6th May 2011

My vacuum cleaner just blew up, so I can’t clean. My plans for the day blew up with it, because I’ve been waiting to get a day to clean.  It’s just that kind of day.

After the New Moon we went immediately into a new Sun/Earth energy. The Sun – a yang energy –  in the yin Gate 2, and the Earth – a yin energy – in the yang Gate 1.  Weaving, weaving, weaving.  We manifest by allowing our yin selves to open up and receive the yang energy into us.  This is a natural process, but one we’re largely unfamiliar and uncomfortable with.

The yang energy may feel uncomfortable – it could be heat, anger, more energy than you’re used to, conflict.  I’m feeling really pissed off in a sort of delicious way, and about nothing in particular .

Mars in the last line of the Gate of Increase wants to push forward, to take it a step too far.  Over the past few weeks we’ve had a taste of what’s to come and we’ve grabbed the reins and tried to take control.  Again.  I know.  We’re used to moving forward from the ego and it’s hard to see all the places where we still do it.

Mercury and Venus are travelling in close company in Gate 51 – the Gate of Shock.  This might have us trying to push forward from our ego, taking leaps into the unknown.  But actually Venus is giving us an opportunity to fine tune our relationships.  In particular we are learning that what we have to offer is always exactly the right thing in the right amount. Any attempts to give more than feels right, to offer something other than what comes from our own simple authenticity, is doomed to keep us trapped in an old cycle of struggle.  We can only move forward together, and a focus on how we do relationships is paramount over the next 10 days.

There’s some accompanying sadness and anger here (Ceres in 63.5 is sextile the Sun today).   Why do I have to give more?  Why don’t you give more?  Why do you want something I don’t want to give?  And so on.  Uranus, Mercury and Venus work at the heart level, Mars at the Sacral Centre.

This is about where we have become accustomed to trading our life force energy for love.  Or money.  Or anything else we feel we need to survive.

Mercury leads, opening us up to conscious awareness of the way in which the shock and trauma of past compromises have affected us.  Venus follows closely behind, bringing the energy of healing, recuperation, connection and the ability to attract what we need to move forward.

Mars is conjunct 1992 QB1 in Gate 42 line 6, Increase.  This gives us the courage to move over the threshold from the old way of developing and growing and increasing.  Expect to see lots of news stories over the next week about economic growth and it’s effect on the planet.  On a personal level, we can let go of toxic concepts of forcing growth and increase.  This is no longer the way we get to the good stuff.

Here’s a lengthy quote from Eric Francis that probably says all we need to know about today:

I have described 1992 QB1 as representing the archetype of the thresholder. That is the person who helps others make major transitions; I associate her with midwives, doulas, hospice workers, orgasm coaches, grief counselors and everyone who steps in at that moment of total transition and offers themselves in service. Many nurses function in this capacity without getting acknowledgement. There are highly skilled, trained volunteers who show up at the scenes of fires and crime scenes and help the survivors. These are all the thresholders.

In Aries, we get the clue that this really is about guiding our own processes of reinventing ourselves, and supporting the similar experiences of others; of letting go of an old form and an old pattern of energy and transitioning into something entirely new, liberated from constrictions that seem so daunting today — particularly those of the human ego.

http://1992qb1.com/

Today’s shocks – like my blown up vacuum cleaner – are disruptive for a reason.   They reroute our attention, opening up new possibilities, so that our hearts desires speak more clearly to us.  Mars and 1992 QB1 give us the energy to get under way.  Tomorrow Mars will be in the Gate of Confusion at the Beginning (Gate 3).  This from the Wilhelm I Ching is my favourite description of the energy of this gate:

Times of growth are beset with difficulties.  They resemble a first birth.  But these difficulties arise from the very profusion of all that is struggling to attain form.  Everything is in motion, therefore if one perseveres there is a prospect of great success, in spite of existing danger.

In the chaos of difficulty at the beginning, order is already implicit.  We have only to arrange and organise the inchoate profusion, just as one sorts out silk threads from a knotted tangle and binds them into skeins.

Today’s imperative is that we don’t just drift along, but take hold the wheel of our own vehicle and point it in the direction we want to go, holding true regardless of circumstance.  Allow life to find you, let it work to get your attention.  Drop the old traumatic belief that you have to be always rushing out to meet it.  Underneath this shift is a profound change to our relationship with money and resources, but thats unlikely to be apparent for a while yet.

It can feel difficult as grief and anger well up and confuse the issue, but keep in mind that these are largely responses to past trauma.  All the places where we have felt unattractive, unloved and unwanted can rear their head over the next week. They need recognition and gentleness but don’t get too caught up in the idea that they are inherent in your present reality.