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Sitting On The Edge Of What’s Known

 

 

This week I went to lunch with a group of women and one of them asked us …  how do you experience the difference between your masculine and feminine sides?  The women went on to talk about their masculine as the breadwinner, out there in the world making things happen and bringing home the bacon.  They identified their feminine side with intuition, feelings and a desire to care.  One of them explained she was having a year off.  “Off what?”  I asked.  The obvious answer was ‘off work’, but the deeper answer is that she is having a year off from being in her masculine side that gets up every morning and goes out in the world, leaving the intuitive, feeling, caring side of her nature at home.

This split bedevils our world.  In her book Approaching The Corporate Heart, Margot Cairnes describes the corporate high flyers she works with in her consultancy as well trained and highly disciplined.  She also describes them as the living dead.  They have learned that in order to succeed they have to suppress their own feelings, to spare little time for their emotional and spiritual growth.  In a quest to create the world, they put their souls and emotions on hold.

This will never turn out well!

I had a similar experience.  As a young lawyer on the verge of a junior partnership I found myself one Friday evening sitting in the boardroom with the senior partners, obligatory glass of whisky in hand.  Part of me felt like I was approaching a place of personal power.  But then, as I sat sipping my drink, I realised how grey these men were.  Their hair was grey, their faces were grey, their very demeanor was grey.  In that moment I made a choice.  I was never going to end up like those men, successful but only half alive.  A few weeks later I collapsed at work and that was the end of that era of my life!

 

We’ve arrived at a turning point in the evolution of humanity, Gaia, and consciousness itself.  At a personal level this turning point is all about connecting with what’s within us.  We can’t go on ignoring our feelings, our bodies, our heart and soul.  Even those of us with many years on a spiritual path are still conditioned away from trusting what our inner awareness tells us.  Can we trust it?  Will we be safe?  How will we survive?

Life seeks always to expand.  The very universe itself is constantly expanding.  But seemingly we have exhausted all our resources on this planet, and now we must contract in order to survive.  Governments are cutting back on spending on education.  Health care is unaffordable.  People are losing their homes and their jobs.  Perhaps, the thinking goes, if we make ourselves smaller there may be enough to go around.  If we deny ourselves, surrender the bliss of our personal desires, we may just manage to survive.

The people telling this story are corporate and government leaders.  They are fighting so hard to retain their simplistic linear way of thinking and operating that they are blinded to the possibilities inherent in the world being transformed around them.  They are creating a myth of doom and gloom that arises from a mind that has no connection to the magnificence of what surrounds it.

The marvellous Charles Eisenstein tells a different story.  In The Ascent of Humanity, he says:

 

I experience such an odd mix of emotions whenever the latest symptom of financial, political or ecological collapse comes onto my radar screen.  On the one hand I feel dread; on the other, a kind of gratification or even gleeful excitement.  I hope you will not think ill of me if I confess that sometimes, when a promising catastrophe fails to materialize, I feel a little disappointed.  

Such contradictory feelings are common among those working to create a more beautiful world.  We want the same thing that we fear: the end of our world and the beginning of a new.  Our seemingly perverse desire for the world to end is more than just a Freudian death wish; it is our yearning to be born.

 

Right now two dwarf planets – Vesta and Ceres – are making a channel with the Sun in Gate 10.  They are creating a field of sensitivity that may be eliciting feelings of anxiety, fear, sadness, anger and general discomfort in your body.  And perhaps particularly in your heart.  This is the mind-body split at it’s most potent.  We may feel that something is wrong with the world, that we are alone, separate, isolated when the truth is that it’s our body we have separated out from – the spirit of our physicality.    And it is this separation of self that is actually creating the fear, the anxiety, the sadness.

This is a highly complex evolutionary manoeuvre.  At this moment we are attempting to integrate our highly tuned, ancient fear-based survival instincts with our high functioning conscious neo-cortex.  We are bringing this modern part of our brain into our bodies and saying .. yes, it’s safe here.  The nightmares you have been experiencing are not a real threat, they are part of the fear frequency on this planet.  You are a part of nature and your intuition, your body, is where that connection is made.  If you don’t want to be living in the fear frequencies, you can make a choice to tune into your intuition instead.  Your body wants to move, to be juicy and alive, to smell and touch and taste.  It is showing you how to step out of survival and into paradise.

Ceres represents our capacity for nurturing and nourishing ourselves.  She also triggers any sense of deprivation in relationships.  Ceres calls us to connect with our own internal mothering and to reach out to the Great Mother.  Spend some time just letting your body call the shots today, allow your mind to follow it’s lead.  You’ll find that much of your anxiety and indecision is resolved. As we connect more deeply with this energy we can shift our resources from the victim energy, and from the need to defend ourselves, into more creative pathways.  And that’s where Vesta comes in.

