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Breaking The Link Between Work and Money

There is an underlying shift happening in our relationship to money, so subtle it’s barely discernable. This shift is about the relationship between hard work and money.  What do we need to do to succeed financially? Can we manifest simply by holding a frequency?  Or do we need to work hard? This important evolutionary touchpoint is being activated right now by two powerful goddess energies – Pandora and Persephone.

There’s a channel in the Human Design chart that holds the keys to our relationship to money.  It represents the arrangement of our economies, whether they be tribal, feudal, communist, capitalist. Right now, in this channel, we find Pandora and Persephone.  Pandora is in the Money Gate (45) and Persephone in the Resources Gate (21).

Let’s look at those gates a little more closely. The Money Gate – Gate 45 –  is the boss, the Lord, the CEO. He (traditionally) doesn’t necessarily own the resources but holds them and ‘husbands’ them for the greater good. This is the gate of noblesse oblige – where nobility holds wealth in return for acting in the social good.

 

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There seems to be a belief that the modern version of ‘nobility’ (aka great wealth and/or celebrity) acts in the opposite way to noblesse oblige, and brings exemption from social obligations like paying taxes, treating employees well, pursuing humane corporate goals.

In Human Design, the evolutionary arc of this gate is not so hierarchical.  Instead it is about gathering together to co-invest together for a common purpose.  When people naturally bring their time, energy and resources to a jointly held goal it will bear fruit. That fruit will be shared in some equitable way within the community, with the aim of strengthening shared roots.  In working towards this shared goal we are able to understand the everyday mundane tasks of life as having a greater purpose, a true value beyond the effort we expend. We are, in effect, working within a certain fractal of conscious evolution and relationship, that leverages our efforts beyond what we exert as an individual.

The ‘lord’ in this version of the Money Gate doesn’t hold all the money and power.  Instead s/he holds the vision that attracts the right community around it.  Each one of us has our own internal ‘lord’ who recognises our greater purpose and seeks to pull together all our internal resources to fullfill it.

 

Pandora in the Money Gate

 

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The asteroid Pandora moved into the Money Gate on 22 May and will be there till 5 June. She joins Persephone, who will be in the adjoining Gate 21 till 11 June.  During this time, these two chthonic goddesses are shifting our ideas about the relationship between work and money. (Cthonic in this context means personal power and abundance that arises from within the earth, or from our physical level of existence)

The myth of Pandora is generally seen as one of a curious woman opening a box and releasing evil, but somehow trapping hope. Astrologically Pandora is usually seen as a surfeit of curiousity leading to unintended consequences. But this myth has many layers and it’s worthwhile looking more deeply.

Pandora, like Eve, represents the first woman. Also, like Eve, she was curious and took some action that was frowned on by ‘the gods’. We can take the parallels even further, because, just like Eve, Pandora’s actions upset Zeus so greatly that he cursed mankind with ongoing toil to make their way. I’m no Greek or Biblical scholar, but the similarities between Genesis – you have eaten of the tree and cursed is the ground because of you and in toil you shall eat of it all the days of your life – and Pandora in the Hesiod’s works – Now that Pandora has arrived, man is fated to work upon work in order to have sufficient livelihood to survive – are very clear! Here is a trigger for a shift from natural ease and abundance provided by nature, think Garden of Eden, to a different reality entirely where men must toil to survive.

The distinction between the two situations – ease and hard toil – is starkly highlighted in Gate 45.

We can toil in the fields for the feudal lord (or the 1%) and almost our entire natural abundance goes up the chain to the ‘lord’ or the gods, who get very rich. This is the old hierarchical financial system, which despite those who still cling desperately to the idea of the trickle down effect, is creating more and more economic inequality. Or we can shift to a new evolutionary fractal where we maintain our own personal frequency of natural plenty, connect with our natural community, and leverage our efforts towards a higher good.

The interpretation of Pandora that has resonated most strongly for me over the years has been – what’s in the box???   Each one of us has given into shame and guilt, locking up within ourselves that which we believe is a curse on others. When we finally open the box and release what has been trapped there, we realise it was a gift all along.

