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The Galactic Doorway

18th January 2011

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This weeks Full Moon will open a gateway to the voice of the Galactic Centre.  What is that voice saying?  That it’s time to let go of projecting our issues onto others in order to defend our own vulnerable inner selves.  It’s a bit like the football idea of playing the ball not the player.  And for those who don’t play football of any persuasion, that means when you go in for a tackle your aim is to get the ball, not take down the player.  We’ve been taking each other down for millenium in our attempts to get the ball.

We are learning to detach from the negativity without blaming others or engaging in any old abuse dynamics of victim and perpetrator.  We are calling in a new co-creative power.  In doing so we are passing over a watershed that is of monumental significance.

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Shifting to Collective Consciousness

We’ve almost completed the evolutionary shift from tribal (or community) to individual.  That shift has involved things like flower power, finding ourselves, free love and not having to be a shopkeeper just because your parents were.  We’ve moved out of traditional roles like husband and wife, and learnt we could love ourselves even when it seemed no one else did.

Now we are taking the next precarious step of bringing that new found individual self into the collective.  And that’s a bit scary because our group memory is tribal and something deep within us is sending out warning signals.  But that old version of loss of self is no longer possible.  We hold our unique spark at the soul level and no one can take it from us.

It is crucial just now that we dismantle the last vestiges of that tribal survival mind.  We are becoming conscious of any negative thoughts we are having about anyone, and are learning to ‘play the ball’ instead.  We need to untangle the negativity that we’ve wrapped around each other, to see that projecting it back and forward like a manic game of astral ping pong helps no one.

Root Centre

There is so much activity to the Root Centre – Pluto and Ceres, Mars and the Sun, Magdalena and Mercury, Apollo, Kassandra, Pallas and Nessus.  It goes on.  It’s a survival soup, because the Root Centre is where we hold the data we need to stay alive here on planet earth.  Only problem with that is – things are changing so quickly that our data is way out of date and so are the falsely conditioned  instinctive and emotional survival responses we’ve been limited to.

The Sun is in Gate 60 in the Root Centre with Sappho, suggesting we can move through limitations by finding the commonality with others rather than looking for differences.

Also in the Root Centre, Mars and Ceres in 41 are creating a channel with Chiron and Neptune in 30 accentuating the feeling of a lack of landmarks for what we may desire.  It’s as if we look around and can’t even see the building blocks we need to create the life we long for.  But the next few days – until 25th January –  are a time for pruning the deadwood away, rather than building something new.  Neptune tests our ability to stay with the flow rather than grab at the next bright shiny thing that bobs by on the flooded tide with the potential to keep us afloat.  Our vision of what we want needs to shatter and be replaced by the truth of where we are now and the magical involvement each one of us has in this precise moment.  And the next.  And the next.

The Moon and the Galactic Centre

The Moon and Earth are in Gate 56 in the Throat Centre.  It brings the energy of the Galactic Centre (in Gate 11.5 in the Ajna) to the Throat for expression.   This is a difficult gate, bringing a feeling of being a stranger travelling through a strange land.

There are no other minor planets in Gate 56, accentuating the Moon’s loneliness there.  It’s as if our innocent and childlike selves are wandering around trying to make sense of a new landscape.  There are certainly issues here of abandonment and/or the isolation required to stay safe when we can’t make sense of what’s going on around us.  Kassandra’s involvement suggests that we feel cursed in not being seen and believed, as if our innate perceptions are considered suspect by everyone we meet, and so we’re not sure if we can rely on them or not.

There’s one minor planet in Gate 11 with the Galactic Centre – Vesta.  She of holding true to our own sovereignty, of knowing our own sacred truth against all attempts to degrade it. There is something very significant here for me – the process of ‘defrocking’ the Vestal Virgins was one of stripping the sacred from our sexual relationships.  In a sense it rendered our relationships powerless and sterile.  Vesta at the Galactic Centre has the capacity to restore them.  The regeneration of Vesta also represents our ability to maintain our own inner sacred creative flame and a warm nurturing hearth and home.

The Flood

Poseidon arising from the flooded Brisbane River

The New Moon back on 4th January was a trigger for a sticky web of emotional toxicity to be released.  And then came the flood – well at least here in Australia.  Poseidon, Deucalion (the Greek Noah) and Ceto, an aquatic monster symbolizing the fears of the unconscious mind and a tendency to feel sorry for ourselves.  All in Gate 26 (which means they are connecting in with Saturn and Haumea in the Spleen Centre).