Vesta represents our devotion to our path of service.  She can also represent our sexual sovereignty – ownership of our sexual selves. Right now so many people are letting go of their pain and waking up to the gifts they have to offer the world. It is truly miraculous to consider the changes we are on the cusp of creating – the healing, the creativity, the new ideas for living a healthy and happy life.  This healing and growth is coming directly from connecting to the ancient Goddess cultures that are infusing our lives with a body based bliss. Despite the possibility that our external world doesn’t provide either nourishment or a path of service that matches our internal frequency of desire, we find the capacity to stay true to what we feel within.  We are not seeking an active outcome, simply acting in each moment from the root of ourselves.  This makes our path smooth and our treading harmonious.

 

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Until now we believed in certain limits as if they were a physical reality, but we are about to find ourselves expanding beyond them.  In times of expansion we need an anchor, and that anchor is our physical intuition. When we are confident of our innate integrity, we are able to traverse new worlds while growing into our own unique pattern. Your body is unfreezing, releasing old fear patterns.  Move it gently, wildly, freely.  As much as possible, release your mental hold over your body and allow it’s innate wisdom to return to your day to day life.

 

Creating New Culture

Jupiter and Saturn are major players in the current cosmic scene.  They are the planets that we use to build culture – Jupiter is our ‘religion’ and Saturn our ‘economy’.  Saturn is making a channel with dwarf planet Sedna, which is in Gate 23.  The essential concept here is sustainability.  What are the limits of growth? Do we need to get smaller in order to survive or can we expand our own consciousness and allow our world to respond accordingly.  I’ll write more on sustainability soon, but right now the essence is to see our own pattern of expansion rather than to buy into these horrid logic mind ideas of linear growth.  As we bring the feminine intuitive senses back into the game of life, dimensional doorways open and the rules shift.  Some astrologers see Saturn as representing the return of the Goddess – the wise Grandmother. Expect miracles.

Jupiter is retrograde at the moment, which means we have to make our own luck by acting on opportunities as they arise.  Our intuition is strong, our only task to ensure we are acting from our wellbeing, rather than fear and survival instincts.  The one supports our growth, the other makes us shrink down to nothing.  On 6th January, Jupiter will shift back to Gate 39, creating a channel with Neptune and a circuit with Pluto and the North Node.  Believe me, this one will take hold of our world!  We’ll have Pluto, Neptune, Jupiter all connecting to the North Node (destiny), in a pair of channels that are about reacting out of fear to people and situations.  Or the alternative, to open up to new opportunities and diverse people and situations.  At the DNA level this is shifting the tribal fears of the unknown, allowing us a greater field of play in the fractal of relationships we are creating.

 

 

These two channels will be in play until the end of January.  Movement of the body and emotions will shift the fear and bring you into alignment with your joy.  I’ll write more on this specific alignment next week.

 

What’s seeking to be born

I believe this turning point will shift us into a third age of consciousness.  The first age was the matriarchy.  Evidence suggests that phase was communal, peaceful and creative.  It relished art, beauty and the sensual body. Women ruled and men gained power through marriage.   The second age was the patriarchy, which began when the horse people swept down from the North.  They viewed themselves as superior people because of their ability to conquer more peaceful people, and they revered their aggressive warriors and the priestly caste of high standing.  They relished heroes, the mind and achievement.  The matriarchal times were communal. The patriarchal times celebrated the individual.

I acknowledge this is a Euro-centric view of reality, but I believe it’s the dominant evolutionary creative principle in our lives at this moment.  We have entered a time when these two polarities – the feminine and the masculine – are realising what they can create together.  And in their powerful embrace, something wonderful is seeking to be born.  That wonderful newling is a way of being that effortlessly blends our so called masculine and feminine.  In other words we can create a life that is successful and satisfying through connecting with our inner awareness.  We are learning that when we allow our every day self to be guided by our inner knowing good things happen.

This seems obvious, but even though of us who consider ourselves very aware are still struggling with this concept.  Deep down in our cells is the belief that our feelings and our intuition are just waiting to lead us astray, that they are working against, rather than for, our greater good.  Why else would we have to work so hard to tune in?  This idea is easy to say .. oh so easy to say .. and yet much more difficult to live.  We are entering the complex and mysterious world of chemical messengers, brain frequencies, the effects of intimacy on mood, a whole new subtle way of understanding what it means to be a conscious human in the 21st century.  We are beginning an experiment in living that is beyond anything humanity has experienced before.

Pallas Athene in Gate 64 just now adds to this picture.  When Pallas arose fully formed from her father’s head she had no need of time to develop.  The patriarchy needed her blessing and she had to go to war!  Pallas brings such incredible gifts of wisdom and understanding that have, for the past 2,000 years, been used for the benefit of the warlike pattern of growth.  Pallas the weaver is about to begin a new story that returns her to the root of her feminine wisdom and to her mother Metis, the triple goddess.  Gate 64 is both the end and the beginning, and Pallas is both a warrior and a wise woman.  She knows exactly what needs to be done.

Back to Margot Cairne.  In her video The Mediocrity Trap, she tells how corporate warriors resist their emotions. Not logically, not from a clear space of arguing that they are unnecessary. But from fear of the breakdown in their reality that will inevitably occur once their feelings breach the wall.  One of the most common questions I get asked in personal sessions is How do I feel my feelings?  Being able to access our own inner awareness is a millenium tool.   It brings a breakdown in our existing reality, and great responsibility for creating the world anew.

