage, turning up on the shores of Tahiti!   This is exactly what we are doing.

Dwarf Planet Haumea and Trans Neptunian Object Altjira are connecting with Pluto to bring massive change to the way we experience life.  Our culture truly exists in a place of mind, we think about things, we work out what to ‘do’, we have ideas.  We are taught that our body senses, our body knowing, are at best second rate citizens in the awareness stakes.  At worse they are evil and to be avoided at all costs.

I’ve been talking to people all weekend about timing.  Each one of us has a personal rhythm, and when we tune into that rhythm our world makes sense.  We go at exactly the right pace and have time for everything that we need in exactly the right way.  When we are out of our natural rhythm life becomes chaotic and confusing – a struggle. When life becomes chaotic and confusing and there’s only one place left to go for answers – our head!

Those people with gates 5 and 15 in their design are holding a template for personal rhythm that holds the rest of us in alignment.  But the very idea of living in your own timing is considered crazy.  Isn’t it a selfish and lazy thing to do whatever you want, whenever you want?  I have two teenagers asleep here this morning.  They both should be on the bus to school.  But guess what, they haven’t woken up yet.  How can it be good for them to be artifically woken up and fed and dressed and packed onto a bus when they should really still be asleep, dreaming, regenerating and connecting with other dimensions of experience?  And how does this artificial time construct, so taken for granted, affect their innate wellbeing, let alone their ability to be sovereign in their own lives and express their personal creatively powerful selves?

Can you see how insidious these controls are?  They are so built into our society that we take them for granted and yet they keep us from discovering truths about ourselves.  What could you experience  if you could go at your perfect pace?  How extraordinarily different could your life be?  And how impossible does it feel to live in that way?

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This is a time of connecting with our body wisdom, our physical senses, our natural abundance and connection with the earth and with each other.  It is a time of deconstructing the mental conditioning that holds us apart from ourselves and our loved ones – those we’ve met and those we haven’t yet.  We are reconnecting our bodies with our hearts.

When we are confronting choices we need to change the way we frame our way forward.  It’s no longer about what we are going to DO, but who we are going to BE in response to the challenges we face.  Haumea is challenging us to connect with the seeds of abundant life within us.  We are learning to trust that listening to her voice leads us towards something so new we can’t even image yet how wonderful it is.

I have two spaces left in the Pathways to 2012 webinar, one in each class.  If you’d like to reserve or book a space, email me and let me know ~ Kim – @ – LoveYourDesign.com

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Spitting Out The Poison


21st August 2010

I’m watching the global debate just now on what will save us all. It’s assuming we need to be saved, which is interesting in itself. And I’m watching Mercury in the Gate of Oppression and Exhaustion bringing a black cloud of doom and gloom and ‘I can’t go on another minute like this’ to the mix. This is a gate that has us feeling that no matter what we do, nothing will ever change. And then Mercury is going retrograde so that alerts us to the fact that this way of thinking is exactly what we need to be aware of.

In two days things will begin to cheer up as first Venus and then Mars move into the Gate of Intuitive Clarity. At the moment they are both sitting in the Gate of Depth that triggers our feelings that we are unworthy, that what we have to offer from our authentic self will never be good enough. And that’s if anyone even notices it at all. Doom and gloom.

So what’s really going on here? Firstly, let’s get clear about the idea that the universe (or whatever we want to call it) does not get off on seeing you suffer. Here’s a major opportunity to clear some masochistic tendencies from the human condition, starting with our own thoughts. Over the next two days, anytime you feel limited, unseen, as if you have to struggle on and on with no respite, remember this: there are some deeply conditioned choices being made here and just now we have the chance to become conscious of them.

Here’s what the I Ching says:

We feel restless and indecisive. At first we want to push ahead, and then encounter obstructions that only feel oppressive when we deal with them recklessly. We butt our heads against a wall and then feel ourselves to be oppressed by the wall. We lean on things that have no stability. So then we turn back irresolutely and retire into our house only to find our wife is gone.

The wife represents something dependable, warm, nurturing. And can you feel it? She’s not there. But the whole point of this hexagram is that the wife (or what she represents) was there all along, we just can’t see her.  That’s because for two thousand years we’ve been practising not seeing her. It’s been about the father as creator and as protector and provider. But now the father is worn out, exhausted and has no answers for the questions that plague us.

One of the most common ideas I’ve come across in the past few months on the web is the idea that we must return to some sort of ethics.  It’s a loss of ethics that’s caused this problem, they say. But this won’t save our butts.  Because hidden deep under the idea of any externally formulated ethics is our authentic response to life and that’s what’s calling us out now.  In this situation any recall of morality and ethics will be used like a prison to continue to keep these aspects of self from seeing the light of day.  We have to be nice, good, kind, loving, calm, gentle, serve humanity, etc.  What do we do when the ethics we ascribe to conflict with our authentic selves?

Here’s the thing.  There are parts of ourselves that have been told they are wrong so many times that we believe if they escape our grasp we will die.  We must keep them frozen, deadened, hidden away.  It’s a life or death struggle going on within our psyche.  We may not even be consciously aware of it yet, but we feel the sense of dis-ease it’s causing and that’s our first port of call.

