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23rd October 2010

The lead up to today’s Aries Full Moon (3.4) has been like a catherine wheel going off. I feel that writing about it brings the risk of diminishing it’s effect into something linear and comprehensible rather than letting it be it’s wild, crazy self finding it’s own pathway into our lives.

There are deep, deep structures of society shifting under this Full Moon, as we may expect with Saturn in the Gate of Depth. They involve the trinity of mother, the father and the child, and reflect out through the prism of Venus into our business and love relationships. They involve a shift in all our relationships from economics to love, from imprisonment and over-power-ment to freedom and joyful creative connection.

Women are waking up to how they have been sleepwalking through roles and relationships (Juno in 40 and Hera in 55.6 conjunct Snow White (waking up to their own spirit).  Men are waking up to the realisation that the only way forward personally and collectively is to tune into something that was lost aeons ago – feminine wisdom (Mars conjunct Metis in 14).  Of course, women’s inner masculine and men’s inner feminine are involved as well, talking about gender is always fraught with over simplicity!

It may feel as if we’ve fallen into a dark hole and can’t find our way out but that is because we are in the process of creating something new and the form isn’t clear amidst the profusion of coming into being.  For each of us there are a myriad of small choices being made, and each one comes down to this – do we go with the old or new?  Do we act before we have sensed the new flow of the pattern and end up putting all our energy and will into maintaining the old pattern? Or do we move slowly, carefully, with alertness to what is forming around us, and choose the new even though it may feel frighteningly insubstantial?

The Spleen Centre is so strongly activated by today’s transits, and it goes all the way to the Throat via the Heart Centre.   Saturn and Zeus are stabilising our reaction to fear and allowing us to resist our tendency to discount our own value at the expense of finding the depth of our natural talents (48).  Haumea (57) and Kassandra (34) give us the instinct and power to express the truth, whether it be accepted as such by others or not.

Venus in the Gate of Encountering, or Coming to Meet (44) is joined by a powerhouse of friends – Vesta, Ceto, Decaulion, Poseidon, Okyhroe and Tantalus, and they meet Quaoar and Cupido in 26 to join up with the Heart Centre.  This channel is literally throbbing with energy!  It is largely about the cleansing of the ego self, but also connects us with the ability to find a personal sense of meaning in life (Mercury in 28) that has nothing to do with anyone but ourselves. Be alert to a tendency to project your own bad habits out onto others, turning them into an empty vessel of your projections rather than a human being.  This is how we become rigid, by projecting our patterns of fear onto others, and this is also how we become lonely, isolated and unsupported.  Accept your own fears rather than ‘outsourcing’ them.

Amor is in the Heart Centre (21) testing us on how much interference in our lives we will accept for the sake of human type love, and what we can do to shift that into a more divine version of unconditional love that doesn’t require ego based control and manipulation to get our needs met.  Amor’s heart is split in two and he needs the wild self (Diana and Pan in 45) to bring back a heart that is wild and free, able to express itself freely no matter what it needs to say.

We are in the beginning stages of learning to manifest in entirely new ways and this requires a change in the ground rules of relationship.  You’re not going to learn this in any workshop, we’re inventing it as we go along.  Be radically self-affirming, no matter how things may appear.  Who you are depends on who you are with, and you’ve probably been spending a lot of time with people who haven’t seen you in your full potential.  We all have.   This means that you’ve been chronically misinterpreted.  We are in the process of remedying that situation.

The Moon in the Sacral Centre (3.4) is all alone, quite isolated, with nothing in her gate and nothing within about 4 degrees.  Compare the Sun (50.4)  which is closely flanked by both Child and Lilith.  Quite extraordinary, since it indicates a child isolated and lost while standing between the father (Sun) and mother (Lilith).  I expect there’s been a lot of scared, grief stricken, angry and generally emotional childish behaviour over the past few days.  That’s great, we need to get it out and share it instead of pretending we’re doing fine.

Which brings me to the idea of neglect.  For years now I’ve been peeling back layers – fake happiness, depression, sadness, anger, fear, shame, guilt …..   and under the shame and guilt .. neglect.  What a relief it was to come to a place where I realised I was neglected!

We live in a culture that, deliberately and with malice, neglects us and our children.  We could say that at the root of this neglect is money.  We appear to have no choice but to use our life force energy to work to get money, we appear to have no choice but to allocate scarce resources because there’s not enough money to go around, and we appear to have to tolerate gross inequities between rich and poor.

Who we truly are is subsumed into attempts to find the career we’re best suited to (if we’re lucky enough to have the opportunity for a career!).  We’re away all day working so we make it up to our children by buying them things, spending money taking them places.  If we want to show how much we love someone we buy them something.  Our relationships have become toxically economic.

Today’s Full Moon is resolving that toxicity.  The Sun is in the Gate of the Ting, fostering and nourishing the divine parts of you that add value to the lives of us all.  This gate represents the dismantling and rebuilding of our culture superstructure.  When our “earthly” values no long meet our needs as spiritual beings we are guided to take responsibility for our divinity and move beyond our identification with our ‘human’ wounds to manifest something new.

“All that is visible must grow beyond itself, extend into the realm of the invisible.  Thereby it receives its true consecration and clarity and takes firm root in the cosmic order.”

Responsibility is a big issue this week.  At it’s core is a need for us to get clear on taking responsibility for allowing our visible divinity to grow beyond itself, to extend itself and take firm root in the cosmic order.  This is the way forward, the way we create a new cultural structure that is nurturing rather than neglectful.  Be divine!!!

Mars is in the Gate of Great Harvest (14), where we can be deluded into using our energy to work, work, work without knowing what our true direction is, where we can blindly believing we have no choice but to do what the economy tells us to do.   The trap is in believing we will receive a ‘great harvest’ from all this effort, but that’s a lie.  The great harvest comes from using our energy in service to our own divinity.

And where is our soul in this equation?   The Queen of the Underworld, Persephone, is bringing us to an understanding of the profoundly abundant relationship we have with the Earth (2).  Making each action a ceremonial celebration of our life on Earth ensures we live in Heaven (Huya in 1).  Any pushing just makes us feel we are trapped in too small a space, ensnared in a sticky web.  The more we struggle the stickier and more stuck we get.  (Admetos and Arachne in 8).  We are unable to connect with the people who can help us because we’re too busy working to look up and see them waving at us.

Oh yes, the Sacral Centre.  The Moon is in one of my favourite gate – Beginnings (3).  When we relax our bellies, allow our breath to wander all the way down to our pelvis, we discover that a certain implicit order begins to become apparent in the chaos and formlessness.   Beset with difficulties, overcome with grief at our aloneness in the formlessness and chaos of becoming, confused by the constant shifting and changing that seems to happening around us, this Moon is not an easy place!   What do we do?  Slow down enough to see the small details.  Allow our natural sensitivity to sense the connections that are coming to us in all directions.  A new world is arising, and you are it’s divine beloved child.