Here’s something that’s always fascinated me. People’s fear of having no rules. I am always being given reasons, really good reasons, as to why we need rules. It’s the only way we can keep the evil in check. Not you and me, mind you, but those bad people out there. My beautiful Facebook friend Jeanie raised the issue for me again last week.
And hey, we only have to look around to see that there are people out there doing bad things. Last night on the news a woman was shot on the front steps of her home by some unknown assailant. The police are asking for witnesses. Monsanto is high on my list of nerry-doers. And I think BP checks a lot of boxes for people just now.
If you read this blog regularly you’ll know I like to look deeper, delve beneath the surface. Especially when the Earth is sitting on my Moon in the Gate of Bringing the Invisible to Visibility, as it is today.
And what I see here is a fear of our own evil selves, the one’s that we fear will get out of control and wreak havoc in our own lives and in the lives of those we love. Our diabolical self.
We can usually find our diabolical self if we get out the rule book from our childhood and read it. Hidden between the thou shalt not’s and the don’t you ever’s and the you know I love you when you’s we can find it lurking. But our diabolical self is not easy to discover, because it has survived so long by going deep underground, by hiding in shadows and slipping away when we turn our gaze in it’s direction. It’s principle source of nourishment is our shame. The shame that says that this completely natural and innocent aspect of ourselves is not okay, not loveable, not worthy of inclusion in our day to day life.
I found my diabolical self this morning by asking myself these questions: Why am I not loveable? Why am I a failure? Why am I not allowed to do what I want? Why am I not allowed to nurture myself? My diabolical self came straight up to the surface, lured by the bait of shame, and answered me very clearly. I am dangerous, I am destructive, I am hateful, vengeful and out of control.
So there you have it! What is reflected back to me about the truth of who I am. Out in the light for all to see! Luminously transformed by the light of day.
Doesn’t the world ‘diabolical’ roll beautifully off the tongue. I am diabolical. I checked it’s meaning and it perhaps means to pass beyond. The word devil could perhaps have originally meant a fierce and wild warrior. It’s not really clear, but certainly there has been a ‘fundamental’ shift in the meanings of many words, creating an oversimplification of life that reduces our options for how we live it. (http://nineangles.wordpress.com/diabolic-etymology/)
I’m writing about this now because today we are having a major shift and I’m not even going to look for it in the transits because I can’t be bothered going into the mental energy. That’s just how BAAAD I am! This is the first day in many years that I’ve been asked to step out of my day to day life and just hold the energy. Just sit, breathe and feel.
Here’s the crux. The rules of patriarchy are breaking down and your inner authentic self is escaping. What happens when a whole lot of planets pass over the Aries point? We shift out of the prison (Pisces) of the old and into new terrain (Aries). What happens when a whole lot of largely ignored dwarf planets hook up with super massive black holes? We get something so new we don’t even recognise it yet. And in this new energy, the old evils are so apparent there is no sleight of hand possible, no invisible power plays, no theft, rape or environmental calamity that isn’t clearly visible for what it truly is.
Some part of you that has felt itself imprisoned is coming out into the world. Not the old world, it’s very release represents a new way of being. It doesn’t need rehabilitation, that would take it back into the old judgments where it would remain ‘diabolical’ rather than a wild and courageous warrior of spirit. It simply needs to hear these words “You are welcome here.”