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Is Your Inner Goddess Invisible?

A few years back I began to notice one particular asteroid turning up in significant positions in the charts of my private clients.  That asteroid was Ophelia. I went searching. There was nothing about her in the astrological literature. It was as if she was invisible. And that’s exactly what my clients were feeling – invisible!  Since that time Ophelia has been one of my go-to asteroids, particularly in women’s charts. There is something within each of us that has been lost in the tumult of daily life and Ophelia is a key to what that something is. It is a clue to what we need to recover as we step out of our cultural roles and into a central position in our own lives.

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John William Waterhouse – Ophelia

 

Ophelia has been tuning us into what has been invisible even to ourselves, since 18 May when both she and asteroid Vesta moved into the emotional manifestor channel 35/36.

This channel is about discovering, through our experiences, what has been wounded within us, what light has been dimmed, and how it can now emerge from your character.  Think back over your experiences in the past 10 days, what has felt invisible? What have you longed for others to see?

Ophelia and Vesta will both be in this channel between 18 May and the Full Moon on 2 June 2015. The energy of the channel itself provides a interesting juxtaposition with Vesta, who represents our own personal sacred flame. The energy of the gate – wounded brightness – and the planet Vesta – sacred flame – work perfectly together.

Where has your own inner light been kept at a low wattage?  Your light now wants to shine brightly again and you are hungry for experiences and adventures where you can live from that place.

vesta~illuminareVesta is a fabulous planet in your design. She is not only about your inner light.  She goes deeper than that, into the very heart of the ancient goddess, family, community and matrilineal lineage.

The Vestal Virgins of Ancient Rome come within Vesta’s realm. These priestesses tended Vesta’s eternal fire in a temple designed to ensure the safety of the Roman Empire. But like all Greek and Roman goddesses, there is a more ancient story and the promise of resurrection in our modern times.

Vestal virgins were originally goddesses, keepers of the sexual rites honouring the generative powers of the Moon Goddess.  Their inner flame was not a solar but a lunar energy – the reflected fire of moonlight rather than the direct gaze of the sun. They brought the fertilizing powers of the goddess into effective contact with the everyday lives of human beings.

In modern times Vesta shows the pathway from sexual ownership to powerful fertile goddess, from barren spinsters and dutiful wives to sexual sovereignty and self determination.  Vesta is the place in your design where you connect with what you are truly devoted to, the place where you are touched and illuminated by the Moon Goddess.

There’s another important aspect to Vesta and this is playing into an important evolutionary theme right now.  In Ancient Greece the sacred hearth flame was carried by women from their mother’s hearth to their new homes. The journey of sacred flames throughout generations provided an ongoing connection for women to their source of nourishment, nurturing and mother love.  Men also carried a portion of that flame when they emigrated, to link their new community back to their homeland. Vesta represents our home, our hearth, our roots.  She represents our desire to create and maintain warm, loving and nurturing families and communities.

It took over 1000 years to suppress the matriarchy, and during that millenium women learnt to hide and protect their power, their magic, their sisterly relationships. These gifts are returning to our consciousness, but after so long we are unsure in their presence.  Are we ready? Can we wield such power? Will be we safe? We are pulling the pin on the whole ‘protecting the patriarchy’ story and stepping back into our own gloriousness. We are making pathways out of moon and starlight and spreading our footprints upon the earth.

Today Mars enters Gate 35, and adds an additional trigger to this already powerful combination. Arachne is there as well, prompting us to rush forward in our attempts to get free. But this is both a beginning and an ending.  A long term project and an immediate event. We should settle in for a new cycle of 12,000 golden years and also pay attention to what is right in front of us, the practical steps we need to take today. We are weaving a new reality, rekindling an ancient flame, arousing our kundalini and recovering our devotion to our own sacred flame. This is a daily round of undertakings and each small step is a dance with our own divinity.

 

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Is Your Comfort Zone Worn Out Yet?

 

There’s a whole lot of limitations in your life that just don’t make sense anymore.  It’s as if you’ve worn them out through using them to often to keep yourself small and it’s kind of hard to even remember why you believed in them in the first place!  Comfort zones are collapsing around us and a bright shiny new world is presenting itself.

Most of the transformation is happening in the Spleen Centre, with Jupiter acting as a healing bridge to the emotions.   Pluto in 38 and Jupiter in 39 – twin gates that work in polarity as they gain each other’s measure – is clearing deep ancestral distrust of the unknown.  Strange ideas, strange faces, strange accents, strange situations …  the whole concept of ‘stranger danger’ is built into our DNA since the days when we spent a lifetime surrounded by only a handful of familiar and familial faces doing the same things we’d been doing every day for thousands of years.   Back then our comfort zone was small and beyond it were dragons. These days we are at a tipping point and our comfort zone is simply the taking off point for our next adventure.

That comfy place contains all the devils we know and love – fear in particular.  Often we’ve become so accustomed to our own pain and struggle that we believe it is all the world has to offer and don’t see it as something we wrap around us to stay safe.  Moving beyond suffering and struggle takes the courage to face who we might be on the other side and that’s not always comfortable!

Another big deal is finding techniques to let go of the past.  We’re so accustomed to emotional processing, trying to find the reason for things, to understand our pain, to unlock our karma and free ourselves from repeating cycles.  This profound activation to the Spleen Centre is bringing us closer to the source, relieving us from the need to process mentally or emotionally.  As we feel discomfort in our body we can make a clear choice to step beyond the limiting belief and into a greater sense of self.  Try it yourself.  Whenever something bugs you in the next few days, watch how you try to understand it, how you create a story to hold it.  This is not how our mind and emotions are designed to operate, and this binding up of our precious and powerful resources in looping around the pain again and again simply keeps us oblivious of what we could be doing instead!