A deep soul woundedness that has been frozen, walking in the valley of death, is waking up, shaking her head and suggesting she might like a bowl of warm soup and a nice walk in the sun thank you.  Trying to apply ethics to such an personal alchemical experience is like being outraged that a coma patient isn’t using her knife and fork properly.  And this aspect of self has sustained damage  akin to a coma patient so we must be good to ourselves while she’s waking up.

I say ‘she’ because the activating point here is the Scattered Disc Object and Dwarf Planet Candidate currently known as Snow White.  She’s creating a channel with the South Node, demanding that if we want to ‘wake up’ and live happily ever after, we have to spit out that sliver of poisoned apple.

The issue here is our confusion about what is actually poison.  Somehow we’ve gotten confused and believe that something authentic in us is poison, rather than understanding that it’s been poisoned.  Something in us has become convinced that spitting out that poison is a bad thing to do, and we should go on being nice, polite, helpful and … well, ethical.

Let me ask you this.  What choices would you be making right now if there was absolutely nothing about you that was wrong?  What if the world was always wonderfully enthusiastic about absolutely everything about you?  What if we all celebrated your every word, every movement, every breathe of life you take?  That is the point of power we stand at today, and not just for our relationship with ourselves but for our relationships with each other.

Celebrate yourself.  You are life.  All of you.

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Bubbling Around by Grietje Haitsma

Imagining the Real World


Today another piece of the puzzle falls into place, as we dissolve toxic fantasies about who we are and what we want.

These channels between the Root and the Solar Plexus Centre are all about moving beyond survival at the emotional level.  Think of John Bowby’s babies, the orphans he observed back in the 1960’s who died for want of a warm loving connection with someone.  There’s no doubt we can pine away and die when we don’t get to experience positive emotions, or feel ourselves to be a constant target for negative emotional enery.

25th July2010

Here’s the thing ~ all that negative stuff – anger, depression, sadness, and the feelings I talked about in yesterday’s blog, shame, humiliation, guilt ~ none of them are real.  They are sitting out there in the ether and we are conditioned to make ourselves small and ineffective by plugging into them.

Instead of trying to work our way through negative emotional experiences we would be better served by giving ourselves permission to grieve and then finding what pure aspects are sitting underneath.

Grief is often seen as something self-indulgent, and wrongly judged as self pity. Not allowing ourselves to grieve for our own hurts keeps us from being able to naturally heal on the emotional levels.

There’s another transit that’s been heating up our emotional life.  Mars in Gate 6, conjunct Makemake and creating a channel with Orcus (dwarf planet candidate in Gate 59).   It has been bringing up our blocks to intimacy, and where we have been sacrificing our Sacral energy (sexually and creatively) in order to experience love connection.

Which brings me to today’s transits.

The Earth is in Gate 41.  This is where we’ll have the Full Moon tomorrow.  Neptune and Chiron are in Gate 30.  They connect the Root Centre to the Solar Plexus Centre ~ where our impulse to engage with life meets the filter of our personal emotional response.

This channel is, I believe, the root of our addictive energy.  Gate 41 is Decrease.  It represents the natural experience of allowing things to draw to a close, to come to completion, to empty and make way for the new.  This is not an experience that our culture is comfortable with.  When was the last time you saw an advertisement that suggested you take all the time you needed before making the decision to purchase?  Our lack of sustainability is directly attributable to our inability to abide decline, decrease, emptiness, as part of our natural process.

Gate 30 is Illumination.  When we allow ourselves the indulgence of decline and emptiness we naturally light up when the new energy comes to us.

The Solar Plexus Centre is such an incredibly important part of our growth and evolution.  Our personal emotions inform us of so many things.  They tell us when our boundaries are being breached, when we meet someone who will be important to us, when something arouses our curiosity and draws us forward on a new adventure.  They fuel our unique creativity and our sustaining emotional connections to others.

Much of the new age movement towards spiritual growth is aimed at the G Centre, while the Solar Plexus Centre remains largely unexplored territory.

This is a channel that impulses us to act on our personal desires.  We imagine what we want, our body experiences an activation, our emotions engage and we’re on our way!  But wait ….   we all know that it doesn’t happen like that.   Not because there’s anything wrong with us, but because we’ve all grown up in a world that doesn’t work that way.  It’s necessarily based on lack and scarcity, because that’s what keeps our economy ticking over.

Here’s what I wrote about this topic last week in my journal.

When we have been shamed for our desires we lose contact with our inner resources and our expectations become ruptured.  We expect one response from life and receive another entirely, which ruptures our connection with reality.  When others try to interfere in our experience of life that also causes a rupture in our experience of reality.  Our sense of reality is constantly under threat, from childhood!

I’ll give you an example.  Little Lisa falls over and takes the skin off her knee.  It really, really hurts.  Mum says (in a misguided attempt to comfort her beloved daughter)  “Oh that’s just a little scratch, it doesn’t hurt!”   Lisa thinks “Well I thought that was pain, but I must be mistaken.  It must be me making things up again!”  The next time Lisa feels pain she feels slightly ashamed to discover that she’s at it again, making things up, and she tries to pretend it doesn’t hurt at all!  Her connection with reality has been ruptured.

Bubbling Around by Grietje Haitsma

This weeks connection between the Earth and Neptune/Chiron is all about how we self-hypnotise ourselves out of our own reality, and into a fake life.  Our own true reality becomes an imaginary world, unbirthed.  While the false reality becomes our daily existence.   A web of self-hypnosis spreads across the planet, broadcast on MTV and sold in brown wrappers disguised as burgers at McDonalds.  And we all dance merrily on!