In your design, your Pandora activation will show something that you perceive to be so bad you can’t show it to the world.  But when you connect with that energy and begin to express it, you can stop giving away your capacity for natural prosperity, and are able to shift from hard toil to ease and community.

 

Persephone 

Venus_Verticordia_DanteGabrielRossettiPersephone represents the journey from innocence to greater wisdom, via our own personal underworld. On the journey we suffer a separation from what has previously held us safe. Again, we see parallels with Eve.  Eve ate her apple, Persephone her pomegranate.  They are the women of the forbidden fruit, the eating of which changed everything for them.

I’ve always thought Persephone was quite keen to get away from her over-protective mother (Ceres / Demeter) and off into her own adult life. And she clearly relished her new role as Queen of the Underworld.

The channel that Pandora and Persephone are activating this week is a willful one, the only pure ego manifestor channel in the Human Design chart. While Pandora acted on her will in opening the box, Persephone started out as more of an unwilling (unconscious) player. But she did learn to hold to her own desires, to create a compromise (half my time with mum and half with Pluto, being Queen) and in the process to grow up and claim her place as an adult woman.

For me, this growing into independent adulthood is key to understanding how Persephone works in your Human Design chart.

This week’s transits have Persephone activating the gate of taking in all the circumstances, and applying our will to bring order to our own world – Gate 21. We can’t be allowing ourselves to be la-de-daing about pretending mother will take care of it all.  We can’t be blaming the men. We need to grow up, look around and take stock of our world. We may need to change our plans, to use our resources differently, to come together with a fresh new agenda.

What we can’t do is stay frozen in a kind of child-like innocence while our world dies around us. What we can’t do is allow the current monetary system to fool us that we only have the corporate world, the patriarchial economic structures, our jobs or usual ways of doing business, to limit us in our options.

 

What’s New and Different About You?

I have watched a number of women this week being flung from, or crawling away from, the wreckage of significant careers. Worn out and demoralised, they may well ask – what now? Where do we go? How can we survive?

At the same time, I have observed a growing swell of conversation about the Law of Attraction, and how we create our own reality – our own happiness and success. Do we need only to hold our frequency in alignment with what we desire? And if so, why isn’t it working? Do we need to take action to make things happen or will they turn up effortlessly for us? What about working hard to succeed?  Isn’t that essential?

Pandora and Persephone are sharing a new truth with us. they are suggesting that we can prosper without the curse of hard toil.  That doesn’t mean what we desire turns up and knocks at our door just because we vibrated it into existence. What it does mean is that our work has a different quality these days. Creating our own reality, a new and different reality, requires we step into a new level of personal responsibility. As the asteroid Child sits in the wealth creation Gate 14, suggesting we can access all kinds of personal gifts if only we will do so, we are being pointed towards a greater maturity. We can’t have our new reality and remain the same old person we always have been. That person lives in the old world.  What gifts do you have to release into the world? Who do you need to be to take responsibility for them?

One aspect of Pandora I haven’t yet mentioned is the tendency to be seduced by something that seems beautiful to us, but is actually evil. There is something seductive holding you back, an old narrative that is rooted in powerlessness and victimhood.  It says ‘But I am only a child, what can I do about this situation?‘ We live on hope but it doesn’t sustain us in our material reality.

What you can do is step into ownership of your gifts, and certainly your child knows what they are.  But it’s your mature adult who must take them into the world.  It’s your grown up self who must navigate the new co-creative relationships coming your way. It’s your big picture person who can see why you are of value and how important it is to have the self discipline to stay true.

 

Imagine your new reality.  

In that world, what is new and different about you?

What is so challenging about that new you that you might be avoiding becoming that person? 

 

Pandora has given us the keys to a new kingdom. We are released from hard toil. How hard we work is no longer the touchstone for how much finaincial freedom we have. And if you believe it ever was, just look at trust babies.