So, back to the thing that’s bugging you.  Can you feel it in your body?  Or in the space around your body?  Try saying something like .. Thank you.  I’m done.  I release you.  It works best if you expand into a big sense of self.  You can do this by saying something like “I am the powerful centre of the Universe, the pure personification of Love and Light”  (okay, that’s my personal favourite!).   And then do the releasing again – Thank you. I’m done.  I release you.  And then get on and do something that makes you feel really amazing.

The main thing I want to share with you here is this – you don’t deserve to suffer, you are not being punished, you do not have to learn anything.  It’s time to be free and get big!

Because ….

I want to do the teenage girl thing here ……  OMG!  I LOVE what Ceres and Vesta are doing in the Spleen Centre!  Today Ceres is in Gate 50.1 asking what nourishes you.  Really, is it the things you were taught to take into your life?  Is it the food pyramid?  Hours at the gym?  Eating all your broccoli?  You are the only person on this planet who knows what’s best for you.

You have an inbuilt intuitive knowing of what to take into your life – whether it be food, people, situations.  You experience the knowing in your body and emotions and you are the worlds foremost authority.  In fact the worlds only authority!   One interesting experience I had during 2013 was watching my ongoing anxiety – something I struggled with for years – dissolve into a simple separation from my own conscious knowing of what I wanted in my life.  Which created a separation from my body and spirit.  It was, quite literally, separation anxiety!

And it’s not just about health.  To quote Hilary Barrett (as I have been known to do on occasion!):

It means not only what you eat, but all the processes and structures that sustain nourishment, physical, social, emotional, intellectual, spiritual .. all creating and re-creating your individual ecosystem to sustain and shape you.   Call on your constancy and steady clear persistence in honouring what truly sustains you. (South Node in Gate 27, which is creating a channel with Ceres). 

This marks a new beginning.  The sacred vessel is cast and used in great ceremonies that inaugurate a new dynasty.  This is a stable robust foundation for a new life and also the vessel or crucible where you can expect to be transformed and remade.

There is so much old material coming up now to be released.  Please stay attentive to releasing it rather than trying to work through it.  Keep your gaze firmly on the promise of a new life and your own long term goals.  There is something fresh and new, something profoundly nourishing coming into your life and that is what requires your attention – it is this new ‘era’ that needs to be nourished.  The negative material is simply in the process of  Exiting Stage Left, don’t be confused into trying to get it to hang around for one last encore!   And don’t buy into the old idea of limitations.  Trust is the bridge, and it’s time to get really good at it!

Vesta, oh how I love her!  Vesta is in Gate 32.3 right now, joined by the radiant Venus in Gate 54.  Right there is the Goddess A Team!  If you’ve been filled with an uplifting sense of abundance and financial change in the past month or two it’s partly because of Neptune and Jupiter activating the Gate of Abundance.  And Ceres passing through Gate 32.  And now, this Vesta and Venus combo is adding the icing to the cake.

Vesta has a lot to do with money. Firstly, she represents your Path of Service or Life Calling in your personal chart.  So when she turns up with Venus in a transit we can expect a radical shift as we feel more deeply into our own personal values and discover a renewed sense of career purpose.  Secondly, Vesta has a strong connection to the Goddess Temples which were custodians of the communal wealth.  It was held in trust for the entire community and the idea of inequality, trickle down or not receiving succour (or health care) was unimaginable.  This is not a return to socialism but rather a dynamic shift in our own attitude to money that will, over time, shift the entire global financial system.

The channel in which we find Vesta and Venus this week has a couple of important clues for us. It shifts us beyond a fear of failure because we are so strongly attracted to our calling.  It slows us down so we can stay in our body for the journey. Yes … slows us down .. please don’t rush just now!  We can do this one step at a time and you won’t miss out on one juicy morsel along the way!  And it has an instinctive understanding of what we can transform.  Fuelled by Jupiter, there’s a lot of people feeling the call to make a lot more money right now.  That’s part of the transformation of the economy that is shifting from the pyramid economy, where all the money is held by a few people, to a fractal economy, where money moves along relationship lines being attracted to the greatest areas of transformation.  We don’t need to go fast so much as boldly in line with our most amazing dreams.

Can you feel your dreams taking on more substance?

There’s one last thing I want to share with you.  The Spleen Centre is all about the Libran quality of balance.  That’s because every gate but two in the Spleen Centre are in Libra.  (The exceptions –  Gates 28 and 44 are in Scorpio).  Over the past few weeks I’ve been experiencing the imbalance of giving and receiving in my life.  I can feel in my body if I’m giving or receiving when it’s not right to do so.  As much as my mind tries to override me, my body is attuning me to a greater sense of honesty.  Can you feel the imbalances more easily just now?

This magical time of unfurling is very precious.  Enjoy!

 

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Sitting On The Edge Of What’s Known

 

 

This week I went to lunch with a group of women and one of them asked us …  how do you experience the difference between your masculine and feminine sides?  The women went on to talk about their masculine as the breadwinner, out there in the world making things happen and bringing home the bacon.  They identified their feminine side with intuition, feelings and a desire to care.  One of them explained she was having a year off.  “Off what?”  I asked.  The obvious answer was ‘off work’, but the deeper answer is that she is having a year off from being in her masculine side that gets up every morning and goes out in the world, leaving the intuitive, feeling, caring side of her nature at home.

This split bedevils our world.  In her book Approaching The Corporate Heart, Margot Cairnes describes the corporate high flyers she works with in her consultancy as well trained and highly disciplined.  She also describes them as the living dead.  They have learned that in order to succeed they have to suppress their own feelings, to spare little time for their emotional and spiritual growth.  In a quest to create the world, they put their souls and emotions on hold.

This will never turn out well!

I had a similar experience.  As a young lawyer on the verge of a junior partnership I found myself one Friday evening sitting in the boardroom with the senior partners, obligatory glass of whisky in hand.  Part of me felt like I was approaching a place of personal power.  But then, as I sat sipping my drink, I realised how grey these men were.  Their hair was grey, their faces were grey, their very demeanor was grey.  In that moment I made a choice.  I was never going to end up like those men, successful but only half alive.  A few weeks later I collapsed at work and that was the end of that era of my life!