If you feel depression or anxiety this week, ask yourself what you have become accustomed to believing that just isn’t true for you.    This is a week when the veil is lifted from many lifetimes of fantisizing ourselves out of true existence.    Or perhaps I’m just imagining it … lol!

Goddess by Francis Lane

Pluto T-Squares and Aquarian Full Moons


Over the next few days you will come face to face with some ideas that you suddenly realise are just plain wrong. The Aquarian Full Moon on 26th July brings with it a new groundedness, an ability to see with clearer eyes, taking action from our hearts and a breakthrough in how we connect with each other.

23rd July 2010

23rd July 2010

We start our journey towards the full moon with Mercury moving into a channel with Saturn today.

Cardinal Cross in the G Centre

Remember last month’s Cardinal Cross?  All four points of that monumental cross are in the G Centre.

Those points represent massive change in our sense of identity, purpose and direction.

The Cross is still active, recurring in a few days, on the 26th, but most people are referring to it as a Pluto T-Square, because they use only classical planets.  That’s Uranus and Jupiter opposite Saturn and a square to Pluto.

If we take note of the Uranian Point Hades at 0 degrees Cancer (the point the Sun held in the Cardinal Cross on 26th June, we have another Cardinal Cross happening now.

The G Centre is generally keynoted Identity.  There is a deeper and quite difficult energy sitting in the G Centre.  It holds your feelings about being unconditionally loved.  It’s your love-life geometry.  This is the place where you are unsure about parts of yourself being loved.  It’s also the place where you are unsure what purpose your love is meant to serve in the world.

Emotions in the Solar Plexus Centre

There’s a whole lot going on in the Solar Plexus Centre as well.  It’s about emotions.  Let’s take a moment to consider that emotions and love are being processed by different energy centres within our bodies.  Which indicates that they are not made of the same stuff at our everyday density of experience.  The fact that we use the oxymoron “unconditional love” shows our confusion about that!

This week we are taking huge strides to bring those two energies into alignment with each other – our emotions and the energy of love are colliding.  The resulting purification of our emotional bodies can feel threatening as it breaks down protective barriers we have believed essential to our survival.

Just briefly, Neptune and Chiron have been unravelling your emotional wounds over the past two years –  suffering in order to grow or help others has been a particular favourite.  On the global level it’s involved lifting the veil from the idea that there is anything wrong with us at all.  We are realising we are sane and sensitive.  It’s the system we live in that’s surreal and insane.

In coming to terms with the idea that there’s nothing wrong with us, we’ve come face to face with our shame, our humiliation, our guilt, our anger, our sorrow.  Our collective anxiety about expressing these feelings has been preventing us from being and loving freely.  Quite simply, we believed that if we admitted to experiencing any of those feelings it was clear proof that there was something wrong with us.  They have been the bars on our prison, keeping us from the full blissful expression of our pure innocent selves.

What’s Happening To Your Heart?

With such massive activations on the cardinal points, the system cannot continue on as before.   Our ‘love’ energy is effecting major change in our world.  As within, so without.

The Cross formation in the G Centre (Capricorn in 10, Cancer in 15, Aries in 25, Libra in 46) sets up a four way tension.  If you pull one corner into alignment, the other three pop out again.  So it’s a balancing trick.  We’ll talk more about how to deal with that when we get to Mercury below.

Jupiter is giving us the faith to find our own personal sense of meaning, to let go of ideas that we might have taken as god-given rules about life up till now.  In the Gate of Innocence it allows us to trust that a gentler more ‘foolish’ and childlike approach to life is okay.

Curiosity, expressing open-hearted pure love, having adventures and making mistakes are all okay with Jupiter and Uranus in the Gate of Innocence.

The defences they use are hanging on to always knowing everything, always being right (Jupiter) and theorising at the expense of experimenting, keeping it cool and logical (Uranus).

Saturn sits almost directly on the Super Galactic Centre, impacting hugely on the way we are relating to others.   Saturn can bring stable long term relationships, but it can also bring feelings of loneliness and isolation.   It’s this Saturn influence that a lot of people are finding difficult just now.

Our need to break free, to express who we are (Uranus) and find our place in the sun (G Centre) can only be expressed when we are able to relate to each other without the old stories of separation (Saturn).

When Saturn is stressed he tends to be punishing, cold, isolated and rigid in his beliefs and behaviours.  He is also king pin when it comes to taking responsibility …..   if your shoulders are sore over the next few days, consider what feels heavy and imagine you are putting it down, shake your shoulders and feel how much lighter that is!

It’s not just that great new things are showing up for us, it’s that we have to grow enough to make use of them!   I read a funny story yesterday (I don’t remember where) about a man who was offered a wonderful and  prestigious position with a service organisation in Africa.  He sent a message back declining the offer, saying “not worthy”.   He received a short response –  “get worthy”.   Saturn wants us to ‘get worthy’ of receiving love and wonderful opportunity.

Pluto is in the Gate of Treading.  I’ll quote directly from the Wilhelm I Ching:

We find ourselves in an altogether inferior position at the start.  However we have the inner strength that guarantees progress.

If we can be content with simplicity, we can make progress without blame.  When we are dissatisfied with modest circumstances, we are restless and ambitious and keen to advance, not for the sake of accomplishing anything worthwhile but merely in order to escape from lowliness and poverty.  Once our purpose is achieved we are likely to revert to arrogance and luxury loving.