We can find those who share our ideas and build prosperous lives of ease. Work is not toil.  Work is our creative space, where we live gracefully and gratefully. Where we contribute not to the destruction of our planet but to the highest good of all.  Work is not something we have to suffer, to switch off and cut away and split from.  It is who we are, our soul purpose, our reason for being here. Work should be a joy, a dance with spirit and a flow that has both busy and quiet times. Work should be informed by our own inner knowing, our inspiration and instincts, our emotional engagement and our passion. We should be doing work with those who light us up and fill us with joy, not those we tolerate. When we work, our life should be filled with appreciation for the magnificent outcomes we can leverage because we are with the right people who make our life easy.

Look around and see who shares your passion, who you would enjoy investing your time and energy with. What outcomes are most important to you? What feels fun and easy? These are your clues to shucking off your innocence and stepping into your natural flow of abundance.

Pandora and Persephone are calling women to step out of a kind of childhood, a place where we don’t need to take responsibility. They are calling us to a new adventure, where hard toil is a thing of the past. We are creating something – a new way of working –  that is as natural as breathing. What do you need to let go of so you can step into this new space?

 

 

 

 

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Grand Water Trine ~ October 2012

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The Moon is about to pass over Ceres, and in the process it will activate a Grand Water Trine involving Ceres, Neptune,  Mercury and Saturn.

Where we find Mercury, we find an increase in consciousness.  Ideas that have eluded us suddenly become clear as the light of day.  The tricks we’ve been playing on ourselves are revealed as sleight of hand.

Mercury is sharing a gate with Saturn just now.  It’s a gate about changes in our social fabric that bring a higher order of caring for each other.   It’s the Gate of The Ting, Gate 50 in the Spleen Centre.

Luckily for us Pandora has turned up to grace us with her presence in this gate at just the right moment. Pandora is opening that box filled to the brim with her natural abundance, no longer convinced that she will damage the world irreparably if she dares peer beneath the lid.   What we have believed is wrong in us is becoming oh so right!

What’s a culture worth if it isn’t based on the health and wellbeing of it’s people?  What false stories keep us locked into a world of false lack?  What have we been convinced to suppress for the apparent reason of greater good?

Neptune is also known to have a few tricks up his sleeve, notably the ability to seduce us with the apparent nobility of self sacrifice.  As children we learn to hold ourselves in so as not to threaten our family with our omnipotent infantile power.  Or so it seems.  As we grow and mature we are loath to overtake our parents as mature adults.  We’ve learnt our lesson that the threat is real.

This Grand Trine is removing that coding from our DNA, allowing each one of us to step into our spiritual maturity and contribute to a society worthy of our best intentions. Neptune asks you to hold a vision for earthly transformation that includes an understanding of your own visionary capacity.

In partnership with Snow White, Neptune is dismantling our fear of the daughter.  She’s beautiful, she’s potent, she holds the keys to the dimensional portal of growth.  In fact she holds the secrets to our very survival.  (And don’t forget that Salacia, the young woman who is Neptune’s unwilling bride,  is creating a connection between Jupiter and Neptune just now. )  In Gate 55, Neptune lets us know that endings are okay.  In fact, they form an essential aspect of life.  When we get to the end of something it’s not so much a death as a transformation.

Not surprisingly, the mythology of Ceres is also centered on the daughter.  (Daughter Persephone in Gate 46 is square Ceres just now, showing a difficult relationship between mother and daughter.)  Ceres is in the Gate of Humility, Gate 15 in the Ji Centre.  This gate tells us that false humility is inauthentic.  We need to have the courage to release our ‘daughter’s creativity’ into the world, not matter how strong our feeling to hold it close and protect it!

It’s not just the daughter who’s sacrifice is being put to the test of reality in this Grand Water Trine.

Cyllarus is in Gate 39, creating a channel with Neptune.  Cyllarus is the warrior, needlessly sacrificed in battle.  Cyllarus is the lost masculine energy in the chart.  This centaur shows where we hold our active principle back from the world, afraid that it will be put to the purposes of others and lost to no good effect.   If our best masculine energy is put to war, what are we to create with?    How are our effects to create being eaten up by battling false threats and defensiveness against loss?