 

We’ve arrived at a turning point in the evolution of humanity, Gaia, and consciousness itself.  At a personal level this turning point is all about connecting with what’s within us.  We can’t go on ignoring our feelings, our bodies, our heart and soul.  Even those of us with many years on a spiritual path are still conditioned away from trusting what our inner awareness tells us.  Can we trust it?  Will we be safe?  How will we survive?

Life seeks always to expand.  The very universe itself is constantly expanding.  But seemingly we have exhausted all our resources on this planet, and now we must contract in order to survive.  Governments are cutting back on spending on education.  Health care is unaffordable.  People are losing their homes and their jobs.  Perhaps, the thinking goes, if we make ourselves smaller there may be enough to go around.  If we deny ourselves, surrender the bliss of our personal desires, we may just manage to survive.

The people telling this story are corporate and government leaders.  They are fighting so hard to retain their simplistic linear way of thinking and operating that they are blinded to the possibilities inherent in the world being transformed around them.  They are creating a myth of doom and gloom that arises from a mind that has no connection to the magnificence of what surrounds it.

The marvellous Charles Eisenstein tells a different story.  In The Ascent of Humanity, he says:

 

I experience such an odd mix of emotions whenever the latest symptom of financial, political or ecological collapse comes onto my radar screen.  On the one hand I feel dread; on the other, a kind of gratification or even gleeful excitement.  I hope you will not think ill of me if I confess that sometimes, when a promising catastrophe fails to materialize, I feel a little disappointed.  

Such contradictory feelings are common among those working to create a more beautiful world.  We want the same thing that we fear: the end of our world and the beginning of a new.  Our seemingly perverse desire for the world to end is more than just a Freudian death wish; it is our yearning to be born.

 

Right now two dwarf planets – Vesta and Ceres – are making a channel with the Sun in Gate 10.  They are creating a field of sensitivity that may be eliciting feelings of anxiety, fear, sadness, anger and general discomfort in your body.  And perhaps particularly in your heart.  This is the mind-body split at it’s most potent.  We may feel that something is wrong with the world, that we are alone, separate, isolated when the truth is that it’s our body we have separated out from – the spirit of our physicality.    And it is this separation of self that is actually creating the fear, the anxiety, the sadness.

This is a highly complex evolutionary manoeuvre.  At this moment we are attempting to integrate our highly tuned, ancient fear-based survival instincts with our high functioning conscious neo-cortex.  We are bringing this modern part of our brain into our bodies and saying .. yes, it’s safe here.  The nightmares you have been experiencing are not a real threat, they are part of the fear frequency on this planet.  You are a part of nature and your intuition, your body, is where that connection is made.  If you don’t want to be living in the fear frequencies, you can make a choice to tune into your intuition instead.  Your body wants to move, to be juicy and alive, to smell and touch and taste.  It is showing you how to step out of survival and into paradise.

Ceres represents our capacity for nurturing and nourishing ourselves.  She also triggers any sense of deprivation in relationships.  Ceres calls us to connect with our own internal mothering and to reach out to the Great Mother.  Spend some time just letting your body call the shots today, allow your mind to follow it’s lead.  You’ll find that much of your anxiety and indecision is resolved. As we connect more deeply with this energy we can shift our resources from the victim energy, and from the need to defend ourselves, into more creative pathways.  And that’s where Vesta comes in.

Vesta represents our devotion to our path of service.  She can also represent our sexual sovereignty – ownership of our sexual selves. Right now so many people are letting go of their pain and waking up to the gifts they have to offer the world. It is truly miraculous to consider the changes we are on the cusp of creating – the healing, the creativity, the new ideas for living a healthy and happy life.  This healing and growth is coming directly from connecting to the ancient Goddess cultures that are infusing our lives with a body based bliss. Despite the possibility that our external world doesn’t provide either nourishment or a path of service that matches our internal frequency of desire, we find the capacity to stay true to what we feel within.  We are not seeking an active outcome, simply acting in each moment from the root of ourselves.  This makes our path smooth and our treading harmonious.

 

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Until now we believed in certain limits as if they were a physical reality, but we are about to find ourselves expanding beyond them.  In times of expansion we need an anchor, and that anchor is our physical intuition. When we are confident of our innate integrity, we are able to traverse new worlds while growing into our own unique pattern. Your body is unfreezing, releasing old fear patterns.  Move it gently, wildly, freely.  As much as possible, release your mental hold over your body and allow it’s innate wisdom to return to your day to day life.

 

Creating New Culture

Jupiter and Saturn are major players in the current cosmic scene.  They are the planets that we use to build culture – Jupiter is our ‘religion’ and Saturn our ‘economy’.  Saturn is making a channel with dwarf planet Sedna, which is in Gate 23.  The essential concept here is sustainability.  What are the limits of growth? Do we need to get smaller in order to survive or can we expand our own consciousness and allow our world to respond accordingly.  I’ll write more on sustainability soon, but right now the essence is to see our own pattern of expansion rather than to buy into these horrid logic mind ideas of linear growth.  As we bring the feminine intuitive senses back into the game of life, dimensional doorways open and the rules shift.  Some astrologers see Saturn as representing the return of the Goddess – the wise Grandmother. Expect miracles.

Jupiter is retrograde at the moment, which means we have to make our own luck by acting on opportunities as they arise.  Our intuition is strong, our only task to ensure we are acting from our wellbeing, rather than fear and survival instincts.  The one supports our growth, the other makes us shrink down to nothing.  On 6th January, Jupiter will shift back to Gate 39, creating a channel with Neptune and a circuit with Pluto and the North Node.  Believe me, this one will take hold of our world!  We’ll have Pluto, Neptune, Jupiter all connecting to the North Node (destiny), in a pair of channels that are about reacting out of fear to people and situations.  Or the alternative, to open up to new opportunities and diverse people and situations.  At the DNA level this is shifting the tribal fears of the unknown, allowing us a greater field of play in the fractal of relationships we are creating.