They create a channel with Quaoar in Gate 44, who brings the ability to break out of limitation to create something that’s pretty damn close to the purity of our vision, our original template. How?  By celebrating life, singing and dancing and going with the flow and allowing each moment to be new.

The floods here in Australia started when Mercury passed over transiting Quaoar.  The thing most people have commented on is the amazing community spirit they have brought out in people.  That energy was held very strongly by the Queensland Premier Anna Bligh who walked a brilliantly fine line of calm and clarity.   Like Obama, who made a brilliant speech after the shooting in Tucson Arizona, Bligh has her Neptune in Gate 44.   They both displayed the ability to speak to the wounded (Chiron is conjunct Neptune just now) while holding to our highest ideals.

Just as Noah was told the floods would cleanse humanity, so these events have enabled us to look more closely at our inhumane treatment of each other.  Sledging political opponents, passing neighbours on the street without a hallo.   Both events speak to a new energy for collective coming together.

Soul Relationships

There’s every type of ‘abuse’ imaginable sitting in the transits at the moment, most noticeably to me is Transpluto (intense critisism) in Gate 29 in the Sacral Chakra meeting Juno (relationships), Typhon (a multiheaded monster who seems impossible to defeat) and the Super Galactic Centre (triggering a search for our soul mates) in adjoining Gate 46 at the G Centre.

This is significant because Pluto and Saturn are being brought together by Nemesis in Gate 18.  This is a gate that is way out of control on this planet, but basically has as its base the ability to see what is wrong with things.  Combined with Saturn in 57 it brings a piercing sword of truth that hurts like hell.  Nemesis can make us feel like we’ve come up against this pain over and over again and will never be able to move past it.   It’s not the truth that’s the problem, but the way we’ve been wielding the sword.

In our relationships we are perhaps involved in intense projection of our own wounded lack of wholeness caused by:

  • feeling unfairly critisised by others
  • not having a way to explain to those we love what we perceive to be wrong with our lives and what we need to make it better.

And I know this is probably enough, but just let me add one more ingredient to the mix.  The Sun in Gate 60 is meeting the M-32 galaxy in Gate 3.  This galaxy is a satellite to the Andromeda galaxy.  According to Philip Sedgwick the core idea here is the paradox of being whole and alone as a way of coming closer to others.  When we live in our own truth we generate a field that naturally attracts all manner of soul mates to us.   Gate 3 is a gate of new beginnings so subtle that few can feel its energy except as chaos and confusion, but the shift has definitely landed.

My friends and I have often joked over the years as we’ve moved through our ‘shadow’ and ‘inner child’ stuff that we must surely be scraping the bottom of the barrel now!  We’ve given up wondering about that, but there is definitely a sense of that in these transits.  We really are becoming incredibly clear and calm and self sufficient within ourselves even if it does feel like we’re going mad sometimes!   The next few days may feel strange and we may at times feel quite alone, but we’re all alone together and that will become apparent soon.

Trusting our Innocent and True Selves

Our true intuitive responses to life and our deep emotional wisdom are being called forth.  We can trust ourselves.  When we do, remarkable things happen.  Here’s the last word from Hilary Barrett’s I Ching – Jupiter in Gate 25.

When there are obstacles, perhaps when the free flow of communications is blocked, this does not mean it is your job to engage and grapple with the problem.  Making progress is not the same thing as clearing blockages – not when you can simply walk past them, disentangled and move on.

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An Innocent Full Moon

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23rd September 2010

Today’s Full Moon rides into town on the heels of this weeks   Jupiter conjunction with Uranus in the Gate of Innocence.  Throw in a Pluto T-square and we’ve got ourselves a real shake up!

The Full Moon in a line of the Gate of Innocence suggests we be good and true, and not be attached to the outcome of our actions.  We may, in fact, misinterpret the outcomes, seeing bad rather than good, misfortune rather than good fortune.  Our interpretation of the outcomes of our actions is not so important as our intention to find within us the place where we face life with authenticity and sincerity.

This ties in with an idea that’s been hatching for me in the past few weeks, after talking to Philip Shepherd on LoveYourDesign radio last week.  Philip talks in his book about letting go of examining ourselves, letting go of our practiced self consciousness and instead just enjoy living in each moment.  This idea rests firmly upon an assumption that we have already mastered the natural place within us where we come from innocence.  It’s not an idea that we might suggest to, say, a serial killer.