Pluto tends to use power plays and intrigue to defend himself.

Pluto isn’t alone.  He’s connected to the Spleen Centre via dwarf planet Haumea in the Gate of The Gentle (57) in the Spleen Centre.  For most of the time Pluto was in Gate 10 in 2008-9, Haumea hadn’t yet arrived in Gate 57.  Doing it alone meant Pluto’s influence was largely felt as an external process.  You may remember his effect on the global economy?

Goddess by Francis Lane

This time around it feels really different.  Partly because Pluto is retrograde and that means a more internal process.  But Haumea is a powerful influence, bringing a soulful confidence in our own intuitive knowing that cuts through all kinds of glamour and obsfucation straight to the truth.  She is speaking to us through our bodies, our cells, telling a story of sensual embodiment in a global and cosmic reality.

I can’t overestimate the evolutionary significance of this Pluto – Haumea hook up.  One aspect is around money and our sense of receiving abundance.

Pluto sits on the Capricorn point telling us we get it from glamour, status, external success.  It’s the masculine-as-creator syndrome.  Haumea tells us we hold it within us, that’s it’s unlimited and flows effortlessly when we allow ourselves to drop deeply and sensuously into our bodies and their enjoyment of life on earth.  This is the return of the mother-as-creator energy.

This shift in what we seek pushes us into a realm of trusting our inner creation rather than checking the positions vacant.

In the fourth point of the T-square at 0 degrees Cancer, opposite Pluto and creating a Grand Cross, is Hades.  Hades may be a trigger for us to look beneath the surface, to bring a metaphysical understanding to our physical reality.  In Gate 15, Hades advises us not to be dazzled by old ideas of fame and fortune.  Very similar to Pluto’s advice in Gate 10.

Taking Action From The Heart

Okay, so that’s the major players in the G Centre.  Let’s get back to Mercury, which is connecting the Sacral to the G Centre.  Mercury transits bring things to consciousness, and in the Gate called The Abyss, he brings our attention to the way we apply our energy to difficult situations.

When the Sacral Centre connects to the G Centre it generates an energy that seeks to act from our hearts.

Water in The Abyss flows downhill.  It doesn’t stop and think “Hmm, maybe I’ll get to the ocean more quickly if I climb up that cliff and hike overland.”   It doesn’t look at the rocks obstructing it’s path and work out intricate plans for removing them, it simply flows around them.  Nor does it sit above the waterfall saying “Waterfall, what waterfall?”

When water finds itself in a still deep pool it simply sits there and waits until it’s time to move on.

This week, this is how we move out of danger, out of the old Saturn ideas that keep us separate and feeling limited in our lives.  Out of Pluto’s power struggles, Uranus’ unending rebellion that saves us from having to truly stand for what we believe in, Jupiter’s idealism that prevents us knowing the truth.

We flow downhill. This is how we find a new sense of self and personal meaning, we flow downhill.

Water flows on downhill, filling up all the places through which it flows; it does not shrink from any dangerous spot or from any plunge, and nothing can make it lose it’s essential nature.  It remains true to itself under all conditions.

Mercury and Saturn together are activating a channel that brings serendipity into our lives.  It’s the ‘overnight success after decades of hard work behind the scenes’ channel.  When we flow naturally through the abyss, we experience no danger and obstacles to our progress dissolve away.  As the I Ching would say ‘supreme success’.

The Golden Bough by Jeroen van Valkenburg courtesy of Wikimedia

Tending Your Inner Flame

20th July 2010


Mars has moved into the emotional zone and hit us in our intimate relationships.  Especially for those with activations in the adjoining Gate 59, this is a powerful influence.  Gate 6 in the Human Design chart holds many emotions and seeks to bring together our emotional and sexual/creative natures.  Not an insignificant process!

Mars transits affect our emotional boundaries.  And Gate 6 represents … our emotional boundaries.  Shazam!  This is the place where we allow our ego to dissolve and open up to greater intimacy or we get angry and defensive and shut down.

Also in Gate 6 is the dwarf planet Makemake.  One of the most significant aspects of Makemake in this gate is our memory of some ideal time, when we received warmth and emotional intimacy in abundance.  It’s possibly found in recollections of our childhood or an early relationship.  And then it was taken away from us and we have been mourning for it, searching for it ever since.

Both Orcus and Apollo are in Gate 59 at the moment.  Apollo can show how we lost our natural voice within our family dynamic and, in Gate 59, how we may have projected that into our relationship dynamic.  Orcus is also a potentially threatened aspect of self, stuck in the underworld and unable to return through lack of recognition that this part of ourselves even exists.

Neptune and Chiron are also in the Solar Plexus Centre affecting our emotions.  Neptune has been on a 2 year mission to clear delusion from our lives, to help us to see clearly what it is that really makes us happy.  To move us past trying to manifest the red ferrari or billionaire husband and into something more authentic.  This week Mars brings Neptune’s focus to our relationships.

Ceres and Saturn play important roles here as well.  Ceres is in Gate 11 (activated this week by the Earth in Gate 56), approaching the Galactic Centre.  It’s as if our grief and sense of isolation and loneliness (Ceres) is being sucked out of our hearts (Galactic Centre), to be replaced by .. well we know not what as yet, we can only imagine the connections we can make with each other when this process is complete.  Saturn is approaching the Super Galactic Centre and about to receive an activation from Mercury next week.  It speaks along the same lines – the release of old worn out ideas of relationship that are not warm and intimate and inviting but cold, austere and functional.  Economic rather than earthy.

