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Your Matrix Meets My Matrix

There’s a whiff of depression in the air, and sadness. It’s that Root Centre getting so much activation we hardly know which way is up. With the Sun, South Node and Mercury all in Gate 39 – Obstruction – it can feel like being between a rock and a hard place.

But the solution to our ills is in not allowing the past (South Node) to inform us. Easier said than done, as our cells can scream quite loudly when they feel we are threatened, and the ego self wants to have it’s say in our survival as well. “We were doing fine the old way,” it tells us, “there’s no need for all this change!”

Well, need or not, we are amidst the change and we may as well be on the lookout for the wondrous new solutions to past ills that are coming our way.

2nd July 2010

2nd July 2010

Mercury will shift today to Gate 53 – Development through Gradual Progress. It’s in the Root Centre and, most importantly, it’s going to create a channel with Eris. Of course, as usual with the dwarf planets other than lucky old Pluto, we can’t see Eris in the chart, but there she sits nonetheless, a perfect example of the unseen forces gradually being revealed to us.

Eris has many facets, one of which is that when we ignore her presence we experience a sense of discord in our lives. The other aspect is that we need to look carefully at the causes of discord we are experiencing, find out part of the ‘blame’ and take responsibility for it.

In family dynamics we often find that each area of family ‘discord’ is blamed on a particular family member.  What were you habitually blamed for?  What have you always felt responsible for?  Where do you feel you have failed your family, or let them down?

When we become conscious of what hooks us into the family dynamic ~ as we unconsciously try to ‘fix’ that bit of it’s brokenness ~ we are able to gently release it and move closer to our natural shape and size and pattern of being.

Again, we find the sadness of releasing those old ways of relating.  It can truly feel like a death and can trigger a sense of being alone in the world and unloved. But that is not the truth.  There is a fractal global filament of light and love that is picking up each one of us as we come loose from that sticky old web.

There’s something quite profound that we are creating in our new relationships, and it is that we are allowing each other to be.  To be true, to be ourselves, to hold our own reality.   It is one of those monumental but again unseen things that are happening on the planet just now.  You won’t read it in the newspaper but you’ll feel the difference and gradually you’ll notice people start to write books about it and they’ll turn up on the bestsellers list.

It’s as if you have a matrix and I have a matrix, and we have always gotten together by trying to blend them.  But we’ve finished with that, and now we are learning a new way, which is to bring those two matrixes together, preserving their essence, and finding out how they can fit together.  It’s a bit of a bumpy ride as we rub against each other, bumping into old patterns and accidentally trying to shift each others matrix.  This week in particular we are discovering how amazing we are when we come together in this new way.

But we’re still on our training wheels, so we need to be gentle and kind to each other, as much as we can be anyway!   There is an incredible leveraging of universal energy when we come together in this new way, that shifts us into an entire new reality of creation.  It’s so delicious!

8 Comments

  1. Brilliant! As usual. This is playing out in my life in a way that is uniquely mine. But … of course it is … no more blending, right? Thanks for the insight.

  2. Hi kim
    Just woke up this morning, to understand that we all live in totally different worlds, multiple universes – and spend most of our time trying to change or heal the others so that they reflect more our (my) own, making us feel safe. I know no other way of doing this, but hopefully just feeling into this subtle shift is enough. I realised how much of my life is spent in trying to fit in my life with those of others in myriads of different ways, and how this pulls me about losing focus, and real connection.

    Heartened to see your blog, which synchronistically shows a different type of connection.
    And here’s some reflections I wrote yesterday which prompted this understanding.

    On the nature of love

    Two beings attract, vibrate.

    The energy of the earth ignites and a dance begins.

    One foot forward, and back to

    The edges of the cosmos

    The rhythms of the tango

    Bring forth the heat of the earth

    And one being moves forward

    Flesh and bone dissolve

    a retreat begins

    The other, vibrating, steps into the arena

    Sensually swaying, dissolving

    Touching the fabric of the earth

    Attracting, the Other, back to

    A space of infinite creation

    The throbbing beat harmonising

    Connecting, transmuting

    Abandoning, connecting

    Loving

    Love
    Bronwen

  3. oooohhh…
    what a revelation this has brought: “What were you habitually blamed for? What have you always felt responsible for? Where do you feel you have failed your family, or let them down?”