I was at a lecture earlier this week and watched with fascination the discussion about the benefits of positive and negative thinking.  What struck me most was that there a shared assumption that our thoughts are our reality and there seemed no suspicion that lurking beneath those thoughts was the thing that they were thinking about all along .. our authentic experience of living in each moment. If we drop into that authentic place any judgment of positive or negative becomes nonsensical.

Not only is this Full Moon evoking our innocent child in the Gate of Innocence, but the asteroid Child is conjunct the Dwarf Planet Haumea (in 57).  In her Hawaiian home, Haumea is an earth goddess mother, with many children including her daughter, the Goddess of Volcanoes, Pele, who creates new land from her crater-womb.   There are a few important points about Haumea.  She has a strong matrilinear lineage through her mother Sky Goddess Papa, and her grandmother Creator Goddess ULI.   She represents the feminine energy in it’s original power – earthy, fiery, watery and airy.  She is the land and the sky, the masculine within the feminine, and the feminine within the masculine.

This brings the child within us to central focus, the armouring on our heart can now be pulled away since we have the potential to reconnect with a nurturing mother energy on the planet.   This innocent self cannot bear anything that is harsh or unloving and needs to retreat to a safe space for protection. This is the basis of the so called ‘shadow self’.

Aries Full Moon ~ September 2010

The Sun is conjunct the Super Galactic Centre at 0 degrees Libra (gate 46) in the Heart Chakra, creating a powerful need for connection with others.  The message here is that we are newborns in a new world, and the world seems strange even if we can’t quite point to why that is.  Nothing has changed and yet everything feels different.  We feel cautious, alert to any danger.  But truly, the Sun position says there is no need to rush and no need to hesitate.  In fact the Venus/Mars conjunction we’ve had for about a month now has been balancing out our ability to move forward in tune with our intuition so that we’re getting quite good at it now.

Small step by small step we are attuning our body with our hearts and shifting our relationships.  Today’s Full Moon gives us a courage to connect where previously we may have projected old fears onto the relationship.  Neptune and Chiron in the Solar Plexus Centre are doing a profound job of helping us to dissolve emotional wounds that confused us.

It’s important just now to, in a sense, trust no one but yourself.  In a good way.  By which I mean, keep tuning into your heart and your intuition to see what feels right for you.  We’re shifting into a way of relating where we are interdependent so we naturally come together in creative ways.  The old dependencies are no longer necessary.

We may feel like rushing forward, but if we take steps that lead us out of presence in the moment, the asteroid Arachne (in 20) will cause us to be caught up in our own web of complexity.  We are new and learning, so taking a long term view is not possible, we simply don’t have the experience.  We need time to learn our way, become familiar with this territory and develop new skills.  To bring increase into our lives we simply need to keep our heart constant (1992 QB1 in Gate 26.6).

Jupiter has shifted into the Solar Plexus Centre in Gate 36.  Taking it to the Throat for expression are Thereus, Achilles and Chaos.  Now that probably sounds like … arghhh 🙂  But.  Chaos tells us that things are not what they seem.  Progress (gate 35) is happening, and although we may not be able to see it, we just need to allow the underlying order to reveal itself in its own time.   We are definitely not going to make progress at the moment by mooching status from our relationship, our job our possessions ~ that’s Thereus.  It has to come from within us, an authenticity that shines forth from us because we are in love with who we are and what we do.

If you are experiencing pain in your body just now, take note of pressure to do things that you don’t want to do and an overriding suppression of your own energy in order to keep yourself safe.  Breathing deep into the pelvis is good, feel the pelvic bones, the sacrum and pubic bone very gently moving in response to this relaxed deep breath.  Also, in places where you feel movement is blocked practice making small movements for short periods of time.  Just feel how that is, practice connecting with a joy in movement and expand into moving a bit more each day if that feels okay for you.  No need to push anything.  Saturn in the Spleen Centre is allowing us to restructure our physical bodies to release rigidity. This gives us back our relationship with our bodies and allows us to relate much more fully with others.

Are you noticing the confusion on the world’s money markets and the chaos in Europe about how to move forward financially? Pan and Diana are in Gate 45 shifting the concept of ownership. Pan and Diana are both wild energies, protectors of the wilderness within you. That is the place the money is shifting to. It’s going back to the earth from whence it came and you will be well provided for as your wildish self comes to earth to meet it there. Put your feet on the ground, wiggle your toes and know you are home.