 

 

These two channels will be in play until the end of January.  Movement of the body and emotions will shift the fear and bring you into alignment with your joy.  I’ll write more on this specific alignment next week.

 

What’s seeking to be born

I believe this turning point will shift us into a third age of consciousness.  The first age was the matriarchy.  Evidence suggests that phase was communal, peaceful and creative.  It relished art, beauty and the sensual body. Women ruled and men gained power through marriage.   The second age was the patriarchy, which began when the horse people swept down from the North.  They viewed themselves as superior people because of their ability to conquer more peaceful people, and they revered their aggressive warriors and the priestly caste of high standing.  They relished heroes, the mind and achievement.  The matriarchal times were communal. The patriarchal times celebrated the individual.

I acknowledge this is a Euro-centric view of reality, but I believe it’s the dominant evolutionary creative principle in our lives at this moment.  We have entered a time when these two polarities – the feminine and the masculine – are realising what they can create together.  And in their powerful embrace, something wonderful is seeking to be born.  That wonderful newling is a way of being that effortlessly blends our so called masculine and feminine.  In other words we can create a life that is successful and satisfying through connecting with our inner awareness.  We are learning that when we allow our every day self to be guided by our inner knowing good things happen.

This seems obvious, but even though of us who consider ourselves very aware are still struggling with this concept.  Deep down in our cells is the belief that our feelings and our intuition are just waiting to lead us astray, that they are working against, rather than for, our greater good.  Why else would we have to work so hard to tune in?  This idea is easy to say .. oh so easy to say .. and yet much more difficult to live.  We are entering the complex and mysterious world of chemical messengers, brain frequencies, the effects of intimacy on mood, a whole new subtle way of understanding what it means to be a conscious human in the 21st century.  We are beginning an experiment in living that is beyond anything humanity has experienced before.

Pallas Athene in Gate 64 just now adds to this picture.  When Pallas arose fully formed from her father’s head she had no need of time to develop.  The patriarchy needed her blessing and she had to go to war!  Pallas brings such incredible gifts of wisdom and understanding that have, for the past 2,000 years, been used for the benefit of the warlike pattern of growth.  Pallas the weaver is about to begin a new story that returns her to the root of her feminine wisdom and to her mother Metis, the triple goddess.  Gate 64 is both the end and the beginning, and Pallas is both a warrior and a wise woman.  She knows exactly what needs to be done.

Back to Margot Cairne.  In her video The Mediocrity Trap, she tells how corporate warriors resist their emotions. Not logically, not from a clear space of arguing that they are unnecessary. But from fear of the breakdown in their reality that will inevitably occur once their feelings breach the wall.  One of the most common questions I get asked in personal sessions is How do I feel my feelings?  Being able to access our own inner awareness is a millenium tool.   It brings a breakdown in our existing reality, and great responsibility for creating the world anew.

Once we start tuning in, then what?  If we all turn into navel gazing flower children, who will run the world?  That would be you.  Because it’s not about tuning in for the sake of dropping out.  It’s about dropping in. As we begin to access this powerful inner guidance (represented by the feminine polarity) we must also begin to act on it (the masculine pole).  We can no longer look outside ourselves for directions on where to go, what to do and when to do it.  At this point in our evolution, these choices are ours alone.

This brings us to the very edge of the known world.  Because, right here and right now, our understanding of what it means to be a human being shifts.  The structures we have relied on – the mother and the father – the nurturing and the providing – are being given over into our hands.  No more goddess and gods to look out for us.  We must own the place within ourselves where we have been orphaned, where we haven’t received what we’ve needed to thrive. It’s time to step beyond the hurt and the woundedness. We have completed that part of our journey. We are on the cusp of taking these powerful capacities for creation, and learning how to make them our own.

Acting on our intuition and feelings is a new way of being.  We can no longer map ‘reality’ through knowing the rules of the patriarchal structure – that things will always be this way and we can rely on them.  We are standing on the cusp of the unknown.  It’s up to us to create what happens next.  Step by step.

 

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After decades of dedicated personal work, it’s time for women to step into their powerful healing work.  So many others are waking up and they need you to show them the way.

If you feel called to create a new, fulfilling and purposeful business that calls out everything that is unique and beautiful in you, then this is your time.  It’s so important for you to understand – it really matters!

I have places available in the Emergent Human Design Business Coaching Program, beginning in the first week of February.  It’s time for you to be all that you can be.

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October New Moon – Beyond Survival and into Ecstacy

New Moon ~ 5th October 2013 ~ 10.34 am UT,  19.34 pm Australian EST, 2.34 am PDT and 5.34 am EDT.

You are probably just as bored as I am with trying to fix everything that’s wrong with our lives.

Humanity probably wouldn’t have survived if we didn’t have this natural tendency to watch out for potential disasters.  But we’ve taken it to the end of it’s usefulness. It’s time for us to begin focusing on the good stuff.  Because there is a huge amount of it – good stuff . We are so accustomed to ignoring it that we are still drowning in the last bits of the bad stuff.  It’s like we’re at a luscious banquet and we’re so busy trying to fix our wobbly chair and check our lipstick hasn’t smudged that we’re in danger of starving to death.

Right now so much is about our body and the way it’s naturally blissful and ecstatic nature has become imprisoned by the ego and intellect.

 

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This modern culture has worshipped at the altar of the ego.  Now the ego is a truly miraculous invention.  The ego encompasses our individual identity.  It has a crucial role in evolution – it protects the uniqueness of our conscious selves.  But the ego self has changed from a natural and essential aspect of consciousness to become a rigid structure held intact by fear.  We are literally destroying ourselves rather than come face to face with that fear, which has till now been embedded deep within our dna, in the cellular coding of our physical body.  That’s about to change.