This Grand Trine is a potent point of shift, bringing together many disparate energies.  Saturn in Scorpio asks us to be open to new interpretations, to allow the unthinkable, the unknowable, the dispossessed and overpowered ideas to surface and become part of our sustenance once more.   Ceres brings grief in the loss of what’s passing and new alchemical gifts to learn.   Neptune is literally lifting a veil from the dimensional doorway that has been cloaked in loss, revealing an abundance undreamed of.

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The Myth of The Singularity

I’ve been reading a bit lately about the Singularity.  When I first heard the term I assumed it referred to the point at which the duality we have all been living in for millenium resolved into oneness.  This is what I believe the whole 2012 thing is about.  If you haven’t seen Terence McKenna’s take on 2012 and the I Ching, I’ve included a video at the end of the post.

But no, it’s nothing so wonderful.  To my surprise and amazement, the Singularity turns out to be the point at which robots and humanity merge.  There are people who are excited about this.  Apparently the idea of becoming TransHuman is appealing.

As someone who grew up with the Six Million Dollar Man, I can see where they’re coming from.  But. We are talking here about superhumans, artificially enhanced by things like robotics, neurotechnology and implants of various kinds.

Of course it’s already happening.  How many of us know someone with a titanium hip or knee?  And how many people would be completely lost without their GPS and smartphone?  And have a look at this:

Prominent futurist Ray Kurzweil told the US Congress of Representatives that smarter-than-human intelligence is likely to arrive within twenty to thirty years, at his testimony at a hearing on the societal implications of nanotechnology.

Kurzweil believes that once nanotechnology matures to a certain degree, it will permit us to scan the human brain at the fine-grained molecular level, uncovering the cognitive regularities responsible for our intelligence. At that point, Kurzweil claims, it will be possible to either enhance human brains cybernetically, or completely transfer (“upload”) human brains onto computers – probably nanocomputers – and run them at accelerated clock rates, resulting quickly in transhuman intelligence.

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I had a bit of an experience of this a week or so ago.  My phone rang and when I answered it a recorded voice said “Kim Gould please call 1800 xxx xxx xx and quote this reference number &#$%$##.”  And then hung up.  I have no idea who that call was from.  It could have been my telephone company, a telemarketer, who knows?  A few days after this experience I had to call the accounts department of a medical company to query a bill.  I rang the number and when it was answered this is what I heard “Hello, reference number please.”

These calls got me thinking about how we are being ‘robotisized’.  I mean, why would a company think I would respond to either of those situations?  It’s because we are gradually being trained to follow robotic like prompts.  If you’re not convinced, have a look at this Visa Card ad.

 

 

So who are the cool and savvy good guys, and who is the awkward guy who’s a loser for not keeping up with technology?  Now look again and see who you’d rather be?  This is the best training video I can imagine for more negative aspects of  the Gate of Grace and Beauty – Gate 22.  This is the superficial world we all become trapped in – the world of gloss and glamour and artificial community – when we don’t take the time to find out what our emotions tell us about what’s right for us on a personal level!

There is a dangerous and largely invisible push to block us from our natural intelligence and birthright.  Reliance on technology weakens us, separates us and interferes with our natural human processes.  It also carries hidden within it a myth that we cannot self-heal, that we cannot connect over distances, that we cannot intuitively choose to be in exactly the right place and the right time, that we have no connection with the earth’s abundance unless rescued from starvation by genetically modified grains, that we must be rescued from our own destructiveness, and that the earth is angry with us and will destroy us given half a chance.

It is a shortsighted view of humanity that is incapable of perceiving the new trajectory of our evolution!

I want to push it one step further.  We can already access the benefits of this new TransHuman.  If we simply relax into love and our own multidimensional consciousness we can evolve into something that most people would consider to be divine!  It is the result of hard won efforts at the soul level, not by getting an implant, a mechanical “upgrade”.