The Golden Bough by Jeroen van Valkenburg courtesy of Wikimedia

Mars is being followed closely by Vesta, currently in the Gate of Exhaustion (47).  Vesta asks us to tend our own inner flame, to release any ideas that say we must neglect it for the sake of others.

Venus is just completing her stay in the Heart Centre in the Gate of Deliverance, again with a theme of exhaustion – when we feel we have tried too hard over too long a time to win love and acceptance we simply lose the will to go on.  We have to rest and recuperate before things will return to something approaching normal.

The fire of Mars is a gift, giving us the courage to pull back inside our own skin, to look into our own heart and see the walls we have built that prevent us from having a loving intimate realationship with ourselves.  Using Mars for reckless movement or energetic defence will cause us to miss a profound opportunity for love and connection this week.

It’s almost as if we have completed a stage of our evolutionary journey in relationship and now we get to rest, recuperate and tend our own inner flame.  We should only be drawn into the world if the impulse feels fully alive (Eros in 64) and not another go at trying to ‘make it happen’ (Sisyphus in 64).

We’re 6 days out from another go at the Pluto T-Square.  Nothing is as it seems!  Allow life to inform you rather than you trying to shape life.   What matters most is not the form something takes, but your sincerity.

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The Luminous Transformation of The Diabolical Self


Here’s something that’s always fascinated me.  People’s fear of having no rules.  I am always being given reasons, really good reasons, as to why we need rules.  It’s the only way we can keep the evil in check.  Not you and me, mind you, but those bad people out there.  My beautiful Facebook friend Jeanie raised the issue for me again last week.

And hey, we only have to look around to see that there are people out there doing bad things.  Last night on the news a woman was shot on the front steps of her home by some unknown assailant.  The police are asking for witnesses.  Monsanto is high on my list of nerry-doers.  And I think BP checks a lot of boxes for people just now.

If you read this blog regularly you’ll know I like to look deeper, delve beneath the surface.  Especially when the Earth is sitting on my Moon in the Gate of Bringing the Invisible to Visibility, as it is today.

And what I see here is a fear of our own evil selves, the one’s that we fear will get out of control and wreak havoc in our own lives and in the lives of those we love.  Our diabolical self.

We can usually find our diabolical self if we get out the rule book from our childhood and read it.  Hidden between the thou shalt not’s and the don’t you ever’s and the you know I love you when you’s we can find it lurking.  But our diabolical self is not easy to discover, because it has survived so long by going deep underground, by hiding in shadows and slipping away when we turn our gaze in it’s direction.   It’s principle source of nourishment is our shame.  The shame that says that this completely natural and innocent aspect of ourselves is not okay, not loveable, not worthy of inclusion in our day to day life.

I found my diabolical self this morning by asking myself these questions:  Why am I not loveable?  Why am I a failure?  Why am I not allowed to do what I want?  Why am I not allowed to nurture myself?  My diabolical self came straight up to the surface, lured by the bait of shame, and answered me very clearly.  I am dangerous, I am destructive, I am hateful, vengeful and out of control.

So there you have it!  What is reflected back to me about the truth of who I am.  Out in the light for all to see!  Luminously transformed by the light of day.

Doesn’t the world ‘diabolical’ roll beautifully off the tongue.  I am diabolical.  I checked it’s meaning and it perhaps means to pass beyond.  The word devil could perhaps have originally meant a fierce and wild warrior.  It’s not really clear, but certainly there has been a ‘fundamental’ shift in the meanings of many words, creating an oversimplification of life that reduces our options for how we live it. (http://nineangles.wordpress.com/diabolic-etymology/)

I’m writing about this now because today we are having a major shift and I’m not even going to look for it in the transits because I can’t be bothered going into the mental energy.  That’s just how BAAAD I am!   This is the first day in many years that I’ve been asked to step out of my day to day life and just hold the energy.  Just sit, breathe and feel.

Here’s the crux.  The rules of patriarchy are breaking down and your inner authentic self is escaping.  What happens when a whole lot of planets pass over the Aries point?  We shift out of the prison (Pisces) of the old and into new terrain (Aries).  What happens when a whole lot of largely ignored dwarf planets hook up with super massive black holes?  We get something so new we don’t even recognise it yet.  And in this new energy, the old evils are so apparent there is no sleight of hand possible, no invisible power plays, no theft, rape or environmental calamity that isn’t clearly visible for what it truly is.

Some part of you that has felt itself imprisoned is coming out into the world.  Not the old world, it’s very release represents a new way of being.  It doesn’t need rehabilitation, that would take it back into the old judgments where it would remain ‘diabolical’ rather than a wild and courageous warrior of spirit.  It simply needs to hear these words “You are welcome here.”


Sharing Your Glow


There’s some difficult and potentially intrusive energies around at the moment.  They are at the Root and Crown, and this can create a pressure to conform to someone else’s idea of what your life would best look like.   It may be direct and in your face, but more likely it’s hidden under layers of conditioning and what gestalt therapists call “creative adjustment”.

The energies we have available to us at the moment are extraordinary, if only we can see through the cloak of oppression that has been thrown over them.