We live in a disembodied culture, rising as it does from the seedbed of a disembodied religion.  The story of Adam and Eve in the garden of eden is the story of the breakdown of the relationship between the body and it’s bliss.  This myth was an ad man’s wet dream, specifically created by the new messianic religions to scare people away from the pre-existing and more nature affirming cosmologies – the Vedic and matriarchal ‘religions’.

Humanity was more accustomed to opening our bodies to the bliss of the divine.  The experience was personal and real.   There were ecstatic rituals, orgies even, that were a part of the natural celebrations of being human.  The rise of the messianic religions – Judaism, Christianity and Islam – brought with them the idea that god is outside of us, something unattainable.  Our bodies were reassigned.  Instead of representing a glorious part of creation, they became instead the temporary and completely inadequate  shelters for our souls, leading us into sin.  Our bodies became evil and we lost our relationship with the divine.  We were forbidden even to look upon the face of the god, instead using the intermediaries appointed by religious authorities.

In the process we lost our understanding of the incredibly complex relationship between the mind, emotions, body and soul, and instead learnt to spend our time focusing on our fears.  This ancient wisdom was never readily available to the masses.  It was only attained by high level initiates with the spiritual rigour required to work with these energies in the physical plane.

We are now recovering that wisdom on a global level, and rekindling those relationships – mind, body, emotions, soul.

To really get these connections we have to embrace the energy of our Root Centre – the basis of our right to exist as individuals on the physical plane.  When we are not conscious at the level of our Root Centre we live in survival fear, hypervigilant to threats to our existence.  Our adrenal system is overworked and we are generally more sensitive and susceptible to stress.  The fears in the Root Centre can also show us what prevents us from recognising our own importance to our tribe, the larger collective and to the process of conscious evolution.  They also prevent us from gently and kindly taking good care of ourselves.

Supporting us in this huge evolutionary process are three Goddess Asteroids – Ceres, Vesta and Juno.  Both Ceres and Vesta are dwarf planets.

Juno is in Gate 41 – the initiating energy of the Human Design matrix.  Juno represents our relationships, and right now we are beginning a new physiological process that will change our entire experience of relationship.  We are hungering for something new, something better, something more closely attuned to the new people we are becoming and Juno represents that shift right down to the cellular level.

Ceres was in Gate 40 (with Chiron in 37) from 10th to 23rd September.  You may have experienced a profound sense of hunger to belong, to be taken in and fed.   Ceres is now in Gate 64 in the Head Centre and she moves to Gate 47 on the New Moon.  Vesta is now in Gate 40 with Chiron and will shift to Gate 64 in the Head Centre just before this week’s New Moon.

After I wrote this post I watched the news and saw the recent events in the US.  So I went back to look for Hygiea, another dwarf planet, this one about health.  She is in Gate 24 – returning again and again trying to get a resolution!  And she is opposite Saturn (old structures of government, not caring for the less fortunate because of fear they will destroy you somehow)  and the North Node (where we can feel out of our comfort zone in the process of change and growth).  This adds a really significant aspect of health to our story – how we care for our own personal health, taking responsibility and not  falling back on the habit of allowing  ‘experts’ or authority figures to override our own intuition, taking control of organising our lives so that we have exactly what nourishes us and brings us joy.

Along with this week’s Pluto and Earth combination in the Root/Spleen, and some other asteroidal influences, these transits have created a powerful hunger for us to open up to a more ecstatic experience of our bodies.  This hunger is especially apparent in how we care for ourselves (our family imprint for what we hunger for) and in relationships (which necessarily shift when we repair our cellular lineage).   Ceres and Chiron created a fresh sense of our true worth – what we deserve, what we are prepared to give ourselves.  Vesta and Chiron represent an opening to our sacred nature, and a desire to belong with those who can receive what we yearn to share.

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Once they reach the Head Centre over the next few days, we shift into a new transformative phase.  I was given clear guidance that this represents the opening of a doorway accessing the ancient goddess wisdom for connecting with the sacred and divine via the body.  Imagine the temple goddesses, who engaged in all sorts of rituals sexual and otherwise,  bringing the sacred into the everyday lives of their people.  They were revered, and it was only later archeologists who designated them harlots.  Both Ceres and Vesta are fully embodied – eating, drinking, dancing, making love, singing, gardening, walking ….   They are opening us up to our natural heritage of loving our bodies.

Eros, he who rules over lusty love of all kinds, meets dwarf planet Makemake in the Channel of Discovery (29/46) for this New Moon.  Makemake represents the split between our more civilized and wild selves and the stories we tell ourselves to make sure we behave with propriety.  No orgies for us!!

There is a wild breaking free of the dictates of culture, good manners, best behaviour going on here.  Pan, the wild and lusty god of fertility, sits conjunct Uranus as we approach the next Pluto Uranus square.  This is powerful medicine, a post cultural occupation of our bodies and all they offer us for pleasure through connection with each other and the earth.

It’s subtle, can you feel it?

 

 New Moon – Beyond Survival and Into The Sacred

This New Moon takes us deeply into the human community, how we share  and how we support each other.  Uranus, planet of individuality, is in the same gate at the Earth, indicating an explosion in networking for the good of humanity. There is a shift in wealth taking place although it may not yet be apparent.  [I’ve just read the latest news, the US Government’s issues with appropriations, so it has suddenly become very apparent!] We can begin to look beyond what seems possible now, beyond what resources we each believe we have available to us.  We can focus instead on the real value of our work and dedicate it to something higher. We can let go of clinging to survival fears and it’s phantoms of scarce resources and the need for immediate returns and apparently fair exchanges.