PS. You may have noticed fewer blogs recently. Like everyone, I’m experiencing some changes in my life. I’m being invited to do all sorts of really fun things just now, to talk, to write, to teach. My blog is like the heart of my business so I have no plans to stop writing but just while things are still creatively chaotic and still forming a new structure the blogs may be less frequent than usual.

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Pluto T-Squares and Aquarian Full Moons

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Over the next few days you will come face to face with some ideas that you suddenly realise are just plain wrong. The Aquarian Full Moon on 26th July brings with it a new groundedness, an ability to see with clearer eyes, taking action from our hearts and a breakthrough in how we connect with each other.

23rd July 2010

23rd July 2010

We start our journey towards the full moon with Mercury moving into a channel with Saturn today.

Cardinal Cross in the G Centre

Remember last month’s Cardinal Cross?  All four points of that monumental cross are in the G Centre.

Those points represent massive change in our sense of identity, purpose and direction.

The Cross is still active, recurring in a few days, on the 26th, but most people are referring to it as a Pluto T-Square, because they use only classical planets.  That’s Uranus and Jupiter opposite Saturn and a square to Pluto.

If we take note of the Uranian Point Hades at 0 degrees Cancer (the point the Sun held in the Cardinal Cross on 26th June, we have another Cardinal Cross happening now.

The G Centre is generally keynoted Identity.  There is a deeper and quite difficult energy sitting in the G Centre.  It holds your feelings about being unconditionally loved.  It’s your love-life geometry.  This is the place where you are unsure about parts of yourself being loved.  It’s also the place where you are unsure what purpose your love is meant to serve in the world.

Emotions in the Solar Plexus Centre

There’s a whole lot going on in the Solar Plexus Centre as well.  It’s about emotions.  Let’s take a moment to consider that emotions and love are being processed by different energy centres within our bodies.  Which indicates that they are not made of the same stuff at our everyday density of experience.  The fact that we use the oxymoron “unconditional love” shows our confusion about that!

This week we are taking huge strides to bring those two energies into alignment with each other – our emotions and the energy of love are colliding.  The resulting purification of our emotional bodies can feel threatening as it breaks down protective barriers we have believed essential to our survival.

Just briefly, Neptune and Chiron have been unravelling your emotional wounds over the past two years –  suffering in order to grow or help others has been a particular favourite.  On the global level it’s involved lifting the veil from the idea that there is anything wrong with us at all.  We are realising we are sane and sensitive.  It’s the system we live in that’s surreal and insane.

In coming to terms with the idea that there’s nothing wrong with us, we’ve come face to face with our shame, our humiliation, our guilt, our anger, our sorrow.  Our collective anxiety about expressing these feelings has been preventing us from being and loving freely.  Quite simply, we believed that if we admitted to experiencing any of those feelings it was clear proof that there was something wrong with us.  They have been the bars on our prison, keeping us from the full blissful expression of our pure innocent selves.

What’s Happening To Your Heart?

With such massive activations on the cardinal points, the system cannot continue on as before.   Our ‘love’ energy is effecting major change in our world.  As within, so without.

The Cross formation in the G Centre (Capricorn in 10, Cancer in 15, Aries in 25, Libra in 46) sets up a four way tension.  If you pull one corner into alignment, the other three pop out again.  So it’s a balancing trick.  We’ll talk more about how to deal with that when we get to Mercury below.

Jupiter is giving us the faith to find our own personal sense of meaning, to let go of ideas that we might have taken as god-given rules about life up till now.  In the Gate of Innocence it allows us to trust that a gentler more ‘foolish’ and childlike approach to life is okay.

Curiosity, expressing open-hearted pure love, having adventures and making mistakes are all okay with Jupiter and Uranus in the Gate of Innocence.

The defences they use are hanging on to always knowing everything, always being right (Jupiter) and theorising at the expense of experimenting, keeping it cool and logical (Uranus).

Saturn sits almost directly on the Super Galactic Centre, impacting hugely on the way we are relating to others.   Saturn can bring stable long term relationships, but it can also bring feelings of loneliness and isolation.   It’s this Saturn influence that a lot of people are finding difficult just now.

Our need to break free, to express who we are (Uranus) and find our place in the sun (G Centre) can only be expressed when we are able to relate to each other without the old stories of separation (Saturn).