Mars is in the Crown Chakra and Venus is in the Ajna.  But they’re not alone!

Mars is joined by the Goddess Asteroid Vesta, bringing some interesting themes.  Vesta represents the fire of the mother.   The Vestal Virgins were originally an ancient order of priestesses who ruled by virtue of magic and a connection with the sacred, especially the Great Mother.

With Mars we clear anger and violence against the sexual nature of women, and experience a cleansing of the inner flame of heart, creativity and our desire to share it’s glow with others.

There is a very subtle energy coming through of violence against the sacred nature of the feminine, and a strength and courage to reclaim the inner hearth. On the negative side of Mars we might be angrily holding onto old ideas, hugging ancient injuries to our chest.

Downgraded from sacred sexual priestess to domestic goddess, Vesta was the reason women were unable to leave the house.  Mother had always to be at home …. to keep the hearth fire burning.  But for whom?

This transit allows us to reset personal boundaries around our own creative and sexual energies as they flow in through the Crown Chakra.

3rd July 2010

Let’s look at the chart.  You can see that Mars is in the Crown Chakra, on the left hand side.  This gate inspires us to think about things differently, to let go of ideas that create exhaustion and/or oppression.   Mars gives us the courage and passion to do that this week ~ a passionate and fiery devotion to our own inner flame.

Logos is in the adjoining gate 47 ~ Exhaustion and Oppression.  Logos represents the natural order of the universe, but has been misrepresented as the masculine rational way of approaching life via Carl Jung’s anima.

But of course, the natural order isn’t accessible if we look from only one end of the spectrum, we lose a sense of the connection between things.

When things go wrong in our lives, we are usually encouraged to push forward even harder and faster.  When was the last time you were encouraged to take some time out, go deep and dream, as a way of dealing with difficulties?  And then we wonder why the world is such a mess!

Mars tells us: “this is the time to lay the foundations of power and mastery for the future.”

What’s Venus up to?  She’s in Gate 4, Youthful Folly, in the Ajna Centre (mind).  It feels to me that the re-emerging Feminine energy is still quite young and unformed, and that we are still quite inexperienced in applying it to our lives.  We have had an immense opportunity to go deep within ourselves and draw out hope for a new way, but we are not able yet to see the big picture.  This makes sense when we take into account the TNO Borassisi in Gate 63, directly above Venus in the Crown.  Borassisi likes to make his own rules, but they can be narrow, personally biased, and lacking wisdom.

“In times following a great transition, everything is pressing forward, striving in the direction of development and progress.  But this pressing forward at the beginning is not good;  it overshoots the mark….  don’t allow yourself to be infected by the general intoxication.”

And speaking of development and progress, let’s head on down to the Root Centre, which is the place we go when we want to know something about manifesting on the physical plane.  And there we find Mercury hanging out with Aphrodite (53), and forming a channel with Eris and Amor (42).

This is the pressure or impulse (Root) to communicate (Mercury) what we have learnt to value in ourselves (Aphrodite) through having overcome adversity (Eris).

We seek to share the strength we have discovered within us in a loving, kind and gentle way (Amor).  We hide the places where we feel we are to blame for the disorder we are still teasing out of the mix (Eris).  There is an aspect of rejection, of being outcast here (Eris), and feeling that we need to use sneaky means (Mercury/Eris) in order to get attention (Eris), and to find and share (Amor) our love and success (Aphrodite).

Gate 53, Gradual Development, clues us into what we’ve already learnt in the Crown and Ajna, that this is a time for slow and steady development.

Because we live in a culture that believes a spark of an idea is all we require from the divine before we leap forward and create the world anew with only our own personal manly efforts.  But there are more subtle creative energies softly falling to earth just now.  Like snowflakes, if you stand very still and lift your face to the heavens you might just catch them.

We are learning how to create by embodying our ideas before we share them, half baked and unformed, with the world.  In this way, our creative energy moves out effortlessly and without resistance.

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Cardinal Cross ~ Take 3

If you’re feeling a bit dizzy or disoriented, exhausted or pumped up and having trouble sleeping, put it down to the black hole activity contained within the Cardinal Cross. We’re just about there – it will be most exact on 26th June.

Black holes? Well as Philip Sedgwick pointed out on the Love Your Design Radio Show this week, Saturn is square the Galactic Centre as are Jupiter and Uranus. The Galactic Centre is fixed in the Ajna Centre in Gate 11.5 of the Human Design chart. The Galactic Centre sends out infrared rays that pressure the mind to release old material, so as to allow room for new ideas to flood in. It works on both the conscious and subconscious levels.

Cardinal Cross 26th June 2010

Follow me down the chart here.  You won’t see most of this on the chart.  In true gate 61 fashion, it’s not visible but is nonetheless very present in our reality!

With Lilith, Logos and Typhon in the Crown Chakra gate 61, we are receiving new and inspired information that opens us up to thinking more rationally (Logos) about the roles assigned to us (Lilith) and to pull back our ancient power of magic (Typhon).

Moving down to Ajna Gate 24 we have a black hole NGC 1068 (in line 2) that suggests we dive deep into our oceanic nature, but remember to surface with the treasure! Sitting right there on NGC 1068 is the asteroid Rhea. Now for those who aren’t that well acquainted with Rhea, she was the Mother of the Olympians, daughter of Gaia (earth) and Uranus (sky).