The Sun and Moon are in Gate 48.3.  Hilary Barrett says:

 

[sws_blockquote_endquote align=”” cite=”” quotestyle=”style02″] The well has been dredged and now the water can start to flow freely – if only people would see it’s potential and draw on it. But it’s important not to stay trapped in the pain of ‘if only’. The well flows strongly, and all that’s needed now is a guiding awareness strong and bright enough to illuminate it’s depths. If the leader recognises the well and makes it plainly visible to all, the situation can be transformed into one of communication and blessing. [/sws_blockquote_endquote]

 

We are entering into a period of relationship recalibration. There is a powerful lineup in the Channel of Surrender (44/26).  Not only do we have Saturn and the North Node in Gate 44, but Hylonome, Pholus, Hidalgo, Ixion and Cupido are in Gate 26.  This is a channel packed with the energy of change – recovering the way we relate to each other one small step at a time, recalibrating the fractal of relationship, supporting the downtrodden, recovering the lost warrior from battle and releasing the grief of the loss of loved ones (and loved aspects of ourselves, rendered ‘subhuman’).

This will affect all areas of our lives, but particularly sexual and creative/vocational.  Pandora, Goddess of Earth’s Abundance, is conjunct the Galactic Centre.   We hold our breathe as she opens the box and we find .. instead of the curses and pestilence, instead of the negativity we have been told to expect …  we find one wonderful treasure after another spilling out.  Ceres and Vesta fill the Channel of Abstraction (64/47), giving us the beginnings of mental clarity about the damage that’s been done to each one of us, but particularly to our sacred inner flame (creativity/sexuality) and our relationship with nurturing ourselves.

The trick for us here is to be clear about how much this new clarity and Pandora’s gifts will change our lives.  If we accept them and assume we can control them, that they won’t disturb the remaining fears slumbering within us, we are wrong.  It is easy enough to underestimate our ability to handle this new powerfully attractive force that is entering our lives.  It’s probably okay to open to it completely, we just need to be alert to the extent of change that is likely to bring.

There’s no real need for careful planning just now, as our physical senses are relearning the fine tuned skill of assessing whether something will be nourishing we tend to wade in and get covered in chocolate.  It’s as if we are starving for something that is not poison, something that has no negative energy attached to it.  Hurling ourselves in is a way to get direct and immediate feedback on whether something really is nourishing.  We can engage in this way and not get too far from our true path.  When we do experience restraints we can trust that they are protecting us from overdoing things.

 

In the next few days we have the following transits:

2nd October – Sun (18.6) square Pluto (58.6) 

The work is done and it’s all empty politics.  It’s time to leave the small petty stuff behind and look at the big picture, even if it feels unattainable.  There is a release of energy that was taboo, down the patriarchal line within your own family and also globally.  There may be some sort of reckoning for abuse of power, pride and obsession with self achievement.  Expect issues around control of female sexuality to be in the news, as well as exposes of wrongoing by those in power.  The veils are lifting and they can’t hide anymore.

3rd / 4th October – Sun (48.2) opposite Uranus retrograde (21.2)

A revolutionary shift in the way we relate to each other.  Rather than focusing our attention on rebelling against the powerful authority figures, we all just turn and face each other and go OH!  Of course!  It’s our planet, let’s just get on with it.  It will take a lot of cooperative work for us to shift things, and we are starting to see that it’s not about small personal gains.  We can all embrace the novelty when we are in it together.

 And then in November: 

1st November – Uranus square Pluto – more

3rd November – New Moon and Solar Eclipse (Sun, Moon and North Node in Gate 44)

5th November  – Pluto shifts back to Gate 38-  more

 

A wonderful Aussie band, Bliss n Eso, thought you might enjoy this.

 

 

 

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Jupiter conjunct Eris

Jupiter met up with the Goddess of Discord Eris yesterday for the first time since Eris was discovered. And Mars is there, within one degree. You know, just to make it more fun for us!

Jupiter expands what it touches, so Eris themes loom large this weekend for all of us. I’ve been saying for ages now that Eris represents a place where we have tended to take the blame for a complex situation, as if everyone else’s contribution had become invisible and we are left holding the smoking gun.

This is a really big deal because deep down in the DNA of each of us is something we have taken responsibility for within our family dynamic. Are you the crazy one? The sick one? The one who works hard? The married one?

We’ve been untangling ourselves from these projections, letting ourselves off the hook, since Saturn joined with family oriented Haumea in the Spleen Centre back in September 2010 (when it went into Gate 18).

Eris can also indicate a fear of unintended consequences. It’s not that we need to be concerned about unintended consequences just now, because we are doing a massive clean up. Instead, we need to be aware of how we have shut down aspects of ourselves that have created unintended consequences in the past.  Why would you keep trying to do something when you just know you’ll get blamed as the bad guy?  Over and over again!

I’ve had so many examples of this over the past 24 hours I could hardly count them – People afraid of confronting the damage they’ve created in the lives of others, feeling powerless to do things differently. People afraid of standing up to injustice and chaos out of fear they’ll be blamed. People too afraid to confront things they don’t like in their lives because in the past they’ve experienced shocking responses when they stood up for themselves.

Although Eris and her crew are in the Sacral Centre (in Gate 42), there’s a strong emotional content to this energy.

Lurking off to the side, Vesta and Pallas are in Gate 19 and Nessus is in Gate 49. Kassandra was in Gate 19 as well until she moved into Gate 13 yesterday. Vesta and Pallas are in the asteroid belt between Mars and Jupiter with Ceres, and are significant enough to be classified as dwarf planet candidates, so they are well worth taking note of!

These two gates – 19 and 49 – connect the Root Centre to the Solar Plexus Centre  –  feeling safe to express your true emotions free from the fear of being rejected.  And speaking of being rejected, they’re joined by the almost invisible Goddess of Wisdom, Metis tomorrow.  Remember how Pallas Athene was born by popping out of Zeus’ head?  Well if we dig back through the mythology we find that she actually did have a mum – Metis.  The rejected and invisible wisdom of the mother.