Have you ever watched a science fiction movie and wondered why it’s all about hatred, war and destruction?  I have come to believe that most people have absolutely no idea what is shifting beneath their feet – the very basis of what it is to be human! As we move beyond the limited reality of the third dimension (or whatever you want to call it) and into a much wider consciousness of truth, love and beauty the superficial survival needs of humanity fade away.

We find extraordinary new capabilities coming to the surface – the ability to love unconditionally, to perceive patterns of connectedness that were previously invisible, to consciously connect with the plasticity of our brains, cells and DNA, to communicate without speech, to ride a wave of synchronous universal creativity, and so on.  These emerging capabilities make the idea of becoming TransHuman seem like a nightmare rather than a wonderful vision of the future.

This new apocalyptic vision is sometimes referred to a the Post Human World. It’s true! You can google it!  Futuristic scientist Dr Michio Kaku talks about this Post Human World in this short video.  I’m wondering how many of the benefits of this brave new world you are already experiencing – or beginning to understand how to create –  in your life without the need for any technology at all? Perfect body, perfect health, agelessness, real connections with mythical creatures, time travel, etc, etc, etc.

The Human Design Transits

Today is activating an awareness of this attempt to push humanity into a helpless robotic future.  Atlantis and Nemesis are opposing Ceres and the Moon.  The Earth Mother and La Luna meet technology head on.

Atlantis and Nemesis suggest that we better stay on the surface, trapped in our own survival fears because if we relax for a moment we’ll starve to death.  With no trust in the feminine – either the nourishing mother or the potent creative potential held within the daugther – we are truly adrift in the sea of male creativity.

This attempt to keep us all in the superficial is simply Mars trying to avoid his deeper emotions about the mother/feminine – but to no avail since these will begin to surface in early June as Ceres shifts into Gate 36 on 30th May.  In his attempts to avoid the deep complexity of the mother/son relationship, the masculine turns instead to technology.

If any of you have read the work of Joseph Chiltern Pierce (highly recommended) you will know about his research on the bonding that babies do with technology rather than their mothers in hospital births.  Intriguing stuff given this whole TransHuman story is coming from the baby boomers – the first generation to experience wide scale hospital birth!

Atlantis is in Gate 64 at the moment, meeting Nemesis in 47.  Ceres and the Moon are in Gate 22 (which is the opposite gate to 47).  And the South Node is in Gate 12.   Atlantis is also square Persephone and trine Mercury (in the Gate of Earth – 2).

Atlantis represents the use of power, especially in technology or information, against another.  Nemesis represents the place where we return to again and again until we finally understand our adversary. Mercury and Venus are conjunct in the Mental Gate of Returning – coming back again and again until we finally work out what is really going on.

There’s a strong relationship aspect here, as Atlantis is also exactly conjunct the relationship asteroid and minor planet Juno!

If you’ve been watching my Facebook feed you might have seen how conflicted I am about getting a new smartphone.  It’s because I love technology but I know the dark side that it brings to our lives – South American miners being poisoned and dying for the minerals in our laptops and phones, the electro-magnetic energy that soaks our homes from wifi, the effect on our brains of constantly being ‘connected’.

The daughter and mother are re-uniting on 30th May as Persephone in 35.6 meets up with her mother Ceres in 36.1 – 30th May 15:00 through to 1st June 22:00 UT. I expect this will be a time for completion of the family dynamic that’s been healing between mother and daughter – the princess/daughter energy I’ve been writing about.

Also, note that Mars and Venus are conjunct in the Ajna Centre, so we can trust in the growth of true relationship. The daughter is being freed up from the vapid projections of both parents, and this allows her gentle fertility to bless the earth once more.

Note that Gate 24 is the mental portal for the Crown Gate of Inner Knowing – Gate 61. It’s what we do on the mental level with our inspirational knowing of what is true for us as individuals, a powerful thing indeed! With no belief in that gentle energy of our inner daughter we can never know our own creations. Only in knowing this can we make our own invisible world become visible and manifest.