When Saturn is stressed he tends to be punishing, cold, isolated and rigid in his beliefs and behaviours.  He is also king pin when it comes to taking responsibility …..   if your shoulders are sore over the next few days, consider what feels heavy and imagine you are putting it down, shake your shoulders and feel how much lighter that is!

It’s not just that great new things are showing up for us, it’s that we have to grow enough to make use of them!   I read a funny story yesterday (I don’t remember where) about a man who was offered a wonderful and  prestigious position with a service organisation in Africa.  He sent a message back declining the offer, saying “not worthy”.   He received a short response –  “get worthy”.   Saturn wants us to ‘get worthy’ of receiving love and wonderful opportunity.

Pluto is in the Gate of Treading.  I’ll quote directly from the Wilhelm I Ching:

We find ourselves in an altogether inferior position at the start.  However we have the inner strength that guarantees progress.

If we can be content with simplicity, we can make progress without blame.  When we are dissatisfied with modest circumstances, we are restless and ambitious and keen to advance, not for the sake of accomplishing anything worthwhile but merely in order to escape from lowliness and poverty.  Once our purpose is achieved we are likely to revert to arrogance and luxury loving.

Pluto tends to use power plays and intrigue to defend himself.

Pluto isn’t alone.  He’s connected to the Spleen Centre via dwarf planet Haumea in the Gate of The Gentle (57) in the Spleen Centre.  For most of the time Pluto was in Gate 10 in 2008-9, Haumea hadn’t yet arrived in Gate 57.  Doing it alone meant Pluto’s influence was largely felt as an external process.  You may remember his effect on the global economy?

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This time around it feels really different.  Partly because Pluto is retrograde and that means a more internal process.  But Haumea is a powerful influence, bringing a soulful confidence in our own intuitive knowing that cuts through all kinds of glamour and obsfucation straight to the truth.  She is speaking to us through our bodies, our cells, telling a story of sensual embodiment in a global and cosmic reality.

I can’t overestimate the evolutionary significance of this Pluto – Haumea hook up.  One aspect is around money and our sense of receiving abundance.

Pluto sits on the Capricorn point telling us we get it from glamour, status, external success.  It’s the masculine-as-creator syndrome.  Haumea tells us we hold it within us, that’s it’s unlimited and flows effortlessly when we allow ourselves to drop deeply and sensuously into our bodies and their enjoyment of life on earth.  This is the return of the mother-as-creator energy.

This shift in what we seek pushes us into a realm of trusting our inner creation rather than checking the positions vacant.

In the fourth point of the T-square at 0 degrees Cancer, opposite Pluto and creating a Grand Cross, is Hades.  Hades may be a trigger for us to look beneath the surface, to bring a metaphysical understanding to our physical reality.  In Gate 15, Hades advises us not to be dazzled by old ideas of fame and fortune.  Very similar to Pluto’s advice in Gate 10.

Taking Action From The Heart

Okay, so that’s the major players in the G Centre.  Let’s get back to Mercury, which is connecting the Sacral to the G Centre.  Mercury transits bring things to consciousness, and in the Gate called The Abyss, he brings our attention to the way we apply our energy to difficult situations.

When the Sacral Centre connects to the G Centre it generates an energy that seeks to act from our hearts.

Water in The Abyss flows downhill.  It doesn’t stop and think “Hmm, maybe I’ll get to the ocean more quickly if I climb up that cliff and hike overland.”   It doesn’t look at the rocks obstructing it’s path and work out intricate plans for removing them, it simply flows around them.  Nor does it sit above the waterfall saying “Waterfall, what waterfall?”

When water finds itself in a still deep pool it simply sits there and waits until it’s time to move on.

This week, this is how we move out of danger, out of the old Saturn ideas that keep us separate and feeling limited in our lives.  Out of Pluto’s power struggles, Uranus’ unending rebellion that saves us from having to truly stand for what we believe in, Jupiter’s idealism that prevents us knowing the truth.

We flow downhill. This is how we find a new sense of self and personal meaning, we flow downhill.

Water flows on downhill, filling up all the places through which it flows; it does not shrink from any dangerous spot or from any plunge, and nothing can make it lose it’s essential nature.  It remains true to itself under all conditions.

Mercury and Saturn together are activating a channel that brings serendipity into our lives.  It’s the ‘overnight success after decades of hard work behind the scenes’ channel.  When we flow naturally through the abyss, we experience no danger and obstacles to our progress dissolve away.  As the I Ching would say ‘supreme success’.