Pallas can be the place where we choose to take the masculine view of reality rather than the feminine.  The feminine reality then operates under our conscious awareness, often creating chaos.   A great example – I’m working through a situation with my daughter where bullying by girls is going largely  under the radar whereas bullying by boys is pretty obvious and in your face.  Metis is like the mother ship of feminine wisdom turning up and reminding us of what we’ve forgotten.

Nessus represents a karmic completion that ties in perfectly with the ideas put forward by Eris – responsibility taken!

The most poignant key concept for Nessus comes from Melanie Reinhart: the buck stops here, indicating that in some situations it speaks to the conclusion of the karmic cycle involved: the truth revealed, the perpetrator caught, the situation resolved, responsibility taken.

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It’s a really potent combination on it’s own but if we add in everything else that’s going on, it’s a huge component of what we’re experiencing just now.

 

NB:  Sarah Palin has Design Jupiter conjunct her Natal Eris in Gate 21.1.

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Finding Our Way to Prosperity and Love

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1st September 2010

This is a time when we can be seduced back into the world we have worked so hard to change. This week is a potent mix of disconnecting from what manipulates our energy for it’s own purposes, and instead joining a collective dance that is  joyful, free and creatively inspired.

There is an unmasking of what Philip Shepherd refers to as the tyranny of the independent “known self”. Independent in that it is apparently “self-made” and not connected to anything else. The isolation of the independent known self is an ego based construct that is such a part of our culture, as we lock ourselves in our homes and sit safely ensconsed in the bubble of our cars, that we mistake it for ‘reality’. This despite scientific proof that we are each one of us nothing more and nothing less that a constant flow of energy. And this despite our own experiences of how our relationships are the core of our existence.

We hold on so tightly to our possessions, or at least what we perceive as what is ours. We pay insurance against theft and put bars on our windows.  Altjira has been subtley informing us that this is not a healthy way to be.  A creator god of the desert Aranta people in Australia, Altjira created the earth and everything on it, and then left it to it’s inhabitants to enjoy as they chose.  He is sending us a strong message right now, connecting as he is to Haumea and Pluto, that individual ownership of anything is a dangerous nonsense.

The internet has changed forever the way we experience ownership of our creative output.  Just ask Hollywood and the music industry.  When we see our creations as something we alone  pulled from the ether with only our own heroic efforts of genius, when we fail to recognise the input of others during and after the creative process, we impoverish humanity and life on earth.  Industry that uses the earth’s resources with impunity, governments that allow them to do so, people who create something and then stultify it by a fear of sharing or by refusing to allow it to grow and change through that sharing prevent a true weaving of abundance.

Speaking of weaving, I’ve been watching the asteroid Niobe moving amongst the key astrological players lately.  Niobe lost all her children through her excessive pride in them.  The story of Niobe is of her endless grief at the loss of her progeny.  We are all experiencing this to some degree as our magical inner child is continually deadened by a society that demands we can only work and never play, that claims to own our creative efforts, and refuses to allow us to interact freely with them.   We need to also look at any fear this has created in us, of having to hold on tightly to what we create rather than trusting the reality that it has a life of it’s own that has little to do with who originally created it.

We are about to storm the ramparts of the commercial world with the message that business is not about making money, but sharing love and creating prosperity for all.

Flower Field by Patrick Campagnone ~ www.Flickr.com

With the North Node about to shift into Gate 10 with Pluto, the concept of ‘father’ is shifting.  The more clearly we see our own collusion with the unhealthy ‘father’ and the more we align with the juicy and joyful energy of the incoming protective provisioning masculine the easier our next 18 months will be.  The shamanic nature god Pan is in the Gate of Enthusiasm, at the Throat Chakra calling forth some potent shifts in the feminine.

Vesta and Lilith are in the Gate of Depth with Zeus.  An interesting combination.  The power of Zeus was perhaps wasted due to  his philandering tendencies.  There was that story about the goose, but we won’t go into that now :).  Vesta represents the inner flame of the hearth, and in this position shows that women are likely to be looking deep within to see where they have been allowing that flame to flicker due to a perceived need to find the power in their male lovers rather than within themselves.  And also for the inner flame flickering weakly within the breast of men who seek comfort in their sexual relationships with women, rather than connect with the gentle nature of their own inner feminine.

This confusion has inexorably led to women (and men)  being bound up in culturally based gender roles, and Lilith’s rage at how this renders us unable to act authentically.

The asteroid Child is conjunct Saturn and the Super Galactic Centre.  The new Saturn is the builder.  He knows how to create on the material plane, what needs to be done to bring our visions to reality in the physical density we live in on this planet.  This conjunction says that our inner child is moving out of a cold and isolated place and into the warmth and light of loving relationships – both personal and business.  Saturn demands self-responsibility and we will be able to hold our heads with true rather than false pride as we increasingly find the pathways our inner magic seeks for it’s expression.

And speaking of relationships, the Sun and Earth are in a channel that helps us understand our role in community.   Mercury retrograde will conjunct the Sun in this channel on the 4th September.  We can feel isolated when we feel the need to push forward ahead of our own power.  In my terms this would indicate trying to do things from the mental plane, when they are still an idea, rather than allow the flow of life to support us to embody and integrate first.  When we flow forward in this way not only do we align with a natural abundance, we also proceed without struggle because we emanate the quality of what we long to share.  It’s freely available to whoever wants it with no effort on our part, and we are forever changed through each interaction of giving and receiving.

I will be interviewing Philip Shepherd, author of New Self, New World sometime next week on Love Your Design radio.  I’m so impressed with this book and how clearly Philip talks about the need to deconstruct our current ‘reality’.

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A Day of Massive Integration

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Does it feel like you’re being sucked into a whirlpool? Or perhaps racing down a ravine on a flimsy raft? Both of these images make sense.

Apart from the obvious – Cosmic Cross, sitting between two eclipses – we have lots of dwarf planet and black hole action going on. Plus Mars and Venus are playing out an ancient story right before our eyes. Let’s go have a closer look.