    it has revealed something that i thot was me, mine… as a mask i donned in the early stages of my life.

    as a child, i remember i was not a bit ‘ambitious’. i was ok with eveything. i was ok ‘tasting’ life as it was around me then and there – like the way you say, my matrix brushing with other matrixes, without wanting, needing any thing other than that was present.
    till now that same life (of past), i was perceiving as living a life in a ‘dead frog’ kind of way.
    i realise, i was seeing ‘having and tasting’ what IS as moroseness and not WANTING anything. i was seeing acceptance, in grateful appreciation, as a lack of ambition.

    where did i get those lens?
    i think, the overt and eloquent expectation of the family that i get ‘serious’ about life… that i ‘struggle’ to make my life, life… that i ‘face it’ as a challenge.
    and this meant, i was lazy, day-dreamer, procrastinator, indifferent and apath-y-tic.

    my passion for life was not seen and thus stayed hidden from everyone’s view – including mine. and in denial, i probably locked it in a dungeon of my being.

    and so, when it came out, it came out wearing the mask of ‘doing’ to achieve, ambition, to change, and to do something to force change.
    i was trying to do outside what i was doing to myself inside.

    it is amusing to see all that i was, was trying to express, and do, and then all i tried to become… just because of a mask i agreed to wear to keep the family happy, and proud of me.

    it’s been only a while that these curtains were raised… the drama is till playing out. lets see what more twists in the plotare revealed.
    🙂

    • I’m sure there will be lots more twists in the plot Biren! I’ve been through similar experiences lately, being drawn back to my childhood self and looking at my life from that persepctive – very interesitng!

  4. oooohhh…
    what a revelation this sentence of your has brought:
    “What were you habitually blamed for? What have you always felt responsible for? Where do you feel you have failed your family, or let them down?”

    it has revealed something about me – that i thot was me, mine – as a mask i donned in the early stages of my life.

    as a child, i remember i was not even a bit ‘ambitious’. i was ok with eveything. i was ok ‘tasting’ and enjoying life around me, as it was then and there – like you say, i was content with ‘my matrix brushing with other matrixes’, without wanting-needing any thing other than that which was present.
    i think i had a passion for diving in, tasting, experiencing life as it was being lived out… passion for WHATEVER came up around me… for people that showed up in my life. and i must hv been so busy (and full)dipping in that experiencing, i had no time to even think of wanting anything else.

    till this moment, i was seeing that same life (i had lived) as “living a life in a ‘dead frog’ kind of way”… a life of apathy and moroseness.

    i realise, i have been seeing ‘having and tasting what IS’, as moroseness and not WANTING anything.
    i was seeing acceptance, in grateful appreciation, as a lack of ambition.

    where did i get those lenses?
    i think, i got them from the overt and eloquent expectation of the family… that i get ‘serious’ about life… that i need to ‘struggle’ to make my life, life… that i need to ‘face it’ as a challenge. that i will HAVE to make something of my life.
    and this, by extension, meant… i was lazy, day-dreamer, procrastinator, indifferent and apath-y-tic, escapist and a coward, etc. etc.

    my passion for life was not seen, and thus stayed hidden from everyone’s view – including mine.
    and in this denial, i probably locked it in a dungeon of my being.

    and so, when it came out, it came out wearing the mask of – ‘doing’ to achieve, ambition, to change, and to do something to force change… as an attitude and demeanour of seriousness about life, making life ‘heavy’ with its importance.

    i realised, what i was trying to do and achieve outside (make living a serious affair, treat life as an opportunity to do something great, and change things and people on those lines)… was something i was wanting inside (as a change in my true ‘self’).

    so, while i am essentially a simple child inside, loving ‘buffoonery’… i use my passion for life to ‘be stoic’ and pursue serious ‘purposes’.
    and i never suspected that my intense desire to know and follow my ‘life-purpose’ was a form my passion was taking in order to silence and satisfy my ‘family’ that sat inside myself.

    it is amusing to see all that i was, all that i was trying to express, and do… all that i tried to become as a reaction to this…
    all because of a mask i agreed to wear – to keep the family happy, and proud of me.

    it’s been only a while that these curtains were raised… the drama is till playing out.
    i am excited to see what more twists in the plot are going to be revealed.
    🙂
    thanks kim. my gratitudes (which COULD be equated to truck loads of chocolates, or whatever else you drool for)
    b.

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