The Golden Bough by Jeroen van Valkenburg courtesy of Wikimedia

Tending Your Inner Flame

20th July 2010

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Mars has moved into the emotional zone and hit us in our intimate relationships.  Especially for those with activations in the adjoining Gate 59, this is a powerful influence.  Gate 6 in the Human Design chart holds many emotions and seeks to bring together our emotional and sexual/creative natures.  Not an insignificant process!

Mars transits affect our emotional boundaries.  And Gate 6 represents … our emotional boundaries.  Shazam!  This is the place where we allow our ego to dissolve and open up to greater intimacy or we get angry and defensive and shut down.

Also in Gate 6 is the dwarf planet Makemake.  One of the most significant aspects of Makemake in this gate is our memory of some ideal time, when we received warmth and emotional intimacy in abundance.  It’s possibly found in recollections of our childhood or an early relationship.  And then it was taken away from us and we have been mourning for it, searching for it ever since.

Both Orcus and Apollo are in Gate 59 at the moment.  Apollo can show how we lost our natural voice within our family dynamic and, in Gate 59, how we may have projected that into our relationship dynamic.  Orcus is also a potentially threatened aspect of self, stuck in the underworld and unable to return through lack of recognition that this part of ourselves even exists.

Neptune and Chiron are also in the Solar Plexus Centre affecting our emotions.  Neptune has been on a 2 year mission to clear delusion from our lives, to help us to see clearly what it is that really makes us happy.  To move us past trying to manifest the red ferrari or billionaire husband and into something more authentic.  This week Mars brings Neptune’s focus to our relationships.

Ceres and Saturn play important roles here as well.  Ceres is in Gate 11 (activated this week by the Earth in Gate 56), approaching the Galactic Centre.  It’s as if our grief and sense of isolation and loneliness (Ceres) is being sucked out of our hearts (Galactic Centre), to be replaced by .. well we know not what as yet, we can only imagine the connections we can make with each other when this process is complete.  Saturn is approaching the Super Galactic Centre and about to receive an activation from Mercury next week.  It speaks along the same lines – the release of old worn out ideas of relationship that are not warm and intimate and inviting but cold, austere and functional.  Economic rather than earthy.

The Golden Bough by Jeroen van Valkenburg courtesy of Wikimedia

Mars is being followed closely by Vesta, currently in the Gate of Exhaustion (47).  Vesta asks us to tend our own inner flame, to release any ideas that say we must neglect it for the sake of others.

Venus is just completing her stay in the Heart Centre in the Gate of Deliverance, again with a theme of exhaustion – when we feel we have tried too hard over too long a time to win love and acceptance we simply lose the will to go on.  We have to rest and recuperate before things will return to something approaching normal.

The fire of Mars is a gift, giving us the courage to pull back inside our own skin, to look into our own heart and see the walls we have built that prevent us from having a loving intimate realationship with ourselves.  Using Mars for reckless movement or energetic defence will cause us to miss a profound opportunity for love and connection this week.

It’s almost as if we have completed a stage of our evolutionary journey in relationship and now we get to rest, recuperate and tend our own inner flame.  We should only be drawn into the world if the impulse feels fully alive (Eros in 64) and not another go at trying to ‘make it happen’ (Sisyphus in 64).

We’re 6 days out from another go at the Pluto T-Square.  Nothing is as it seems!  Allow life to inform you rather than you trying to shape life.   What matters most is not the form something takes, but your sincerity.

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The Luminous Transformation of The Diabolical Self

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Here’s something that’s always fascinated me.  People’s fear of having no rules.  I am always being given reasons, really good reasons, as to why we need rules.  It’s the only way we can keep the evil in check.  Not you and me, mind you, but those bad people out there.  My beautiful Facebook friend Jeanie raised the issue for me again last week.

And hey, we only have to look around to see that there are people out there doing bad things.  Last night on the news a woman was shot on the front steps of her home by some unknown assailant.  The police are asking for witnesses.  Monsanto is high on my list of nerry-doers.  And I think BP checks a lot of boxes for people just now.

If you read this blog regularly you’ll know I like to look deeper, delve beneath the surface.  Especially when the Earth is sitting on my Moon in the Gate of Bringing the Invisible to Visibility, as it is today.

And what I see here is a fear of our own evil selves, the one’s that we fear will get out of control and wreak havoc in our own lives and in the lives of those we love.  Our diabolical self.