Before her Greek incarnation she was a mother goddess from Crete, usually shown as driving a great chariot pulled by two lions. Those interested in the tarot may recognise a version of The Chariot symbol here. The Chariot indicates change, but also being pulled in two directions or having to bring together the dark and the light, the conscious and subconscious mind. The lion represents the process of coming into our own power through taking control of the subconscious self.

Gate 24 is about coming back to where we began and finding ourselves in a new place. We have considered something long enough that we have found a new inspired and empowered way to approach it. As “The Turning Point” it is perhaps the most famous hexagram in the I Ching.

Let’s continue on down through the Ajna Centre to Gate 11, where we find the Galactic Centre (line 5) and dwarf planet Ceres (line 4). If the Galactic Centre is pulling out old programming, Ceres tells us that this programming must have something to do with how we nourish ourselves.

Another very important aspect of Ceres is the grief at the loss of the young and innocent.

This aspect of Ceres is important because Orpheus, rescuer of the innocent Eurydike from the underworld, is in Gate 10.3 –  drawing attention to our own wounds by engaging in martyred behaviour. And the particular behaviour we are engaging in as an act of martydom just now seems to be trying to rescue others.

The act of rescue is itself an attempt to show that something innocent and vulnerable within you needs rescue.

We project the innocent out onto another and seek to rescue them because we have no clue how to rescue ourselves.  It keeps us busy, but isn’t particularly effective! Subtle, but keep an eye on that one in your life, it’s potentially a very powerful shift that’s available to us.

Jupiter and Uranus are conjunct on the Aries point in the Gate of the Innocent, so you can see how as we move around the chart, that particular theme of innocence is connecting up in a powerful way.

So, we are still making our way down from the Crown and we got to Gate 11. Next we have Gate 56 at the Throat. This is an interesting gate. In the I Ching it is the Wanderer, and explains to us the best way to behave when we are in strange and unfamiliar lands. People with this gate tend to feel that they landed on the wrong planet and just have to make the best of it.

As I realised while talking to Philip Sedgwick this week, they feel this way because their Gate 56 is channeling the voice of the Galactic Centre in Gate 11, which is directly above it. And the Galactic Centre is sending in a humungous amount of new information all the time. New as in … I’m sorry I don’t quite understand what you’re saying, but come back to me in a few years time and I may have caught up with you.

In Gate 56 we find the asteroids Nemesis and Ophelia. Nemesis says … I can’t get my life together because this one thing keeps going wrong.

Ophelia represents unrequited love, but also where we give our power away to another (usually a man as in Hamlet or her father Polonius) and so lose touch with our own desires.

How are Nemesis and Ophelia channeling the voice of the Galactic Centre in this Cardinal Cross?

Giving our power away creates a feeling that something in our lives keeps going wrong and it makes us feel like an alien, the only one who can’t figure out how to make this life work! Again, subtle stuff and I expect this may take a while to come up to the surface but if you observe carefully you’re likely to spot it.

I had a discussion with a friend yesterday about the pressure I was feeling to get my part of a joint project done. She wasn’t at all worried and I realised I that I was being a martyr (Orpheus in 10) by pushing myself in ways that didn’t feel good (Lilith and Ceres), and giving away my power (Ophelia in 56) to her, thinking that she had it all together at her end (gate 56).

When I got her email response saying ‘everything’s fine with me’, the pressure came off and I realised it was all my projection of an old belief that others set the pace for me. Hence I’m always out of time (Nemesis, the unseen ‘wound’). And unable to nourish myself well (Ceres) or experience my own innocent connection with life (gate 25). See if you can find it in your own life.

So that’s the Galactic Centre. But wait, there’s more black hole activity because Saturn is approaching a conjunct with the Super Galactic Centre, in the G Centre in Gate 46.

Much of what we’ve talked about has to do with how we relate to others.  And this is absolutely crucial to this Cardinal Cross.  The Super Galactic Centre sits at 1 degree Libra and speaks to us of new ways of relating.  We are letting go of the energetic hooks we have spent eons digging into each other.  That’s an old tribal energy.  The family that struggles together, stays together!

Remember, the Full Moon that accompanies this Cardinal Cross is conjunct Pluto in the Gate of Joy in the ROOT CENTRE! This is not so much a heart energy as a ‘be here now in your physical body’ energy.  It is shaking our survival instincts to the core and it does so because it wants us to know – we are safe.  The time for tribal bonding that involves manipulation and power struggles is gone.  Each one of us stands alone, and together we make up the world!

Saturn says we can only build strong and enduring relationships when we treat our body as the temple of the soul.  It’s interesting that this is the take Philip Sedgwick has on the Super Galactic Centre and it ties right in with one interpretation of Gate 46.   Embodiment is the name of the game and when we are clear and grounded and present, we relate in an entirely different way.  There is a tremendous leveraging of the power of the universe in this and from this new stable relationship base we create a new reality.

I’ll leave you with Pluto in the Root Centre, right on the point of the Lunar Eclipse and Full Moon, who says:

Joy must be based on steadfastness.  Truth and strength must dwell in the heart, revealing gentleness in our dealings with others.  In this way we achieve something wonderful together.

(You may have noticed that my site looks a bit dodgy!  It’s still under construction so enjoy what’s here and what’s to come.)


Cardinal Cross – Part 2


I was so very excited this morning to upload my new wordpress theme and begin to add content.  But the slideshow isn’t showing up so it all looks a bit dull for now.  It won’t stay that way!  And the sidebars are still in their original format, but that too will change over the next few days.