And right now that means allowing both the masculine and the feminine to play their roles.  When this happens we can truly relax and stop overcompensating!  And move into an era of abundant free and empowering technology, rather than old ideas that robotics will be our future!

The I Ching and Timewave Zero 2012

Here is a video on Terence McKenna’s calculations using the I  Ching.  Skip over the first few minutes to 2.50 where you’ll go straight to the relevant bit.

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Going Sane

There’s lots of talk about the world having gone mad.  I suspect it’s been mad for a long time, and what’s changing is that we’re going sane.

Jupiter has moved to the Gate of New Beginnings (3) this morning, and will stay there till the 15th June.  This is a place where subtle new beginnings become clear amidst the chaos.  Look at what that gives us in the Sacral Centre:

 

19th May 2011 ~ Jupiter in Gate 3

We’ve got Mercury, Mars and Venus in Gate 27 meeting Niobe and Apollon in Gate 50.  The Earth is in Gate 14, adjoining Hera. And the Moon is passing over Quaoar in Gate 26 as I write this, speaking to hidden aspects of our psyche in Gate 44 where Ceto, Poseidon and Decaulion are lurking in wait.  Jupiter is conjunct Minor Planet 1992 QB1, both trine the Galactic Centre and North Node.   And Makemake (square the Galactic Centre and the North Node) in Gate 6 meets TNO Orcus in Gate 59.

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Firstly, Hera represents the need for equality in relationships, so we have this channel connecting the Sacral to the Ji Centre – life force to soul – and we have the Earth in the Gate of Power (14) and Hera in the Gate of Earth (2).  This is a deep upwelling of feminine equality. Hera also raises interesting issues of producing and caring for children, more on that later.   And while Hera can bring up feelings of not being taken seriously, abandonment and lack of commitment in relationships, Ceres is creating an emotional channel with the South Node that is triggering similar issues.

Hekate is conjunct Sedna in Gate 23, splitting our world apart so that we can clearly see the crossroad we have arrived at through denying the pure potential of the energy of the daughter (and remember the Neptune and Chiron are conjunct Snow White in the Gate of Abundance – 55 – just now. Snow White is another spurned daughter!)

Persephone is currently transiting in Gate 35 – Progress – along with the TNO Chaos, which brings us back to the idea of Heaven and Earth bringing forth life, the core idea of Gate 3. Ceres wasn’t at all happy that her innocent young daughter got kidnapped and taken to the underworld and that *gasp* she had such a good time there that she wanted to go back! So one of the notions from all of this is the daughter stepping out of the shadow of the mother’s influence and control and getting a life that includes joining with the masculine to create more life.

The Defence Circuit

I’m not a huge fan of circuits in Human Design, but it’s useful to look at what’s sitting in the Defence Circuitry right now. Let’s start with Gate 50 and the Uranian Apollon and asteroid Niobe, helping us burn through and regenerate the old recycled situations we find ourselves in, especially where they relate  to blind pride, or using our creations (work, house, children) to make us feel better than others (Niobe).  Hera was another one who took pride in her wifely duties and creations, so watch for where we might unwittingly destroy out of excessive pride just now.  Gate 50 represents the beginning of a new era and according to astrologer Eileen Nauman,  “When a new sine wave of vital energy is showered upon our planet, it comes through the lens of Apollon.”

I usually wouldn’t mention Apollon and Niobe, but with Mercury, Mars and Venus in the adjoining Gate, we have to sit up and take some notice!  The core idea in Gate 27 is that when we allow our sacral energy to flow we are naturally nurtured by it.  Remember that Saturn is in the Spleen Centre in Gate 48, and this is the gate that connects us to Chi at the physical level. I suggest that with Apollon involved you take the opportunity to go outside and get some Sun!