We can usually find our diabolical self if we get out the rule book from our childhood and read it.  Hidden between the thou shalt not’s and the don’t you ever’s and the you know I love you when you’s we can find it lurking.  But our diabolical self is not easy to discover, because it has survived so long by going deep underground, by hiding in shadows and slipping away when we turn our gaze in it’s direction.   It’s principle source of nourishment is our shame.  The shame that says that this completely natural and innocent aspect of ourselves is not okay, not loveable, not worthy of inclusion in our day to day life.

I found my diabolical self this morning by asking myself these questions:  Why am I not loveable?  Why am I a failure?  Why am I not allowed to do what I want?  Why am I not allowed to nurture myself?  My diabolical self came straight up to the surface, lured by the bait of shame, and answered me very clearly.  I am dangerous, I am destructive, I am hateful, vengeful and out of control.

So there you have it!  What is reflected back to me about the truth of who I am.  Out in the light for all to see!  Luminously transformed by the light of day.

Doesn’t the world ‘diabolical’ roll beautifully off the tongue.  I am diabolical.  I checked it’s meaning and it perhaps means to pass beyond.  The word devil could perhaps have originally meant a fierce and wild warrior.  It’s not really clear, but certainly there has been a ‘fundamental’ shift in the meanings of many words, creating an oversimplification of life that reduces our options for how we live it. (http://nineangles.wordpress.com/diabolic-etymology/)

I’m writing about this now because today we are having a major shift and I’m not even going to look for it in the transits because I can’t be bothered going into the mental energy.  That’s just how BAAAD I am!   This is the first day in many years that I’ve been asked to step out of my day to day life and just hold the energy.  Just sit, breathe and feel.

Here’s the crux.  The rules of patriarchy are breaking down and your inner authentic self is escaping.  What happens when a whole lot of planets pass over the Aries point?  We shift out of the prison (Pisces) of the old and into new terrain (Aries).  What happens when a whole lot of largely ignored dwarf planets hook up with super massive black holes?  We get something so new we don’t even recognise it yet.  And in this new energy, the old evils are so apparent there is no sleight of hand possible, no invisible power plays, no theft, rape or environmental calamity that isn’t clearly visible for what it truly is.

Some part of you that has felt itself imprisoned is coming out into the world.  Not the old world, it’s very release represents a new way of being.  It doesn’t need rehabilitation, that would take it back into the old judgments where it would remain ‘diabolical’ rather than a wild and courageous warrior of spirit.  It simply needs to hear these words “You are welcome here.”

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A Day of Massive Integration

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Does it feel like you’re being sucked into a whirlpool? Or perhaps racing down a ravine on a flimsy raft? Both of these images make sense.

Apart from the obvious – Cosmic Cross, sitting between two eclipses – we have lots of dwarf planet and black hole action going on. Plus Mars and Venus are playing out an ancient story right before our eyes. Let’s go have a closer look.

Our galaxy revolves around the sun. Which revolves around the Galactic Centre. Which itself revolves around the Super Galactic Centre. Wheels within wheels. And then we have the super massive black hole called The Great Attractor. So what?

All three black holes are impacting hugely upon us right now.

Let’s start with the Galactic Centre. In the Human Design Chart it’s in the Ajna Centre in Gate 11, which is about Heaven and Earth coming together. And sitting right there keeping it company just now is the very important dwarf planet, Ceres.

The Galactic Centre is like a giant vacuum cleaner that sucks out all your old subconscious ideas and replaces them with new ones. We simply have to look at the planet making contact with it to see what kind of ideas are getting removed and to know what they’re getting replaced with. Ceres represents the places within us that haven’t been nurtured and nourished, plus loss and grief, and anything to do with food.

This pressures us to release old ideas that don’t feel good and to learn new ways of thinking about ourselves and our lives. Thinking nurturing thoughts, releasing grief at not being loved.

Moving through space and time, we arrive at the Super Galactic Centre and find …. Saturn! In the Human Design Chart the Super Galactic Centre is in Gate 46 in the G Centre. The Super Galactic Centre wants us to find a soul mate. Not in the romantic sense and not even necessarily in the love sense. It wants us to have stable loving and creative relationships, starting with our relationship with ourselves.

