I intend to manifest …

I want to share something with you that happened to me this morning. Something that demonstrates how even the so-called spiritual laws can keep us trapped in our niceness. I’ve been writing about that emotional manifestor channel that’s been activated lately – first by Eros and now by Ceres.  I’ve been talking about how we need to step beyond ‘nice’ to find what’s authentic.

This morning I pulled a crystal card for the day and received Intention.  The affirmation was “I intend to manifest pure joy”. That felt really bad.  I got angry when I tried to force myself to say it out loud.  But what could be bad about intending to manifest pure joy?  It’s all good surely?   Especially as I have my Earth in the Gate of Joy in the Root Centre!

Then a phrase came into my head.  “I intend to manifest hate and blame”.  Ah, that feels soooo much better.  I am smiling now and want to dance and sing and do all good things.  Doesn’t make sense huh?

I came out to sit on the verandah in the morning sun and repeated over and over to myself “I intend to manifest hate and blame”.  Each time I said it I felt happier, lighter.   And then I was aware of my heart opening and what we might call a new inner self coming into my consciousness.

“Finally!”  she says.  “My name is Hate and Blame.  I’ve been waiting forever to get out of there.”  Apparently she’s the one who got hated and blamed for everything and eventually it all got a bit much and I locked her away so no one could see how ashamed I was of all the things that were obviously wrong with me (or her).

So, now I understand how happy I was to intend to manifest hate and blame!