Now over to the emotional side of the story, Gates 59 and 6.  Makemake has been in Gate 6 for ages now, since January 2006.  Gate 6 is about emotional and sexual boundaries so it’s a big deal.  It represents the way we create conflict rather than open up to intimacy, it represents the way we react to the externalised threat rather than allow time to discover the inner emotional truth.  Makemake has been helping us find our wild selves, and open up to sharing it with others.  This wild self is completely in alignment with a creative balance of feminine and masculine energies, and with the natural and extraordinary abundance that exists on this planet outside of the ‘civilised’ first world economy.

I’m not clear on the meaning of Orcus, but one interpretation from my astrology group is “Not being afraid of the death of something brings a type of non-attachment to current sacred cows and lets the person see clearly the inconsistencies and hypocrisies in the behaviors of others.”  This makes perfect sense in Gate 59, which demands that we allow our defences to dissolve in order to free up our vitality.  It is also a huge part of the process of us ‘going sane’, as we drop the ego defences (Gate 59) and allow our vitality to flow we also discover what is truly nurturing and nourishing and can begin to “de-addictify” ourselves from the so-called civilized way of living.

The Defence Circuit relates to the survival of the species through reproduction and caring, and if you look at the news this is a big deal just now.  Our cells are programmed to believe that our survival depends on us holding tight to our relationship to the ‘father’ (patriarchy), but our mother is finally coming home to tell us a story of another way of living, and right now many people are not very comfortable with what feels like a threat to their very existence.

In two days time the Sun and Earth will shift to give us this:

 

21st May 2011

With Jupiter in the Sacral Centre in the Gate of New Beginnings, that’s going to be an amazing ride for the 5 days that the Sun is in Gate 20 and Earth is in Gate 34.  Can you tell this post just tumbled out and onto the page?  I hope everyone can follow it, there’s so much happening!

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Karmic Dissolution

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20th December 2010

There is something in each one of us that has always moved to a rhythm of a dance that is unseen by others. This is the orphan within, the part of us that longs to belong, that seeks to be sought and that yearns to be perfectly understood and loved.  For so long we have dealt with each other as if we are possessions – my wife, my son, my friend.  As my possession you need to behave in certain ways in order to get my approval:  as my lover you need to be sexy and entertaining, as my child you must obey, as my husband you must provide.  Add to this our role as cogs in the economic machine of ‘life’ and we can easily see the ways we lose touch with each other while looking as if we are connected.

These next few weeks are unravelling the way in which we possess and are possessed.  In order to move on to the next stage of evolution each of us must be sovereign unto ourselves whilst held in a net of love and light.   Our co-dependent attachments are completing.

Human Design Transit Chart for 28th December 2010

28th December 2010

You might have noticed lately that Saturn is making a channel with the North Node, connecting the Spleen Centre to the G Centre.  They’ve been there since 8th December and will remain together in that channel until 17th March.

This presages change at the physical level, a place where we are not very conscious, and yet it’s a part of our lives that affects us profoundly.  We can be very uncomfortable with our bodies and their limitations and ills.  We can be very unconscious about how our hormones and the electrical circuitry of our minds and emotions drive our lives.

This is also a channel that seeks perfection in it’s creations.  Each of us seeks to create our own experience of perfection, beauty and harmony. Saturn and Haumea in Gate 57 are linking our capacity for relationship with our power to endure and manifest as individuals. It’s as if we have come to the end of what beauty we can create alone, but are terrified of the alternatives.  And that’s because we can remember, even if only at the cellular level, the horror of past wrongs between family, friends and  lovers.

It’s that horror we are clearing from our cells now. And when I talk about cellular clearing I am talking about readjusments to the endocrine system, adrenals and the nervous system in particular.  I’ve got so many strange and unusual symptoms just now that I would probably be pronounced dead if I had a medical checkup!  (Thank you Neptune in my Spleen Centre!!).  In fact I am doing the highly unusual, and getting a checkup next week just to make sure there’s nothing I need to pay attention to.  What we may notice is past life physical symptoms begin to clear, so they may come and then go quite mysteriously.  Go see your doctor if you are concerned.