As the Cardinal Cross is nearly upon us, I’m pleased to have a blog back.

If your life feels tumultuous just now, here’s the good news. The invisible is becoming visible. This is what we have been working for, hoping for, holding on for. The world is changing because you and I have stayed true to ourselves against all odds. This is way beyond a few tweaks to the economy and some oily housekeeping. We are breaking through to a new dimension. Let me explain.

You’ll remember that we have a Cardinal Cross coming up on 26th June, coinciding with a Lunar Eclipse and Full Moon conjunct Pluto in Capricorn.

While the Sun and Moon will be in the Root Centre on the Full Moon, the G Centre has it’s own powerful story. Like a resonant force thrumming out a new geometry of life, it sits in the centre of our chart, the centre of your chest, and it’s undergoing a major transformation. And whenever the G Centre shifts, so does your sense of self. Mostly you climb a little bit higher up the ladder of multidimensional consciousness and gather a bigger piece of your highest potential into your human reality.

21st December 2012

Today, the Sun and Earth are activating the G Centre, and will continue to do so till the 25th June. There’s a channel that runs from the G Centre down to the Sacral Centre. That’s Belly to Heart. It’s made up of Gates 5 (belly) and 15 (heart). Those gates both have something to do with time and how we experience it. This is also the only channel that is activated in the chart for 21st December 2012.

Physicist Katya Walters says that 3 dimensions of space and only 1 dimension of time create the 4 dimensional world most of us take for granted, and that we need 2 more dimensions of time to balance things out. In space we have a dot (1st dimension). We have a line (2nd dimension). We have a solid shape like maybe a cube (3rd dimension).

In time we have only the one dimension – past, present and future – always headed in incremental steps in one direction. You and I already know that this isn’t a true reflection of reality. We’ve known it since we were children. Maybe we discovered it when we were daydreaming and lost all sense of time. Maybe when we were stuck in a classroom on a sunny day and it felt like hours passed us by when it was only a few minutes.

As adults we know that we can use our imagination to return to our childhood, or to imagine the future. We have also recently discovered that we can change the future by our thoughts, creating our own reality. Those of us who work with healing energy know we can support one person to heal and whole family units shift as a result.

So our one dimension of time would be equivalent to the 2nd dimension of space – the line. Which means we are evolving into a perception of the other two – the dot and the cube. The dot probably represents being present in the moment and the cube represents creating our own reality. That’s how I see it.

This is not idle speculation. This is global shift at the level of material reality. Back to the Human Design transit chart – Gate 15 represents a connection with the larger cycles, with things like Sedna who takes 10,000 years to orbit the Sun. Gate 5 gives us Earth based cycles – the daily rhythm of the sun and moon, the seasonal cycles. When we bring the two together we get a coherent reality that holds the seeds of oneness within it.

This is the core of the 2012 prophecy – the point of singularity, the end of duality.

This cardinal cross is literally shoving us into a greater alignment with the larger scale of reality. Mercury is in Gate 15 with Cyllarus and Hades. When Hades surfaces during a transit, we find our attention drawn to where we have chosen divorce material concerns from deeper spiritual realities. Our value systems are therefore shallow, and don’t reflect truth.

“Here are the places, people, situations where fine and stylish clothing and an MBA degree are less than useless.” (Blake Finchley) During the Cardinal Cross on 26th June, Hades tells us to speak only from a full heart. Anything else is false. And anything else divorces us from our own personal deeper spiritual realities. And also from the powerful influence of the new Dwarf Planets we are encountering – beyond Pluto is a much larger scale of reality indeed and it’s calling us to partake of it’s adventure.

The Centaur is sitting directly conjunct Mercury. This invokes the spirit of John Lennon, who had Cyllarus conjunct his Sun. Here we find the wounded peace warrior, cut down for no good reason. We can only tune in and fully embrace life on the physical plane, rather than drop out, when we are prepared to make the small ongoing changes that we need in order to avoid bad things happening out of nowhere. The idea of flowing through life is a romantic idea, but it takes immense courage.

Mercury and Cyllarus are in this position (15.5):

“Modesty is not to be confused with a weak good nature that let’s things take their own course. When you hold a responsible position, you must at times resort to energetic measures.”

In the adjoining Gate 5 we have the Great Attractor. It’s a supermassive black hole, the biggest, and it’s in a fixed position in line 3. We also have Pholus and Ixion. Now Pholus conjunct the Great Attractor is a big enough event. It means that every tiny little thing you do is magnified, either into more chaos or into order. You choose. Ixion talks about moving away from a nasty tendency to keep repeating the same errors over and over again. Deliberately refusing to choose the good. Each of us has a powerful choice to make here – to let go of old destructive patterns inherent in our genes and handed down for many generations. Destructive of self and others, we have only to release these old patterns slowly and steadily, step by step.

There’s another thing going on, I won’t go into details here, maybe later, about releasing a belief that we have to suffer to transform or to help others. It involves Orpheus who went to rescue his beloved. In the gate of the martyr, Orpheus lives in a place of grief at the imprisonment of his love in the underworld. You see, here is another very powerful story contained within this Cardinal Cross! There’s so many of them, it’s more like an spiritual expo than a full moon. Short note on this: be aware of a tendency to feel good about martyring yourself. Not the right direction just now!