Our galaxy revolves around the sun. Which revolves around the Galactic Centre. Which itself revolves around the Super Galactic Centre. Wheels within wheels. And then we have the super massive black hole called The Great Attractor. So what?

All three black holes are impacting hugely upon us right now.

Let’s start with the Galactic Centre. In the Human Design Chart it’s in the Ajna Centre in Gate 11, which is about Heaven and Earth coming together. And sitting right there keeping it company just now is the very important dwarf planet, Ceres.

The Galactic Centre is like a giant vacuum cleaner that sucks out all your old subconscious ideas and replaces them with new ones. We simply have to look at the planet making contact with it to see what kind of ideas are getting removed and to know what they’re getting replaced with. Ceres represents the places within us that haven’t been nurtured and nourished, plus loss and grief, and anything to do with food.

This pressures us to release old ideas that don’t feel good and to learn new ways of thinking about ourselves and our lives. Thinking nurturing thoughts, releasing grief at not being loved.

Moving through space and time, we arrive at the Super Galactic Centre and find …. Saturn! In the Human Design Chart the Super Galactic Centre is in Gate 46 in the G Centre. The Super Galactic Centre wants us to find a soul mate. Not in the romantic sense and not even necessarily in the love sense. It wants us to have stable loving and creative relationships, starting with our relationship with ourselves.

This is the Gate of Pushing Upwards and it’s story is that of a seedling pushing up through the soil towards the light and warmth of the sun. The seedling doesn’t really know where it’s headed or what it will find when it gets there.  All it knows is that it must make the effort and it must move towards warmth and light.  Saturn helps us release old self imposed limitations to relating, peeling off heart armouring, and supports us to build solid stable and supportive long term loving creative relationships.

And The Great Attractor?  It’s in the Sacral Centre in Gate 5, Waiting for Nourishment.  And it’s joined by a Centaur called Ixion.   Eric Francis describes Ixion quite eloquently as “a total asshole”. Astrologer Nick Anthony Fiorenza makes this revealing comment:

“… at the least [Ixion] would also seem to be related to the suppression, manipulation, and the exploitation of women. And more specifically about those in authoritarian positions being brought to justice for deeds involving the suppression and manipulation of people, especially women, as well as the the tyrannical destruction of people for one’s own end.”

To his credit, Ixion appears to be using the immense power of The Great Attractor to reveal the way in which a certain sort of powerful, authoritarian asshole has been operating to our detriment right under our very eyes. Even to the point of having us play a part in our own destruction.   It’s as if the oil spill has drawn massive attention and now we are all on a path of unravelling, being drawn into The Great Attractor’s energy field with no hope of escaping until the story is complete.

So that’s the black holes.  But with all that going on, they are only part of the story.  Remember the Cardinal Cross?  It’s gotten bigger.  Crosser?  Because Pluto has now joined all the other players in the G Centre.  Jupiter and Uranus, Saturn and Pluto – three of the four points of the Cross (Jupiter and Uranus are both at one point) – are in the G Centre, which is all about the way we connect to each other.

8th July 2010

8th July 2010

Have a look at the connections in the chart today.   If we add in the dwarf planets Ceres, Haumea and Eris, we have a connection from Root to Ajna with the Spleen Centre included as well.   Let’s take account of Vesta in Gate 64 in the Crown,  dwarf planets Orcus and Makemake in 59/6 connecting the Sacral Centre to the Solar Plexus Centre, and the Centaur Bienor (the Strong Man) in Gate 51 – Shock – bringing in the Heart Centre and we have all 9 centres activated without having to resort to anything beyond the very sigificant cosmic players.

I’m not going to try to go over all the aspects, because it would make our brains explode on this amazing day.  Let’s just leave it this overview.

It may feel like something beloved is being removed from our lives, although we may not know what it is.  We may feel as if we are heading into a personal dark night or a global apocalypse.  This is Ceres demanding her dues as Earth, potentially releasing an outpouring of emotional energy (via Makemake and Orcus in the Solar Plexus emotional centre).    If we want to be a part of this earth play, we have to acknowledge our part in it.  We do this through our bodies and this brings Venus into the picture.

In the Feminine Mojo Teleseries, Venus was a revelation, a powerful new influence, re-emerging into our lives.  Both light and dark, morning and night.  In the Sacral Centre just now she takes hold of our energy and demands we use it in her service, and this may involve going into a personal dark night on the way to our own new dawn.  Venus tells us that we cannot live without love and beauty.  Ceres allows us to grieve for the times we have had to do so.

It drives me crazy when I read that a Venus transit means we’re going to feel lazy and spend too much money!  How this trivialises us!  Lazy is the new creative!   Money is the new abundance!   No more slavery to the protestant work ethic and doing without so that a handful of powerful people can suck up all our earthly goodness for themselves.

There is rising up a joyful, erotic and loving energy from this womb-like depth.   It is unsinkable.  It’s is unstoppable.  It’s a Venusian force of nature.  As Venus tells us in The Abyss (gate 29) we only have to flow with the rushing river through the abyss to reach the ocean.  We don’t need to try to heroically climb the sides of the ravine, or struggle to move rocks that appear to obstruct us.  It’s all in the flow and letting the water carry us on.

Mars in the Gate of Oppression and Exhaustion is instrumental for the next few days.  He is making us angry and overwhelmed.  He is probably making our head spin as he asks us to dig into our anger to dicsover the point at which it transforms to become our passion.

This is not a time to repress your rage, the world needs your fire to protect what’s rightly yours.  And mine.  And ours.   It’s the key to moving out of thoughts that will otherwise cause our own extinction.    Mars is bringing wild dreams of destruction, blood, and release from servitude.

The next eclipse is going to happen right on top of Eris, so we’ll leave her till then.  Take it easy today and enjoy the birthing of an amazing new world of creative connection, love and an erotic sensual expression of life!