The Moon pops in momentarily to aid in the process of correcting family patterns, always giving us the impetus to choose our own joyfulness over anyone else’s ideas of how we should live our lives.   As I write this blog la luna is in Gate 18, connecting the Sun conjunct Pluto with Saturn conjunct Haumea and that is perfect!

Saturn is a bit like the circus ringmaster just now, aspecting a few interesting characters –

Ixion, (26.1) who was the first mortal found guilty of kin-slaying when he murdered his father-in-law.  He was also the father of the Centaurs, who represent transformation via woundedness.   Ixion found himself bound to a wheel forevermore by Zeus after attempting to sleep with Zeus’ wife Hera.   Zeus had actually slept with Ixion’s wife Dia, but didn’t see that as having any bearing on Ixion’s punishment!

This reflects something of the Eris story as well, asking us to be clear within ourselves where the blame is being cast by the head of the family, and how fair or otherwise the punishment may be.  I believe that Ixion, having just completed an activation with the South Node (15) has been clearing our collective karma around past life ill treatment of family since 5th November 2010.

Narcissus, (26.1) who was so exceptionally proud that he failed to appreciate those who loved him. As divine punishment he fell in love with his own reflection in a pool, not realizing it was merely an image, and he wasted away to death, not being able to leave the beauty of his own reflection.

Narcissus by Caravaggio ~ Wikimedia Commons

Pholus is also in gate 26.1.  He can represent parts of our nature we are not yet in touch with, something waiting to manifest.  In combination with Heracles (63.5) who was partly responsible for the death of Pholus,  this is the human part of ourselves stumbling around trying to make sense of things, trying to do the best we can, but feeling almost blind, as if our strength and curiosity work against rather than for us.

Pholus is letting us know that if we take small steps to replenish relationships, take pleasure in each moment and stop postponing our own happiness we will make great leaps forward.  Pholus is saying the slower you go, the faster you’ll move forward.

Gate 26.1 speaks of finding our power and nurturing it’s growth by finding hidden dangers and regaining conscious control of our direction.   It’s as if, enamoured of our own ego self, we betrayed those who would have loved and supported us, and so lost our safe base in life.  Over many lifetimes we have been on both sides of the drama, hiding our guilty fear of being found out as the bad guy, but also worrying about being hurt again while wearing our good guy hat.  That drama has been hidden behind veils of guilt, shame and fear, but the veils are being lifted this week.

Adding to the family context is Mercury conjunct Dwarf Planet candidate Quaoar in Gate 26.  The conjunction was exact on Christmas Day and will be again on the New Moon on 4th January 2011.   My reading of this, taking in a whole lot of subtle connections, is that we are getting a chance to become more conscious of how our ego selves may create chaos rather than consciously step up into our own perfection.  Worried we may be left behind or move ahead too quickly, we want to stay put with those we love, not realising that we all want to move on and if we open up truthfully we can do so together.

Unfortunately, our tendency to try to stay put simply prolongs the difficulties for all of us, as it continues to mask the underlying family dynamics that created the problems in the first place.  Remember Pholus is about to join Quaoar in gate 26 and Pholus is an unseen force within us, drawing us forward.

Quaoar is one of the creative energies that operates out past Uranus, Neptune and Pluto.  It is pure manifestation without karmic baggage, and asks only that you allow it to flow through you without hindrance from past fears.  In Gate 26, there is considerable interference from the ego self who wants to run the show.  The adjoining Gate 44 is so chock-a-block I’m not even going to go there except to say we can get caught up in going round and round the wheel like Ixion if we don’t let ourselves off the karmic hook.

And of course there’s more but let’s take it slow and steady :).  Remember to nourish yourself (Persephone in 27 and Ceres in 60), practice dissolving into your powerful immortal goddess self (Sedna in 23 opposite Venus 43) choose to be joyful in the moment no matter how things may appear to be on the surface, and to care for your physical body as it goes through this massive cellular shift to release the past.

Nature's Spiral by Cuba Gallery ~ http://www.cubagallery.co.nz/