This is the Gate of Pushing Upwards and it’s story is that of a seedling pushing up through the soil towards the light and warmth of the sun. The seedling doesn’t really know where it’s headed or what it will find when it gets there.  All it knows is that it must make the effort and it must move towards warmth and light.  Saturn helps us release old self imposed limitations to relating, peeling off heart armouring, and supports us to build solid stable and supportive long term loving creative relationships.

And The Great Attractor?  It’s in the Sacral Centre in Gate 5, Waiting for Nourishment.  And it’s joined by a Centaur called Ixion.   Eric Francis describes Ixion quite eloquently as “a total asshole”. Astrologer Nick Anthony Fiorenza makes this revealing comment:

“… at the least [Ixion] would also seem to be related to the suppression, manipulation, and the exploitation of women. And more specifically about those in authoritarian positions being brought to justice for deeds involving the suppression and manipulation of people, especially women, as well as the the tyrannical destruction of people for one’s own end.”

To his credit, Ixion appears to be using the immense power of The Great Attractor to reveal the way in which a certain sort of powerful, authoritarian asshole has been operating to our detriment right under our very eyes. Even to the point of having us play a part in our own destruction.   It’s as if the oil spill has drawn massive attention and now we are all on a path of unravelling, being drawn into The Great Attractor’s energy field with no hope of escaping until the story is complete.

So that’s the black holes.  But with all that going on, they are only part of the story.  Remember the Cardinal Cross?  It’s gotten bigger.  Crosser?  Because Pluto has now joined all the other players in the G Centre.  Jupiter and Uranus, Saturn and Pluto – three of the four points of the Cross (Jupiter and Uranus are both at one point) – are in the G Centre, which is all about the way we connect to each other.

8th July 2010

8th July 2010

Have a look at the connections in the chart today.   If we add in the dwarf planets Ceres, Haumea and Eris, we have a connection from Root to Ajna with the Spleen Centre included as well.   Let’s take account of Vesta in Gate 64 in the Crown,  dwarf planets Orcus and Makemake in 59/6 connecting the Sacral Centre to the Solar Plexus Centre, and the Centaur Bienor (the Strong Man) in Gate 51 – Shock – bringing in the Heart Centre and we have all 9 centres activated without having to resort to anything beyond the very sigificant cosmic players.

I’m not going to try to go over all the aspects, because it would make our brains explode on this amazing day.  Let’s just leave it this overview.

It may feel like something beloved is being removed from our lives, although we may not know what it is.  We may feel as if we are heading into a personal dark night or a global apocalypse.  This is Ceres demanding her dues as Earth, potentially releasing an outpouring of emotional energy (via Makemake and Orcus in the Solar Plexus emotional centre).    If we want to be a part of this earth play, we have to acknowledge our part in it.  We do this through our bodies and this brings Venus into the picture.

In the Feminine Mojo Teleseries, Venus was a revelation, a powerful new influence, re-emerging into our lives.  Both light and dark, morning and night.  In the Sacral Centre just now she takes hold of our energy and demands we use it in her service, and this may involve going into a personal dark night on the way to our own new dawn.  Venus tells us that we cannot live without love and beauty.  Ceres allows us to grieve for the times we have had to do so.

It drives me crazy when I read that a Venus transit means we’re going to feel lazy and spend too much money!  How this trivialises us!  Lazy is the new creative!   Money is the new abundance!   No more slavery to the protestant work ethic and doing without so that a handful of powerful people can suck up all our earthly goodness for themselves.

There is rising up a joyful, erotic and loving energy from this womb-like depth.   It is unsinkable.  It’s is unstoppable.  It’s a Venusian force of nature.  As Venus tells us in The Abyss (gate 29) we only have to flow with the rushing river through the abyss to reach the ocean.  We don’t need to try to heroically climb the sides of the ravine, or struggle to move rocks that appear to obstruct us.  It’s all in the flow and letting the water carry us on.

Mars in the Gate of Oppression and Exhaustion is instrumental for the next few days.  He is making us angry and overwhelmed.  He is probably making our head spin as he asks us to dig into our anger to dicsover the point at which it transforms to become our passion.

This is not a time to repress your rage, the world needs your fire to protect what’s rightly yours.  And mine.  And ours.   It’s the key to moving out of thoughts that will otherwise cause our own extinction.    Mars is bringing wild dreams of destruction, blood, and release from servitude.

The next eclipse is going to happen right on top of Eris, so we’ll leave her till then.  Take it easy today and enjoy the birthing of an amazing new world of creative connection, love and an erotic sensual expression of life!