Once we start tuning in, then what?  If we all turn into navel gazing flower children, who will run the world?  That would be you.  Because it’s not about tuning in for the sake of dropping out.  It’s about dropping in. As we begin to access this powerful inner guidance (represented by the feminine polarity) we must also begin to act on it (the masculine pole).  We can no longer look outside ourselves for directions on where to go, what to do and when to do it.  At this point in our evolution, these choices are ours alone.

This brings us to the very edge of the known world.  Because, right here and right now, our understanding of what it means to be a human being shifts.  The structures we have relied on – the mother and the father – the nurturing and the providing – are being given over into our hands.  No more goddess and gods to look out for us.  We must own the place within ourselves where we have been orphaned, where we haven’t received what we’ve needed to thrive. It’s time to step beyond the hurt and the woundedness. We have completed that part of our journey. We are on the cusp of taking these powerful capacities for creation, and learning how to make them our own.

Acting on our intuition and feelings is a new way of being.  We can no longer map ‘reality’ through knowing the rules of the patriarchal structure – that things will always be this way and we can rely on them.  We are standing on the cusp of the unknown.  It’s up to us to create what happens next.  Step by step.

 

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After decades of dedicated personal work, it’s time for women to step into their powerful healing work.  So many others are waking up and they need you to show them the way.

If you feel called to create a new, fulfilling and purposeful business that calls out everything that is unique and beautiful in you, then this is your time.  It’s so important for you to understand – it really matters!

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11 Comments

  1. You are saying what I have been feeling Kim..extreme sensitivity and even anger. The urge to expand rather than contract and stay true to what I need to evolve into, is also strong. No shrinking no matter what is happening out there. The feminine force is indeed rapidly becoming a force to be reckoned with (Marianne Williamson, for example). Thanks for the very valued insights Kim.

  2. Dear Kim,

    You express yourself with such clarity. Transparent and to-the-point and truly empowering. I totally relate to the experience of Decrease having Jupiter in 41.5, but from that space of severe contraction a strong desire is born and along with it the courage to jump into the unknown.

    I have now forsaken my work and livelihood. Instead I write poetry 🙂

    May your life blossom and raise the frequency in your design so you can swim in your radiance,

    Nina

    “COMING HOME”

    I came into this world
    with love, curiosity and wonder
    I swam in an ocean of gratitude
    until my mind began to ponder

    I was at one with everything around,
    but knew I had to find my brand
    I saw myself in others;
    And knew I had to understand

    Time went by and I realized
    that no one viewed life as I did
    Boundaries grew up around me
    and crystallized into a grid

    I felt penetrated by frost;
    as my being transformed into ice
    I bought the boundaries around me,
    but struggled to pay the price

    I sucked in the water around
    to become the biggest and best,
    but I never fully crystallized;
    no matter how I dressed

    I strived and strived in vain;
    to create patterns of symmetry
    I had to define myself;
    to determine the value of me

    Everyone around me was busy,
    manifesting their crystals of ice,
    but in the ocean of ice cubes
    I could not find my paradise

    All of a sudden I noticed
    why one droplet turned into ice
    A warm and mild breeze stroked me
    and gradually reduced my size

    I was intrigued to watch the secret
    of how liquid could change its form
    Tears escaped my cube
    and I was taken by the storm

    I let the heat seduce me
    and witnessed my boundaries dissolve
    ‘All I had become’ was melting
    and I was forced by a power to evolve

    My form became smaller and smaller,
    but I actually did expand
    as I learned how to live in this world
    with a new and different brand

    I merged with the water around
    and knew I had come home
    How fascinating it was to discover
    that I had been home all along

    My life is now driven
    by a heartfelt desire
    To guide every crystal
    towards the fire

    Crystals of ice are floating in my ocean
    and that is the way it will always be
    Sooner or later the heat will seduce them
    to make them humbly turn in the ‘me’-

    – Heyoka 2013

    • nina,
      i resonated with so much of what you said and shared… and was left with a feeling – ‘i would like to listen more…’
      do you have a blog?
      i would love to read your poetry, and know more about your experience(s) and your ‘changeover’.

      kim, if nina fails to see this, would it be possible for you to send this message across to her? you can give her my email (biren.biroo@gmail.com)

  3. I just love your work KIm and how you share your personal journey weaved into your wise words. This is exactly how I’m feeling and perceiving the world. Love love the poem Nina. Thanks both

  4. What wonderful depth Kim. I resonate so much with this – especially the isolation, but realise that this is changing the very smallest parts of the cells.

    Love the poem too

    Love
    Bronwen

    • Bronwen it feels so strong to me as well – that lonely struggle coming up to be dissolved into a new web of loving relationships. Imagine our cells, they must be cell-ebrating (sorry .. lol) the increased connections and sense of being part of something.

  5. In the first paragraph you quote, Charles Eisenstein has taken the thoughts from my mind word for word. I am so impatient for something/anything to BEGIN! Yes, indeed, ‘gleeful excitement’ says it all.

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